~ chat'te over a latte ~

ily :)

2012-02-13T10:52:00.003+08:00

... terukir dibintang tak mungkin hilang cinta ku pada mu...

kau mampu??

2012-02-02T11:07:00.002+08:00

lawa gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

sejuk hati suami aku tengok...eh??? kbai!

my mom, them and me...

2012-01-11T21:14:00.007+08:00

Setahun berlalu. Hari ini sudah tahun yang baru.

Pekerjaan yang sama. Rumah yang sama.

Kekasih hati? Maseh juga si dia ^___~

Perlu ke azam baru? Tak wajib. Tapi jika ianya mampu memotivasi diri untuk menjadi lebih baik, apa salahnya?

Ada yang tanya, "Tahun ni tanak beranak lagi ke?"
Aku jawab, "Itu azam tahun depan".
Tak kelakar pon.

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Aku mulakan tahun baru dengan menghantar both my babies balik kampung. Sebulan.
Seronok honeymoon? Kata kau.
Aku yang dok berendam ayaq mata.

Balik dari kerja tiada yang menyambut. Malam terasa sangat sunyi. Takda motivasi nak bangun pagi.

Bila ada, geram. Penat. Mengomel macam-macam. Bila tiada, tercari-cari. Kuat betul penangan manusia-manusia kecik ni.

Cepat mereka membesar. Rasa macam baru je ber-anakkan kakak Sarah, tuptap bulan ni dah nak masuk 2 tahun. Rasa macam baru je lepas kuar OT untuk c-sect Hannan, tuptap dah mula memanjat dah dia...

Ni belum depa cukup umur lagi nak masuk sekolah. Dah mula berkawan. Dah mula tak mau kawan dengan ibu. *huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*

itulah yang mak aku rasa dulu.

What a way to start the new year (--")

2012-01-02T14:31:00.002+08:00

Orang kate, sayang anak tinggal-tinggalkan. Tu yang ditinggalkan Sarah & Hannan kat kampung sebulan.

Muka nampak je kental tapi dok teriak teringat anak dari mula jalan sampai laaa ke rumah diperantauan.

Bukak peti nak hilang dahaga atas jalan, tengok-tengok suis peti ais ter-switch off. Mau x hangin badan kena tonyoh cuci bersih peti & kena beli balik stok barang untuk sebulan.

Pegi shopping konon nak pujuk hati, tuptap xdak pulak saiz yang muat dikaki. Oh!

Enough about me. So, how's ur new year?

Wordless Wednesday \o/

2011-11-02T12:09:00.001+08:00

Kau kena sedar yang kau tu dah tua...

2011-10-16T16:42:00.001+08:00

... bila sebelum nk cabut rumput pon ko kena stretching dulu untuk mengelakkan sengal-sengal di paha keesokan harinya*adeh*

Adik ku si kelakar ;)

2011-10-09T21:45:00.001+08:00

(Dalam kereta)
Ayong, Aisyah rase nak muntah la...
Boleh tahan x? Tunggu ayong berenti tepi jalan jap.

(Tepi jalan)
Haa... cepat la keluar. Kang termuntah dalam kereta kang lagi susah.
Tolong ayong! Aisyah tak boleh keluar! Kaki Aisyah kena semut-semut

*gelak guling2 dlm keta*

Ber-sms dengan ayah.

2011-10-07T11:19:00.003+08:00

"Salam ayah. Esok ayah gerak ke KL jam brape?"

"Pergerakan subjek to confirm."

amekaw!

K A R M A

2011-10-07T09:55:00.004+08:00

Dear ibu,

I'm sorry for not answering when you called
For lazying around when I should help you with laundry
For letting you clean the toilet while I'm out with friends
For not even helping you plucking the grasses,
even though I knew that you were out there doing it alone...

I am also very sorry...
For delaying work when you want them pronto
For putting the TV channels as top priority
For letting you wait for me while you are in a hurry
For letting you sleep late at night, alone cooking for Eid

I am very sorry ibu,
for E V E R Y T H I N G that I have done to you!

Sincerely,
Your daughter who-was-being-left-alone-scrubbing-the-floor-when-everyone-else-is-in-front-of-the-tv-last-night (-_-)

Shopping-mopping with Mr. Hasben.

2011-09-21T13:48:00.004+08:00

Yang ni lawa dak? *sambil tunjuk dress cumel*
Seksi.
Yang ni? *tunjuk kemeja ranggi plak*
Jarang.
Habeh? Yang mana je yang lulus ni??
Yang ni?? *sambil tunjuk kemeja panjang kain tebai macam karung beras*

:P

-----

Lawa betol laa baju2 depa ni... stress jadinya!
Kenapa?
Yelah. Lawa dah, rega pon xdak la mahai mana. Tapi jarang. Dah la orang jenis maleh nak ber-inner2 ni. Bengang je...
Takpelaa.. Elok ber-stress2 dahulu. Ber-rilek2 kemudian...
Pasai pa plak?
Elok stress xdapat pakai baju jarang kat dunia... Tapi, jadi bidadari yang paling lawa kat akhirat kemudian...
Eheh ^____^"

l u p e . . .

2011-09-19T17:03:00.002+08:00

tengok jam. dah 1.10 pm.
"ade kelas pukul 2. baik solat dulu" detik hati kecil ku.

pegi bilik air. bersihkan diri. amek wudhu.

masuk surau. pkai telekung.
rasa bangga sekejap pasal aku antara yang berjaya solat awal waktu.

angkat takbir. Allaahuakbar...

"Weh. bukan ko period ke hari ni??" tegur dia.

tak jadi nak rukuk. cepat-cepat bukak telekung ^____^"

Konfom x dapat duit raya! ;p

2011-09-18T16:28:00.002+08:00

Makyong comel tak?
Tak.

Makyong lawa tak?
Tak.

Makyong tak cantik ke? Tak manis?
Tak. Tak. Semua tak.

Makyong buruk sangat ke?
Aah.

... Perlu ke kau jujur smp begitu sekali? T_T"

Tuesday blues~

2011-09-13T12:26:00.002+08:00

apsal serabut sangat aku tengok ko ni? tak sehat ke?

aah. penat beraya...

ceh.

Rendang ibu...

2011-09-11T20:10:00.003+08:00

do you see what ai see??

Aku: ni sape yang tinggai sudu dalam periuk ni??
Ibu: memang saje tinggai, nak bagi daging empuk.
Aku: ye ke?? Xtau pun...
Ibu: mana nak tau, dah x ghajin turun dapoq
Aku: *amek kau*

balek kampong!!!!!!!

2011-09-08T13:25:00.007+08:00

...badan terjelepuk di kerusi tapi hati sudah di kampung. oh!

-----
aku baru nak balek beraya di Ipoh minggu ini. cuti Jumaat & Isnin sudah lulus. hari ni baru Khamis, tp hati aku sudah tak kuase nak mengadap keje. beg sudah siap berzip. tinggal tunggu nak dimuat masuk ke dalam kereta je. woha!

-----
seminggu kami beraya di Melaka tahun ni. tp dah memang turn Melaka pon. kebetulan enchek hasben pun kena standby, jadi keputusan untuk beraya di Melaka memang tepat sekali. kalau kena panggil masuk kerja, sekurangnya tak lah jauh nak drive balik bekerja...

and you know what?
takde lah teruk sangat duduk beraya LAMAAA di rumah mertua. mungkin sebab aku bawak 'modal' yang mencukupi pulang. bila aku kata 'modal', ianya bukan kerepek, bukan kueh raya. tapi itu budak-budak kicik penglipur lara :)

cucu cucu sayang :)

-----
awal tahun lepas, abang ipar aku kawen. rezqi mereka bunting pelamin, dah nak bersalin puan Bini hujung bulan ni.

dengan adik ipar aku dah pesan, jangan kawen awal sangat. aku belum puas merasa seronok ade adik lelaki lagi.

... tapi hujung tahun ni turn dia pulak.
kalau bini dia pon rezqi cepat, tergugat ah kedudukan aku sebagai ibu kepada cucu2 kesayangan (-_-")

2011-09-05T17:45:00.001+08:00

...bizi nye aku

*entry budget Perdana Menteri :P*

3 beautiful years...

2011-07-18T21:41:00.001+08:00

Happy Anniversary Sayang :)

pengalaman c-sect adik kakak 2

2011-07-01T14:54:00.006+08:00

lain orang, lain ceritanya.
dari pengalaman sendiri, bersalin secara caesarian juga ada peritnya.

kalau bersalin normal, sakit yang dirasai bermula sebelum dan semasa sesi bersalin itu sendiri. tapi bila bersalin secara pembedahan, rasa sakit itu datang semasa dan selepas selesai pembedahan. tak percaya? terpulang... sebab lain orang, lain pengalamannya :)

sebelum bersalin, aku cuba untuk mempersiapkan diri mentally by asking people their experiences and reading lots of infos on c-sest delivery. and i secretly hopes that it wont hurt that much.
pengalaman operation yang dulu (waktu ectopic dulu) sedikit sebanyak membantu juga, cuma dulu i opted for full-bius. bior tak sedor langsung. heh...

tapi, full anesthetic will only be used if there is complication to the mother (kalau tak silap aku laa). so, half-anesthetic it is. cuma pelik, kenapa depa tak bagi husband masuk. pasal setahu aku, kalo dah namanya private, dorang tak fussy sangat pasal husband going in the O.T. ntah la.

cuma aku rasa, kalau laa si suami dapat masuk and tengok sendiri proses pembedahan tu, mesti dia lagi tambah-tambah sayang kat aku *eheh- perasan*

keluar dari O.T, aku masih lagi terketor-ketor macam baru lepaih kuar freezer. nurse pon dok pelik, pasaipa aku dok terketaq2 lagi walaupon dah kuar dr O.T. Doc kate aku ni kecik, kurus, lemak tarak. itu pasai dok rasa sejuk sgt tu...

bila depa dah usung masuk wad, aku tak dibenarkan makan sehingga 6jam. kalau dahaga sgt nk minum pn, sip sikit2 je. dorg takut gastrik, psl perut baru lepas kena peghosah tadi kan huhuu...

knowing me, mane mau nye aku tahan. dok minum laa sikit2 ayaq zamzam yang ibu bawak tu. sikit je pon aku teguk, tak sampai 2 sudu pon. tuptap perut rasa tak sedap, terus dok muntah balik semua. and when i say semua, entah segala macam cecair dok keluar. i got no control over myself at the moment. macam mana anak ko muak bila dia tak disedawa lepas minum, macam tu gk laa aku dok muntah. ahmad muaz dah menggelabah. sian tengok dia kelam kelibut. sayang dia kat bini dia :)

malam yang pertama, aku tak boleh bangun lagi. nak weewee suma pakai tiub. tapi dok gagah gak men hp, nak updet status kt FB suma hehehehhe...

malam tu, bila family semua datang, the one person that i look forward was my pretty Sarah. oh, rindunya ibu kat kakak Sarah ibu sorang ni. tapi, mampuh dia tak heran kat aku, pasai dia dh nampak abah dia dulu *ceh*

nak kecik ati pon tak guna, bukan aku buleh dukung dia pon huhuhuhu....

the next day, nurse kasi bukak suma tubes yang ado. and i have to try to go to the bathroom sendiri. of course la ahmad muaz kna ngekor skali. buatnya aku mangkor dalam bilik ayor tu sape nk tanggung??

darah nifas tak sebanyak yg dulu, probably bcos doctor dh sedut mos of it waktu kat O.T (kata aku laa). tapi MASYAALLAH SAKITNYA BADAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aku ibarat Quasimodo yang membongkok nak ke bilik air, jalan macam nenek kebayan tak bertongkat and napas dok putus-putus pasal menahan sakit... kalau bersalin normal ituhari, at least badan tak sakit. celah tu ja yang dok mengepit pasal takut carik eheh

tapi yelaa... kalo tak sakit, bukan nak beranak la namanya... kalo tak sakit, bukan Jihad la namanya... kalo tak sakit, mana nak terhapus dosa dosa lama :)

sebenarnya, proses melahirkan ni lebih menitikberatkan keselamatan si anak dalam kandungan. kalau yang terbaik untuk si anak adalah melalui 'tingkap', maka si ibu pon kena la akur dengan cadangan doktor. bukan saje2 je dokte nak bedah ko. kalau rezqi anak keluar melalui 'pintu', bersyukurlah. yang penting, kedua-duanya selamat. sehat. walafiat :)

aku bersyukur gak sebenarnya diberi peluang merasa nikmat bersalin Cesarian ni. walopun sakit, sekurangnya aku merasa rasa sakit keduanya. dan boleh berkongsi pengalaman dengan semua. yang pasti, aku takkan jadi macam depa-depa yang sesuka hati mengata si ibu yang bersalin si anak secara c-sect.

sakit tau? sapa kata tak sakit ;p

atas nama chenta :)

2011-06-26T15:11:00.002+08:00

Antara pantang sewaktu berpantang:
- jalan kena perlahan
- stokin kna panjang, tebai, tak boleh tak pakai
- minyak panas adalah sahabat baik sepanjang 44hari
- rambut kena ikat sanggul tinggi, ketat smp kulit muka tegang megang
- tak boleh membaca, menonton tivi
- makan tak boleh tambah, sekali makan biar banyak terus
- air minum kena panas dan tak boleh minum terlampau banyak
- muka badan kna rajin tempek segala jamu mamu

dan apa yang akan berlaku jika pantang dilanggar?
segala macam sakit akan mendekati anda tatkala dikejar usia. tak payah tunggu tua, esok lusa pon dah buleh rasa kesannya. oh!

... ahmad muaz, terima kaseh kerana sanggup jaga saya sampai tua. i love you too :)

pengalaman c-sect adik kakak

2011-06-14T14:42:00.004+08:00

hari ke-18.
sekejap je masa berlalu. macam baru semalam je dokte dok robek-robek perut aku.

menipu betui. kalau semalam baru kena operate, kompom ini hari dok terbaring je seharian ;p
~~~~~

my due date is supposed to be on the 5th of June. tapi aku sudah standby di rumah since 21st of May, as ordered by the doc. and since my next appointment is on the coming Saturday, decided to mula cuti jela. sian ahmad muaz dah tak larat nk pegi-balek hantar aku ke ipoh... :)

so,
Sabtu tu, lepaih amek Aisyah dari tuisyen, aku pon poei la ke hospital for my weekly checkup. sementara tunggu turn, ade la 2-3 kali aku ke toilet. standart ah ibu mengandung, kalo tak ke toilet selalu tak sah. tapi, yang saspennye, ade secalit warna merah ibarat darah di panties. timbul sedikit gabra. "ini ka ghopa bleeding nye??"

aku rilek lagi. tak lama dah turn aku. satgi la baru inform doc.
aku ke toilet lagi. kali ni ade lendir2 darah plak. "sah bleeding ni."

masuk bilek doktor.
"bagaimana puan hari ni?"
"saya rasa saya dah bleeding la doktor..."

terus doc suh aku baring. dia nak check utk confirmation.
sah bleeding katanya.
dia scan plak perut.
uri sudah tidak blocking the exit. tapi kepala masih tidak engage.

"takde jalan lain, puan. kita akan operate hari ni juga."
"heh?? hari ni gak?? bila?"
"sekarang?"
"HEH!!"

mau tak gabra!

"tak buleh induce ke doctor? kenapa kena operate gak? kan plasenta dah tak block exit?"

"betul tu puan, tapi puan dah bleeding. kalau kepala dah engage, memang kita buleh cuba induce lagi. and since dah bleeding, kite tak mahu amek risiko tunggu kepala baby engage. takut puan hilang banyak darah..."

alhamdulillah... aku tak kena bedah dan dan tu gak. since tekanan darah, jantung suma ok stabil, doktor berani bagi can laki aku sampai ipoh dulu baru bedah.

ahmad muaz sampai dalam 3 lebih, doktor kate aku akan masuk operation room dalam jam 5. waktu tu, aku and suami rilek lagi. buleh dok online, men game, bace blog komik suma lagi. dekat jam 5, nurse dh suruh aku tukar baju suma.

aku mula gabra.

sebelum ditolak keluar, nurse tanye "nak cakap pape dgn suami tak?"
aku nampak muka ahmad muaz cuak. sayang jugak dia kat aku :)

ahmad muaz ikut aku sampai ke pintu bilik bedah. dah tak nampak dia baru aku mula gabra.

bila dah beralih tilam, aku ditolak masuk ke bilik bedah. macam dalam tivi tu la, bilik yang ade lampu duatiga tu. ramai dalam O.T (operation theatre), nurses, doc bius, and more nurses. macam-macam laa depa dok sembang sesama sndri. aku dok telentang macam hapa dah tak sapa pedulik huhuhuhu...

doc bius mula cucuk bius kat blakang badan. itu baru bius utk pastikan blakang aku tak sakit, since depa akan cucuk another ubat into my spinal utk pastikan aku takkan rasa apa-apa from the hip all the way to my feet.

once the medication starts to make its effect, everyone suddenly went quiet. tapi suma pakat kelam kabut baringkan aku, cover pandangan aku from leher upwards and the surgery starts...

sungguh, memang aku tak rasa doctor kerat perut aku suma. tapi aku dapat rasa ade benda tekan, benda kuar masuk dari bahagian bawah.

aku cuba sehabis baik untuk ingat apa yang berlaku tapi mashaallah... sejuknye dlm o.t tu!!!!! tangan, bahu, tulang pipi aku suma bergetar dek tak tahan sejuk! aku siap mintak tolong nurse urutkan tulang pipi aku, lenguh dok bergetar nonstop.

tapi aku sempat dengar doktor mintak forcep and nurse dok tekan2 perut aku. and yes, aku dpt rasa sakit kena tekan itu.

and suddenly, kedengaran suara teriak adik kakak :)

... sesungguhnya, sapa yang kata bersalin operate tak sakit adalah penipu bosaw!!!!!!

* to be continue

she has arrived!

2011-05-29T13:46:00.000+08:00

presenting the arrival of

Ummu Hannan Binti Mu'az @ Ahmad Muaz Bin A'denar

D.O.B: May 28, 2011
T.O.B: 5.33 pm
P.O.B: Pusat Rawatan Islam Ar-Ridzuan
Weight: 3.1 kg
Length: 5.2 cm

welcome to the family dear!! :)

having a coke with you...

2011-05-10T14:44:00.001+08:00

is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I'm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o'clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles

and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them

I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it's in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven't gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn't pick the rider as carefully
as the horse

it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

—Frank O'Hara

she's back for the week!

2011-05-07T16:22:00.001+08:00

Sarah & my sisters are here for the whole week! *yeay!*

Angah drives and Ajah cam besa laa kena babysit Sarah. alhamdulillah, Sarah tdoq all the way sampai dr Tapah sampai ke PD. dah sampai ghomah pon dia dok sibuk nak tdoq lagi. hahahahaha... sayang ibu penat ye jalan jauh dengan keta? :)

rindu betul ibu dengan Sarah. rasa puas dapat tengok muke Sarah setiap hari, Sarah senyum kat ibu pagi-pagi, Sarah tunggu ibu dekat sliding door setiap kali ibu balek keje... sejukkk hati :)

abah lagi lagi laaa suke. berdokong je kome berdua ;)

~~~~~

Ibu repot, kata Sarah asek dok garu dia punya tanda lahir sampai luka berdarah. doktor plak mane buleh simply kasik ubat gitu je tanpa checkup.

so, that Friday, i purposely took a day off from work to bawak Sarah to see her Paed. and bawak adik2 aku berjalan. sian pulak kat dema dok terperuk dalam ghomah je. Sarah takpe, she's in her own playland *hehehe*

but the special reason we went out was because...
... i'm off to Celcom centre to claim my

hehehehe ^___^"

ye, ye. aku tahu, aku laa dulu dok bising kata telepon yang kena touchscreen ni leceh laa, hape laa...

... tapi, kalo dah ado org nk belanje, ape salahnye kan? hehehehe...

sungguhpon henpon ni berat, nak pegang pon takut-takut pasal casing blakang dia kaca, kamera dia pon tak canggih mcm Elm aku....

... tapi memang pueh ati laa bila nk check/reply email, online FB, blogwalking... rase macam dok surf guna netbook but smaller.

suami-ku ahmad muaz, terima kaseh ye? tapi maap, ai x mampu nak balas hadiah mahai2 kat yuu (--")

nanti yuu claim dari anak-anak kite ye? *eheh*

3 tahun yang lalu...

2011-05-02T16:55:00.000+08:00

Hari Buruh. orang cuti. tapi aku koje.
aloh... takat nk koje jage exam je, bukannye penat mane pon. buhsan je la sikit. tapi dapat claim cuti triple woo! *yeah*

aku ni, dh memang terdesak dh mencari peluang menambah jumlah cuti tahunan. yelaa... setahun dapat cuti 14hari je. kalu bawak anak checkup suma, mane laa dapat m.c. jadi kena laa tolak cuti tahunan *uhuk uhuk*

ni dh nak bersalin ni, kena laa standby cuti gak. mane laa tahu nak lajak cuti bila2 ke... aku bukan koje gomen. kalo dak, buleh cuti bersalin sampai 3bulan hohoho...

~~~~~

May 2. Monday.
Since Labour Day falls on Sunday, so Monday kira cuti am laa. hohoho... makcik suke!

bila diingat-ingatkan lagi, hari ni sebenarnya genap 3 tahun aku bekerja sebagai pendidik. terdidik-kah murid-murid ku? ntah. insyaallah, aku dah cuba sehabes baik. berkongsi ilmu semampunya, dengan harapan, ade yang keluar menjadi manusia.

kesian sebenonye kat budak2 ni. kesian kat depa, kesian kat mak pak depa. yang memang datang NAK belajar, NAK cuba berubah... memang ado. tapi tak seramai yang datang untuk bersuka-suki. kununnye, masuk kolej ni lah masa untuk depa berjoli, merasai hidup bebas tanpa kongkongan mak ayah...

banyak terpengaruh dengan tivi sangat budak2 sekarang ni *mcm laa aku baek sgt* (-_-")

ye, aku akui. dulu waktu first sem kat u*ia, bukan men lagi aku jelajah KL tu. pi situ, pi sini. jalan sana, jalan sini. tapi dak laa sampai klabbing bagai suma. aku maseh sedar asal usulku.

study pon slalu last minute, buat esemen main dann je, takde laa nak khusyuk macam orang len.

hasilnya, pointer tak naik tiga. takdak la bawah dua. tapi keciwa laa pasai aku tau, aku buleh dapat tiga. dulu waktu matric buleh ja dapat tiga kan??

menyesal takdak guna.

itu yang aku dok bebel setiap kali masuk kelas pertama setiap semester.

"Awak kena fokus dari hari pertama kelas..."
"Buat semua latihan, assignment yang saya bagi..."
"Tak faham, datang jumpa saya..."

tapi macam besa laa...
manusia mudah lupa :)

depa ni, yang kaya tu. kaya laa. tapi yang kaya pon bukan depa, mak pak depa jaa...

tapi kalau yang kurang berkemampuan tu, memang kita kesian sangat...
bapak keja buruh, mak surirumah, adik-beradik ghamai... tapi kalau hangpa tak usaha sendiri, mana mau kami tolong lebih-lebih...

kelas selalu ponteng. dalam kelas tak fokus. bila bagi assignment, nampak beno copypaste nye. pastu bila exam, semedang dok tanya aku maksud perkataan. takkan laa dah sem6 pon tak tau maksud 'describe' lagi sayang oiii?????

kesian tau kat depa ni... kesian sangat. tapi kalau depa sendiri tak kesian kat diri sendiri, camna? markah dari 40% dapat 8% ja??

~~~~~

dalam2 aku xmau jadik cikgu dulu, ni laa sumber rejeki aku sejak 3 tahun yang lalu. alhamdulillah, onak duri dalam realiti bekerja berjaya ditempuh. cuma aku harap, tahun-tahun yang akan datang, aku akan lebih kuat, lebih cemerlang, bekerja dengan lebih tekun supaya gaji aku dok dapat setiap bulan ni halal, bukan hasil kerja curik tulang! *ameeenn*

ada niat nak sambung M.A, supaya nikmat ilmu lebih meluas. cuma belom diketemu laei ruang masa yang sesuai. mungkin lepas enchek suami graduate dr B.A nya. harap tidak terlambat :)

~~~~~

anak-anak ibu,
besar nanti, blajar rajin2 ya? biar pandai macam abah :)

Barakallah :)

2011-04-30T10:44:00.000+08:00

suami:
kenapa dorang kawen hari Jumaat ek?
isteri:
laaa... kan berkat nikah hari Jumaat, penghulu segala hari? *wink* ^___~

~ ~~~~~

sungguh-sungguh laa meriah kawen depa ni. almost everyone tuned in to see the live coverage of their wedding. yours truly ni koje, so lepaih koje laa baru buleh dok feeling2 layan blushing perasan pengantin baru *teheee*

berseri sungguh kedua mempelai :)
dress si Kate ni pon simple je, yet elegant. tp nampak mcm kurus sangat...

her baju persalinan is to die for! lawa gile!!!! sleek habes!

Will,
jaga bini hang baik-baik noo. Jangan jadi macam pak hang naa... semoga kekal bahagia selamanya...

** panjang sungguh rukun nikah depa ;p

when she's not around...

2011-04-26T12:17:00.005+08:00

a phone conversation between 2 sisters:

angah:
ibu kol angah tadi. kate ayong asek dok tanye jadi ke dak pi PD. tak sabo sabo...

ayong:
elehh... ibu pon dulu same gak. kalo ayong nak balek, hari-hari kol tanye, "Jadi ke balek?" cehh...

omak den sekarang dah pandai kerek woo... mentang-mentang cucu dia depan mata, dok dengan dia... aku yang dok hari-hari cakap sorang-sorang dengan gambo Sarah *huhu*

~~~~~

anyway,
its been a month (or so) since we left Sarah under the care of her Acik Ajah & Opah. and once every 2 weeks (or three), kami pasti balek nak melawat anak di 'asrama'. hehe...

alhamdulillah... tuhan sayang kami sekeluarga. Sarah baik2 sahaja disana. waktu mula-mula tinggal dulu, baru bertatih. balek kali pertama, sudah pandai jalan-lari. kali kedua, sudah pandai kucup tangan (dengan bunyi woo) dengan sujud solat semua.

aduh. rase macam rugi terlepas melihat dia belajar benda baru di depan mata.

Kakak Sarah anak yang pandai bawak diri. Bila kak Mae dia balek kampung (for good), dia tidak mencari-cari. faham yang hal penjagaan sudah bertukar tangan. Acik Ajah menjadi teman makan tidur yang baru. pandai amek bantal tidur sendiri dikala kepenatan, pandai main sendiri dan tak kacau laptop Acik bila bosan...

... dah besar dah anak ibu yang sorang ni :)

lepas ni, Acik Ajah dah nak kembali ke uni. Makngah pulak yang akan take-over tugasan, sementara nk tunggu ibu balek bersalin-pantang di kampung. Sayang sabar ye? Nanti kite jaga adik Kakak sama-sama ye? :)

~~~~~

and sejak menjak Sarah di Ipoh, aku akan ngekor enchek hasben ke KL every weekend. busan duh sorg2 kat ghumah. lagi-lagi bila Sarah takde. elok ikut dia, ade distraction. buleh jalan-jalan carik makan + pasal+ kawan ;)

and since aku dah lama tak mai keyell ni, bukan men lagi aku mencari port makan zaman2 blajaq dulu. laki aku pon, nak buat macam mana, layankan jelaa...

macam2 aku teringin ni:
Burger King, assam laksa (kat Jusco Midvalley), nasi kandaq Deen, nasi campuq Sri Ayu (kat Sri Gombak), charkueytiaw + nasi lemak Malinja, megi kari Ameenah (lama), Subway, Taco Tao, roti nan cheese, Daim Cake Ikea...

... i could go on and on you know?

memang macam orang kampung mula sampai pekan. lantak laa orang nak kate aku culture-shock ka, hapa kaa... janji aku kenyang! kat PD tak hado, jadi bila dah sampai aku hantam sampai lobam!

bughok peghangai mak budak neh (-_-")

tapi,
bukan suma pon aku dapat. pasal bila aku dh kenyang, aku pon dah tak heran yang len2 tu. bila lapaq jaa suma benda aku nak telan ;p

macam assam laksa. mampuih aku tak sanggup nak redah traffic jam + parking cam harem kek Bangsar tuh. dapat yang Laksa Shack pon jadi laa... lebih kurang je rasanya *alhamdulillah*

Subway pon sama. tak prasan plak aku yang depa guna sijil Halal Msia & Asian Region, bukan yang Jakim pny. enchek hasben punye polisi, kalo kedai yang tak pkai Halal Jakim, ke-halal-an nye diragui. dan bila dah ragu-ragu, mana buleh makan dah. tu yang kami dah lama gila tak makan kat Johnny's, the same case applies.

cuma ada satuuu je benda je yang aku nak buat tapi aku tak buat bila pi KL. yakni tawaf Danau Kota. omak den tak bagi. bising dia bila aku kasitau mau pegi uptown.

ibu:
toksah gatei. dah sarat2 macam tu pon nak pegi gak town town tu. jadi pape kang...

tang 'jadi pape kang' tu yang buat aku seghiyau nak melanggar arahan. doa ibu itu mujarab. tak pasal2 kang aku kena 'tulah' ;p

last weekend, pegi studio Jabbe. kebetulan nak booking photo+video untuk majlis adik ipar. buleh tahan gak bisnes, setiap bulan ade gig. tapi macam dia kata laa, awal2 dulu sesak gak laa nk idup. sekarang, dh mampu ade studio, maknanya rezeqi semakin melimpah ruah *alhamdulillah*

senang ati tengok kawan suma berjaya. alhamdulillah :)

jaki je aku tengok album2 depa ni. pre-wedding la, maternity laa...
tula. kawen cepat sangat. tak nyempat2 nak kumpul duit elok2. kalau dak, merasa laa tangkap gambo lawo2 macam depa ni *huuuu*

... tapi, aku tetap bahagia takdak gambaq outdoor lawa-lawa pon *ayat sedapkan ati* ^___^"

yang kanan tu maseh single *wink wink*

ade rezqi, nak bawak Sarah tangkap gambar kat sini. mesti comel :)

yes YOU!

2011-04-22T12:43:00.001+08:00

Everything happens for a reason

2011-03-25T10:03:00.004+08:00

It's been 2 weeks since we left our precious Sarah at her granny's. and every time anyone brought out her name, it got tears in my eyes.

the sole reason why we left her, was to train her Acik Ajah since her nanny is going back for good. her father and i make ourselves believe that it is best for her to be in the hands of family, rather than outsiders. what more, her sister will be coming out soon.

dari ipoh, sampai la ke rawang, i cant stop crying. susah hati. kalih kepala to the back seat, teringat Sarah yang selalunya akan terbongkang tdoq kat belakang. sampai rumah, nanges lagi. teringat Ummu Sarah yang selalunya akan berdiri di sliding door, tunggu ibu balik kerja. and bila nak tido, teringat Ummu Sarah yang selalunya akan merap mahu ditepuk dodoi sampai mamai...

*and obviously i'm in tears while typing this entry*

aduh. aku tak kuat.

~~~~~

day 1 after we left her, i went for my monthly checkup with the K-KPP. i've officially entered my 3rd trimester. however, i have this condition called Placenta Praevia, type 2, yang mana cik Uri yang sepatutnya berada di atas, terletak dibahagian bawah dan menutupi sebahagian dari ruang pintu rahim. the doctor, wanting to be sure ordered me to be warded A.S.A.P for there are a lot of complications once you are diagnosed with such condition.

aku sebenarnya sudah aware of the location of the placenta since my 5months. even the doctor pun dh btau, kalo dah masuk 7bulan tapi uri maseh lagi dibawah, hospital gomen akan tahan ko dok dalam wad sampai: a) uri ko naik balik. b) sampai ko bersalin.

gila kau? koje banyak lagi tak siap, final question paper to be submitted etc etc.

scary duh.
aku pegi K-PJ, to get 2nd opinion from my other Gyno. and yes, he agreed with the doctor's diagnosis. he, however, manage to make me feel a little bit happy for he said that i can still go to work as usual provided that i did not push myself too much. no stairs climbing, no heavy lifting, no fast walking. and no 'intimacy' with the husband. kasihan. hahahahaha ^___^"

if any bleeding of fresh blood happens, i need to go to the hospital A.S.A.P. till then, just take care of myself until my 30weeks for further checkup.

see?
there are reasons for everything. tuhan bukan saje2 nak uji kau, pisahkan kau dengan si manja. tapi tuhan mahu kau berehat, beri masa untuk diri sendiri dan adik Sarah.

aku redha.
ade kemungkinan adik Sarah akan dilahirkan melalui pembedahan. cuma aku berdoa agar adik Sarah lahirnya matang, selepas 9bulan. bukan sebelumnya.

tolong doakan kami sama ya? untuk kakak Sarah juga :)

Take a break~

2011-03-25T09:22:00.002+08:00

It is Ira's time of the month (to get serviced).
Ira who? My car, Proton Wira. I have the tendency to name every cars owned by my dad. Like my sister's Elis & my former beau Iskandar. dont ask me why ;p

anyway, since she's not available, i've opted to carpool with a colleague. and since her husband was the driver, i prefer to just enjoy the ride instead of being the usual me- chitchatting like its nobody's business!

its been awhile since i last sat at the back as a passenger, rather than the driver.
its comforting to look at the blue sky and admiring the white clouds. the green scenery really complements the whole picture. tu belom nampak nampak burung-burung terbang berkicauan. *heh*

it was then i realised, that sometimes you need to take a break from life and admires the beauty around you.

when you are too occupied with something (e.g work, boring daily routine) you tend to mislook the small things in life that used to make you smile. that used to make you happy. you ignore your likings towards nature, substitutes your passion for reading with watching stupid reality shows on tv, keeping time only to yourself rather than spending it with family and friends...

i am describing myself though. loving outdoors especially kayaking, but ended up spending my weekends laying flat on my back in front of the tv, even though the beach is just like 5mins away. enjoys splurging money on books but they ended up being kept at God-knows-where.

tak boleh macam tu.
hidup ni bukan untuk kerja semata. sungguhpun bekerja untuk duit, tapi ape guna duit kalau tidak digunakan sebaiknya. apa guna duit kalau masa untuk diri sendiri tidak terjaga.

everyone deserves a break. i know i do :)

in denial.

2011-03-03T22:03:00.003+08:00

Situasi 1:
Di pasaraya ‘gergasi’.

Lelaki: Tumpang lalu, tumpang lalu.
Aku: (dengan baik hatinya member laluan kepada pekerja pasaraya itu menolak troli barang)
Lelaki: Terima kasih makcik!
Aku: *Makcik?*

Situasi 2:
Maseh di pasaraya yang sama.

Perempuan: Puan ada kad G*ant?
Aku: Takde.

*Tibe2 laki aku interframe mintak dukungkan Sarah sekejap.

Perempuan: Semuanya RM****, makcik.
Aku: *Makcik??*

Kedua-dua lelaki & perempuan di situasi diatas memang aku tak tipu komfem lagi TUA dari aku? Tapi pasai pa I was the one being called as ‘makcik’???

Yes, I know I’ll be 27 this coming Nov but still... (-_-“)

~~~~~

A friend tagged me in one of her photos of us together.

… and I have to admit. I do look OLD in the picture. Oh!

Is it because of my dressing? Or my choice of scarf? Blamed it on my new full-framed glasses, no?

Sedikit down. (-_-“)

Aku tau aku tak lawa. Tapi aku tak pernah pikir yang aku ni tak comel. *Punya laa high self-esteem*

Should I start putting on make-ups?

– no. I’m just too stingy to splurge money on something I rarely use.

Or change my style of wearing the hijab?
– no. I’m too lazy to belit2 kepala dgn all those current style punye selendang.

Ngadu dekat encik suami. Dengan harapan dia akan memuji, senangkan ati bini.

He said,

“Tulaa, orang dah lama tak ngaji macam tu la. Hilang nur kat muka. Tengok macam saye ni, berseri-seri je.”

ceh.

The Romantics

2011-02-18T14:10:00.004+08:00

"...because that's what friends do. they fall in love with each other."

~ Laura, The Romantics.

Rezqi Tuhan yang bagi :)

2011-02-16T21:19:00.006+08:00

sudah 6bulan. cepat je masa berlalu :)

kakak sarah sudah mahu berjalan, tapi maseh malu-malu. takpe sayang, ibu tunggu... tapi ingat, jangan lama sangat. nanti siape nak tolong ambilkan pampers adik sarah nanti?? *hehehe*

~~~~~

semalam jam 10malam kena mula puasa. pagi jam8 esok nye dah tercegat depan klinik. rutin setahun yang lalu ber-ulang kembali. maybe because it's my 2nd time, proses menelan air gula tidaklah se-dasat yang dahulu. tapi, tak lama lepaih tu kepala mula weng. aku dengan selambadaknye pi bantai tidoq atas sofa balik langsir kat breastfeeding area tu *eheh*

ramai yang pelik. berat aku naik mendadak sangat ke sampai kena wat ujian gula? sebelum pregnant, berat aku 43. ni dah 6bulan, baru nek 4kg. ntah. aku layankan je. jangan nanti kate aku tak menurut prosedure sudah. tak kesior aku nak menelan ayor gule itew lagi ;p

~~~~~

tuhan lebihkan rezqi untuk sang suami bulan ini. beliau dikurniakan rahmat bonus berbulan2! alhamdulillah!! den suko! pasal duit dio, duit den jugo *kehkehkehkehkeh*

syukur, setelah 4tahun bekerja, kami (him, to be specific) adalah pemilik sebuah motosikal berjenama K-awasaki. kemain laei dia, suke bebenor dapat harta baru. aku pon tumpang suke, pasal cik abe nampak bergaya sungguh menunggang moto itew ;)

rezqi kami mungkin, selepas berkahwin, Allah dahulukan semuanya. sungguhpun tiada harta, tapi serba serbi sempurna. diberi nikmat kerjaya, rumah berteduh (sungguhpun menyewa), kereta & motor (milik mertua masing2), pulak selepas 10bulan bersama Ummu Sarah muncul tiba. dan tak lama lagi adik Sarah pula...

baik sungguh tuhan pada aku. memang Maha Penyayang, Maha Mengasihi. tapi, adakah aku cukup bersyukur setelah apa yang diberi? terjagakah ibadat? terpeliharakah aurat? (--")

action speaks louder than words. and i'm hoping to acheive that, with better actions each day. "lanjutkan lah rahmat-MU ke atas kami sekeluarga ya Allah."

~~~~~

speaking of rahmat,
husband gave a small part of his bonus to yours truly! but with condition, that it is meant to be spend WISELY!

wisely here refers to buying things for ME, not for the house or food etc. cause he knows that i am bad when it comes to buying things for myself.

thus, after 3years of wearing the same glasses, i (he) bought meself a Tissot brand glasses, complete with Transition-tinted and everything! and its only for rm300!! *suke tersangat suke*

terima kaseh ahmad muaz yang hemsem!! *muahmuahmuah*

husband: murah la plak spek ni ek...
wife: awat? nak baki balek kaa?
husband: *senyum simpui*
wife: tak dapattt!!!!!

i further bought myself 2 long-desired jubahs, 2 tudung awning (to compliment the jubahs), sarung bantals untuk adik Sarah and maseh ado baki!?

dan tadi, waktu dok sibuk berblog-hopping, i came across these:

ya Allah, lawanye kome!!!!
ya Allah, comeinye kome!!!!!!!!

and its handmade people! it comes in many cute fabrics that u can personally choose, from wallets to coin purses, to diaper bags as well!

agak-agak, boley dapat free tak?? *ekekekekekeke*

aduh...gatal tangan seyh!!

(klik sini untuk melihatnya sendiri!)

haa. sudah kedengaran bunyik moto cik abe diluar pagar. kena sambut baik2 ni, untung2 dapat permission beli wallet comei itu nanti *ameeenn* ^____~

Double celebration \o/

2011-01-22T22:52:00.004+08:00

Insyaallah... :)

~~~~~

actually,
the same day we went out to celebrate Sarah's birthday... was the same day of my appointment with the doctor :)

alhamdulillah... all is well. After detailed scanning, he commented "Grossly structurally normal fetus at this gestation". sungguh pun aku tak bape nak paham, i know it meant 'OK' ^___^ which is very good indeed!

and while we were in the middle of the ultrasound, he asked

"want to the gender?"

agak berdebar juge, sungguh pun pernah mengalaminye sebelum ini. still, i replied 'yes.'

berbeza dengan Sarah, si adik sungguh yakin dengan posisi nye lantas doktor dengan yakin membuat konklusi:

"i can 99% say that it's a GIRL cos got no burung coming out"

haaa... 'medical terms' yang gini memang aku paham! hahahahahahahahaha

~~~~~

right after we left his clinic, i immediately called husband:

me: nak tau tak jantina baby?
husband: haa? dah boleh nampak ke? ape dia?
me: dokte kate kan... he 99% sure that its a...
husband: *diam pasal saspen*
me: ... its a girl :)
husband: *terdiam lagi, terkejut kot* hehehehe

~~~~~

at home.

husband: tak boleh jadi ni. kena teruskan usaha. sampai dapat yang lelaki baru rehat lame.
me: #&_)(*&^#$%^&*()(*&^%$#$%^&*(*&^%$ *dush dush*

~~~~~

Kakak Sarah, tahniah! Semoga kakak Sarah dapat tolong ibu jaga adik dengan baik nanti :)

Adik kakak, we'll see you in June! ^___^

Ummu Sarah sudah 1 tahun!! \o/

2011-01-21T09:11:00.006+08:00

Sayang ibu Ummu Sarah!!

tahniah! anak ibu sudah genap 1 tahun!! gigi dah nak masuk 4, and sudah mula mahu berjalan sendiri... aduh! cepat jugak ye masa berlalu ;)

setahun yang lalu, ibu tak percaya yang kamu telah keluar dari perut ibu. dan hari ini, ibu masih tak percaya yang ibu diberi nikmat anak yang baik lagi comel macam kamu!

terima kaseh atas pinjaman ini tuhan! you surely are the best!!

ape yang ibu buat untuk menyambut besday Ummu Sarah??

pertamanya, ibu mintak maaf pasal takde buat majlis parti bagai untuk kamu, macam kezen2 kamu yang lain. pasal ibu percaye, bukan kamu akan ingat pon ape yang jadi. alih2 ibu jugakk yang kena cita tunjuk gambar semua hehehehe...

pulak, Sarah bukan boleh makan kek sehabis banyak lagi. nanti ibu jugakk yang habeskan kek Sarah tu, sape susah? hehehehe...

sungguhpun demikian, itu bukan bermakna ibu tak sayang Sarah... sebab ibu saaaaaaayang Sarah sangat-sangat :)

so, how do we celebrate ur birthday you asked?
simple. we go SHOPPING!!!! \o/

stress je abah tak dapat ikut kite. abah kena work. to pay for our shopping expenses tu jugak kan? ^___~ *hehehehe*

i am not much of a shopper myself, but it is kinda fun spending time goofing around together, with you having fun sitting/standing in the trolley as we marched into the shopping complex.

Abah belanja baby bike untuk Sarah. bukan main syiok lagi kamu! u've been sitting on it all the time, since i've put in the trolley. and you sit on it with pride, siap tekan hon suma wooo. jeles je budak2 len. and passerby suma senyum je tengok kamu sukee je hari tu. it's your birthday honey! you deserve it! :)

ibu pulak bagi ape? errk... ciuman? ^___^" eheh

... agak-agak bile Sarah dh besaw nanti, Sarah nak lagi ke shopping2 dengan ibu ye?

sampai rumah, u did not take your hands (and ur cute butt) off the bike! sampai kamu ended up kena lap je instant of the usual, punya laa takmo turun dari bike. aduh! jenuh!

naseb tido mau lagi atas toto... buatnye kamu nak tido atas bike tu jugak, tak ke naya ibu! ;p

all in all, it was a fun date! so much fun, that you slept soundly throughout the night. :)

thank you again Allah for this lovely gift!

terima kaseh Sarah for being such a lovely kid!

and thank you husband, for being with me all the way through. ily :)

They say the darnest thing!

2011-01-18T17:05:00.003+08:00

while searching online articles for my classes, i came upon these:

Real Man says...

I don't understand why we are even discussing this. Women have no place in the workplace. Where they've been, they've caused strife and suffering. The worst bosses are women because they're too emotional and insecure. And for good reason! They don't have the physical or the mental capacity to function in a professional environment. The worst staff members are women too; they talk the most and always give you lip when you tell them to do something. Anything! What's all this rubbish about helping them achieve "work-life balance"? Women are meant to balance home and hearth and home budgets. Their duties, first and foremost, have always been about carrying babies on their backs, and standing next to a hot stove with a spatula or some other cooking implement in one hand, and a broom on the other. Those are things women should be balancing, as they stand barefooted, always in the house. Not the real challenges of the real hard working world of professionals. Men are made for that. For toiling through long periods for 'the Man'. (There's a reason that expression refers to a male character, think about it.) The least a good woman should do come evening time is make sure the children are taken care of, the dinner is made and served on time, the clothes are neatly pressed and folded, and that a man should be waited on, hand and foot, from the moment he enters the door after work (where she takes his shoes and socks off) through the moment he steps out of the shower into his pyjamas before going to bed. Is that too much to ask? So I say, we as men, must make our stand today. Sound the trumpets to rally round a common purpose: the re-subjugation of women. We must put women in their place. They have caused too many problems. We must discontinue education for women, because it empowers them to talk back. They must learn to speak only when spoken to and such. I urge you to desist. Stop all this nonsense about "women in IT" and other workplaces. Stop the insanity and bring some order into our world. Thank you for your time and consideration. (21 Aug 2008 6:02pm)

Real woman says...

In the first place if men can provide well for the family then the women don't need to join the workforce. If men wishes women to wait on them hand and foot like what 'real man' describes please migrate to Japan. There, women do wait hand and foot on their men. In return their men give their ENTIRE salary to their wives. In fact their companies will automatically deposit the money into the wives account. This also brings to the second point that, because Japanese men have no savings apart from the allowances their wives gives them for their meals (btw men are not allowed to return home until way past dinner or the family loses face as it could mean their bosses don't like them and that these men are not valued at work) the women are not afraid of being abandoned by their husbands. So since most of us are not Japanese, women will have to enter the workforce to ensure they can support themselves should the marriage falls apart plus in trying times like these, most men can't afford not to have their women work as their pay alone is not enough to support the whole family. In many developing countries, many so-called real men are those who drink, womaniser and stay unemployed while women are expected to take care of the entire family, clean the house and be the sole bread winner. Go tell the women not to work and expect the men to bring back the bread! I could go on but I would leave it to others to comment. (22 Aug 2008 7:19pm)

Real equality says...

I don’t understand why we are even discussing this. Men have no place in the workplace. Where they’ve been, they’ve caused strife and suffering. The worst bosses are men because they’re too aggressive and competitive. And for good reason! They don’t have the physical or the mental capacity to function in a professional environment. The worst staff members are men too; they have no emotional intelligence and resort to physical intimidation when asked to do something inconsistent with their proud self-perception. Anything! What’s all this rubbish about allowing them to dominate the most powerful organizations in our society? Men are meant to defend home and hearth, and log fallen trees. Their duties, first and foremost, have always been about carrying home a fat boar for the roast, and standing guard around the settlement with spears or some other deadly implement in one hand, perhaps a knife in the other. Those are things men should be balancing, as they stand barefooted, always on the alert. Not the real challenges of the real hard working world of professionals. Women are made for that; for building relationships, genuine teamwork, respect, collaboration, and negotiation. The least a good man should do come evening time is make sure there is a fresh meat for the family, that the furniture is sturdy, the roof doesn’t leak and that a woman should feel safe and understood, from the moment she enters the door after work (where he listens diligently to the trials of her day) through the moment she steps out of the shower into her pyjamas before going to bed. Is that too much to ask? So I say, we as women, must make our stand today. Sound the trumpets to rally round a common purpose: the subjugation of men. We must put men in their place. They have caused too many problems. We must discontinue education for men, because it empowers them to find more and more sophisticated ways of waging war and killing us all. They must learn to speak only when spoken to and such. I urge you to desist. Stop all this nonsense about “men in IT” and other workplaces. Stop the insanity and bring some order into our world. Thank you for your time and consideration. (24 Sep 2008 8:24pm)

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What say you? :)

engkorang penah beli nombor?

2011-01-03T17:32:00.001+08:00

enchek suami sedang tekun menilik nombor-nombor yang 'ong'

antara rakyat-rakyat 1Malaysia yang turut sama membeli 'nombor'

ko ingat aku dengan laki dok beli nombo ape haaa??? ^___~

seronok jugak ghupanye main beli-beli nombor ni. untung cepat, dapat. kalau tidak, melepas.

and after several attempts, my husband is now is the official owner of the registration number MCA 2110.

kenapa MCA 2110?
MCA - Muaz Cinta Adawiyah
2110 - birth date Ummu Sarah

* pandai laki aku bodek aku kn? :P

~~~~~

oh.

Selamat Hari Lahir yang ke-19 Saidatun Najah!
Be someone with beauty and brain, ya? ;) *insyaallah*

To all the single ladies, soon-to-be-wifey and future mummies...

2010-12-31T10:49:00.000+08:00

.... these are links to entries that will give you a peek of whats to come in the future.

Do read them with an open mind, for they were written based on Kak Hidd and Kak Sue Anna's personal experiences.

The Joys of Having a Kid

Segala Harta Dunia ini Hanya Untuk Dia

enjoy :)

cakap orang, dia pun same ;p

2010-12-28T16:03:00.003+08:00

i got a friend. who keeps telling people that how lonely she is... and how she is somehow desperate for a husband to keep her company *yadayadayada*

mule-mule,
kesian gak laa... sebagai kawan, aku cuba mendengar dan memberi sepatah dua nasihat...
lama-lama,
telinga gua pun jadik tak senang!

aku suh sabo, dia kate dia tak pueh hati. dok pertikai kenapa tuhan lambat bagi jodoh kat dia...
aku bagi suggestion suh mak ayah pilihkan terus, takmo. katenya belom desperate lagi ke tahap itu.
tapi, everytime kol aku dok suh aku kenenkan, kenalkan, carikan.... apekejadahnye??
and each time i did, she actually asked the guys directly to their face,
"awak rase... kite ni ada masa depan bersama tak?"

o m g

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hanim di sweden. poeh di scotland.amrah di australia. syima & kerun hv been to half of europe. nadia & plane trips tidak dapat dipisahkan. pakude helmi's childrens are all over the world.

me?

currently in port dickson. and the farthest i've been to was Thailand. itu pun waktu kekecik dulu.

sumpah aku tipu kalau aku kate aku tak jeles bila tahu ade kawan, sedara, even strangers dapat gi beronok-ronok ke negara orang.

iye, hujan emas dinegeri orang, best lagi hujan batu kat negeri sendiri. i admit that. tapi yelaa.... manusia mane penah reti bersyukur... tahu komplen je... (specifically me!)

i keep bringing this up, sampai aku pasti kak long aku tu pon dah mual. she keep repeating the phrase "your time will come" almost everytime i bring this to her. dan aku pasti, laki aku pon pasti stress pasal aku dok citer2 pasal orang tu pi sini laa, suami dia bawak pegi bercuti ke sane laa...

just so you know, aku bukan teringin nak travel sebab orang len travel. NO. i blame it all to myself, for been watching too much soapy movies about romantic cities like Verona, been reading all these comics & mangas that contributes to me wanting to go to Japan, Korea and all. not to forget, all the literature novels i've read throughout my study years and after...

being able to learn about other cultures thru books & movies are awesome. but to be able to experience them, is another. macam ko tengok food channel la. to be able to watch the chef prepares the food itself was mouth-watering, ini pulak kalo ko dapat peluang merasa sendiri makanan tersebut. pehh!!!!!

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comes to think of it, aku ni pon same-dengan-je dengan kawan aku yang ceritakan kat atas tadi...

hanim kat sweden pasal rezqi pak dia koje sane. poeh pasal si jonny dia pon koje sane, warganegara Jerman plak tu. amrah sambung PhD. nad pasal laki dia koje sane. kerun & syima berhempas-pulas menabung baru merasa. anak2 pakude helmi pon masing2 bekerja keras untuk hidup di negeri orang...

kau?
sanggup dapat laki omputeh & terpakse dok jauh gile-gile dari family?
sanggup ikut laki keje ke obersee & again, nak balik raye pon berkira2?
sanggup lagi berhutang untuk belajar tinggi2 sampai PhD?
sanggup ke??

gaji sebulan pon sangkut, ade ati :P

tapi tak salah kalau DREAM BIG kan? *kembali berangan*

~~~~~

di rumah mertua.

menantu:
ummi & abah dan 2 kali pegi haji. tak teringin pulak ke lepas ni ke Morocco ke, Jordon ke... saje, tengok negara tamadun islam??

mertua:
buat ape? bazir duit je. baik pegi haji, menghadap Tuhan yang Maha Esa.

menantu:
(amek kau! padan muke!)

~~~~~

engkorang dah daftar haji belum? aku dengan suami punye turn tahun 2036 nanti. itupun kalau belom mati ;p

Childhood memories :)

2010-12-06T12:03:00.004+08:00

kat FB skrg tgh sibuk org dok taruk gamba katon yang menjadi kegilaan dorg zaman bebudak dulu, as an effort to fight againts Violence to Children. tapi satu gamba je mane cukup beb! antara katon-katon yang aku layan dulu:

tak geram ke kau tengok kuda yang ade rambut kalah Aurora ni kat tivi??

dulu siap beli subang telinga yang boleh lekat2 kat telinga tuuuuu! pehtu berangan berdiri atas katil, pegang subang telinga sambil feeling 'JEM'!! *hahahahahahahaha*

cik Ariel sorg ni memang dari dulu aku suke tekap-dan-lukis. selalu perasan berenang ala ala mermaid
(tak jadik ;p)

masuk skolah menengah, aku mula mengenali pasangan Usagi & Mamoru ni... siap ade full collection tuh, dr buku 1 - 18!! tapi segalanya terkorban, bila aku nazar, dapat masuk universiti, aku buang buku ni kat recycle bin (T_T")

dan tidak di lupakan...Cardcaptor Sakura!!!!!!
ai ade semua collection cards dia tau? jgn jeles ^___~

** sape kate, bile ko dah kawen beranak sume dah tak boleh tengok katon??
see the spek mate laaa! ^___~v

her 1st tooth yeay

2010-12-05T12:55:00.001+08:00

Ibu purposely finger-feeding her but accidentally found her 1st tooth!
congratulations Ummu Sarah!! no wonder you are being grumpy and clingy all at the same time :)

so proud of u!!! \o/

all about him :)

2010-11-27T13:10:00.000+08:00

Convinced that a CNN cameraman is her true love, an eccentric crossword puzzler (Bullock) trails him as he travels all over the country, hoping to convince him that they belong together.

as a 'former' stalker, i feel for Mary (Bullock).

no, i did not follow him all over the country.
... but, maybe just around the campus *guilty* ^___^"

however,
we do share the same wisdom in life:

"If you love someone,
set him free....
If you have to stalk him,
he probably wasn't yours in the first place" ^___~

and i ended up marrying a prince charming, who loves me. for me :)

i'm 26 today!!!

2010-11-21T13:34:00.000+08:00

sarah turns 10months and we take her for her 1st mandi laut session \o/

quality time with abah & our sarah *ibu loves it*

and her lil sis/bro is officially 3months on the same day!

life's great! alhamdulillah :)

thank you Allah :)

2010-10-23T12:46:00.002+08:00

there are lots to be thankful for this month!

like:
dinner with Yina @ Avillion!
new washing machine! alhamdulillah...
geting new haircut! lovely ^__~
Sarah is a healthy 9-months old baby \o/
her sis/bro is 7weeks old now *allahuakhbar!*
suami naik pangkat (dan naik gaji) alhamdulillah!
movie-maratoning with husband like it was nobody's business! (sarah is with her granny of course)

.... and many more!

thank you Allah. may they last forever :)

Ulangtahun ke-7 :)

2010-10-13T10:34:00.000+08:00

it's been 7 years...
since i first started this blog.

dan sudah 7 tahun jugalah, i've been using the same template design.

adakah itu bukti aku seorang yang membosankan? atau setia? atau pemalas? atau kunun-nye simple?

ntah.

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the first reason why i started the blog was because of emma.
because i wanted to be as cool as her. :P

but as time flies, i continued writing. just because i love it. it is the place where i vent my anger, shared my feelings, talking about things that i consider important in life.

and when i read back all the previous entries, i smiled.
seronok bila kita baca semula entry-entry lama kita. cerita pasal boyfriend lama. cerita pasal kawan-kawan belajar semua. semua karut marut. tapi semuanya kisah benar, yang telah membuktikan diri ini telah jauh lebih matang dari sebelumnya :)

ye ke??

kawan-kawan,
terima kasih kerana menjadi sebahagian dari cerita hidup saya. tanpa kalian, pasti cerita-nya membosankan.

exboyfriends,
terima kasih kerana turut menyibuk, menambah asam & garam dalam hidup aku. tanpa kamu kamu, aku mungkin tidak sebahagia kini.

and to my babies,
whatever you read in here, it is all me. the good and the bad. and i want you to know, that i love u all so much, even more. *hugs*

Happy 7th anniversary. to my entries :)

current love-of-the-month!

2010-09-22T15:07:00.002+08:00

bought it for only rm30 and still in a very, very good condition!
u never failed me oo NovelHut!

Kalau ado show ini di Malaysia, komfom aku pi!

ingatkah kamu?

2010-09-17T09:31:00.002+08:00

" ... bagaimana buruk sekali perangai kedua orang tua kita, itu bukanlah urusan kita, urusan kita ialah menjaga mereka dengan penuh kasih sayang sebagaimana mereka menjaga dan menyayangi kita pada waktu kita masih kecil..."

"... walau sebanyakmana sekalipun dosa yang dilakukan mereka itu juga bukanlah urusan kita, urusan kita ialah memohon ampun kepada Allah SWT supaya keduanya mendapat ampunan dariNya... "

tak puas...

2010-09-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

kite kawan sampai bila-bila ek? :)

maybe its the hormone talking....

2010-08-25T11:20:00.004+08:00

are there times in your life, when you suddenly think that the whole world is against you, and it makes you suddenly becomes vulnerable till you broke down in tears?

of course! duh! ko ingat ko sorang je ke yang ade masalah kat donia ini??

true enough. nobody's perfect.

aku tak tahu ape punca aku jadi begini. semakin moody. semakin pentingkan diri sendiri. semakin tak heran dengan perkara sekitar.

i am soon-to-be 26. am a wife. and a mother to a beautiful girl. tapi maseh bermasalah mengendalikan emosi.

do i need a shrink to help me get my mojo back? or a psychiatrist to tell me what to do?

maybe i need a break.
but then again, aku dah terlampau banyak cuti sebenarnya. cuti bersalin, cuti operate, cuti+training kt Bukit Tinggi, cuti yang selamba aku amek dr kerja kununnye m.c.....

maybe i need time for myself?
hello?? yang waktu Sarah kat kampung tu, bukan dah banyak mase ke given for you to utilise?

takde sebab untuk aku bermasalah sebenarnya. you see....

TUHAN banyak tolong aku dalam urusan mengendalikan Sarah:
ada orang yg menjaga Sarah in the comfort of our own home.
bekalan makan minum pakai Sarah alhamdulillah tak pernah putus.
ada sumber yang boleh digunakan bila Sarah memerlukan perhatian medical.

Ibu, ayah, umi, abah juga tidak terkecuali:
tolong jagakan Sarah bile ade aku memerlukan bantuan.
bekalan ubat tambahan & bekalan air bersih.
sumber pinjaman kewangan bila aku mengalami kekurangan.

aku maseh bekerja. maseh punya waktu untuk bersosial dengan rakan-rakan. maseh punya masa berdating sakan dengan suami.

so, you see...
i am blessed. even much more fortunate than others.

tapi tu la... mudah lupa. tidak tahu bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

husband sms-ed:" Maybe u need to refresh.. "

ya. maybe.

happy 2nd anniversary sayang!

2010-08-18T11:11:00.000+08:00

sudikan? ^____~

dei

2010-08-09T19:57:00.001+08:00

"make your passion a profession.
then life will be your play..."

--3 idiots, Ameer Khan.

what is my passion? do i have any?
i am 26 (to be), and still lost in my own world??

2010-08-05T16:42:00.000+08:00

“We are the choices we make.”

—	The Knife of Never Letting Go, Patrick Ness

doppelgangers??

2010-08-03T13:13:00.002+08:00

I love watching HIMYM. to me, it's sort of the new version of FRIENDS but funner!

doppelganger?

“We’ve all been searching for the five doppelgangers, right?
Well eventually, over time, we all become our own doppelgangers.
These completely different people who just happen to look like us...."

i wanted to be Robin; good looks, successful. but i have always like Lily. she is goofy and clumsy yet still cute :)

** doppelganger -- a ghostly counterpart of a living person

2038?

2010-08-02T16:34:00.000+08:00

ituhari.

akak :
hebat la budak2 baru neh. baru masuk kojo, dh boli VIOS. ekau bilo laei wynn oi?
aku:
VIOS pon, kalo takat jenis J tu watpe?
akak:
ko tak jeles ko depe sume dok pakai VIOS?
aku:
isk. kite pon nak beli keto baru kak. HONDA CITY 2.0 Turbo laei tuuuuu! (cakap dengan penuh semangat)
akak:
iye wynn? mano?
aku:
tunggu 2038 nanti kak.
akak:
ceh. waktu tu orang dah pakai kapal tobang dah wynn oi...

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tadi.

aku:
tak jadik la kak. 2038 nanti sy nk beli Hummer je terus.
akak:
Hammer?? (tak paham)
* semalam nampak sebijik Hummer yang hemsem isi minyak kat Shell. *drool*

S.A.L.T

2010-08-01T15:13:00.000+08:00

I am not an undercover agent.
and obviously no Angelina Jolie.
but just in case,
if anything happens to me
will you do everything even beyond your power
.....to bring me back to you?

Selepas 6 bulan...

2010-07-31T15:48:00.000+08:00

dah lame tak cerita pasal Sarah.

oh my pretty pretty Sarah :)

Anak ibu sekarang dah besar... dah pandai main-main air bila mandi. dah pandai melepaskan diri dari tuala bila dibungkus kuat. dah pandai berguling, mencapai remote tivi dengan cepat hehehe

Sarah sukee bile dapat naik walker. zummmm ke depan selak langsir, tengok suasana luar. zummmm ke belakang tengok ibu basuh pinggan. zummmm masuk bilek tengok abah lipat baju.

Kalau opah datang, Sarah makan besaw. Opah bagi Sarah isap biji buah pelam yg sedap. Opah bagi Sarah makan tauhu sampai 3 keping. Suke Sarah kalau opah datang ye? ;)

Bila malam, Sarah akan teman abah ibu tengok tivi. Sebab Sarah tak paham, Sarah pun isap2 Ben the Lion, geget2 her LaundryBook, berguling suka suki.

Bila sudah mengantuk, Sarah mintak susu. Ibu tepuk2, Sarah pun tidur :)

Ummu Sarah lasak tidurnya. Ibu ngan abah yang sempit ruang, Sarah conquer kawasan tengah seluruhnya. ikut sapaaa la ni ;p

Bila tengok balik gambar2 lama, macam tak percaya, sudah membesar si anak dara :)

they say the darnest thing ;)

2010-07-26T10:35:00.000+08:00

My students said that Christina Ricci looks cuter in Penelope than in real life....

and this time, i have nothing to do with it! ^___^v*hehehehehe*

my exboyfriends ^___~

2010-07-24T12:18:00.007+08:00

once, when i was still cute myself....

i adore them!!

Devon Sawa & Edward Furlong

then,
no more pretty boys, comes the hunkies (from my p.o.v) ^____^"

James McAvoy, Matthew Goode, Topher Grace

now,
being married and all
i kinda like these two

Nathan Fillion & Josh Hopkins

is it a sign of aging? emotionally? adey....

takde de niat pon....

2010-07-21T16:18:00.001+08:00

betul.
aku sekadar nak tunjuk je...

seriyus. aku langsung takde niat langsung nak belagak.

sudah 2 tahun....

2010-07-18T15:25:00.000+08:00

and i love u even more *muuuah*

happy 2nd anniversary sayang :)

emosi terganggu (-__-")

2010-07-13T19:49:00.001+08:00

ayah ajar aku, supaya jangan terlalu mengharapkan bantuan. jangan terlampau bergantung kepada subsidi. berdikari itu penting, supaya tatkala datangnya ujian dari Tuhan, kita tidak akan terkesan. insyaallah.

tapi aku tidak sempurna. padat dengan cacat cela.

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kawan aku keretanya eksiden. buat kali ke-2. kasihan dia.
si pakar membuat anggaran sejumlah rm500 diperlukan utk baik pulih. alhamdulillah, tidaklah terlampau tinggi. masih mampu digapai.

tapi,
aku mula hilang kasihan tatkala ada yang bersuara, mahu mengumpulkan dana membantu si tuan kereta.

akuyangkenaoperatesampairiburiban
pulaktakboleyclaiminsuran
pasaliatakjatuhdalamkategorikeguguranataupunmengandung
takdeponkorangsusahsusahnakbuattabung?

gerem.bangang.kecikati.sedih.mandiri.

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bila aku kawen, takde dapat hadiah.
orang lain dapat.
bila aku beranak, takde hadiah gak.
tapi orang lain tetap gak dapat.

aku tak heran sangat part hadiah tu. juge tak kesah tak dapat hamper Looney Tunes untuk anak aku.

tapi, aku betul-betul kecik ati bila dapat tahu, yang korg sampai sanggup nak hulur bantuan untuk kemalangan yang tak sampai seribu, tapi langsung takde kesian langsung kat aku yang memang perlukan bantuan sebegitu.

aku faham niat mereka baik. dan aku juga mahu memberi sekadar termampu. tapi, aku sedih. hati yang memang sedia kecil semakin mengecut.

suami pesan, supaya redha dengan ujian Tuhan. jangan terlampau harapkan bantuan.

ye, aku tahu. aku cume kecik ati sikit je. dan moody sedikit. hmmm....

* entry ini ditaip bukan untuk mengharapkan ehsan. cuma sebagai saluran untuk melepaskan beban emosi.

the Kraken!

2010-07-08T11:53:00.004+08:00

selepas membace paper.

isteri:
si octopus yg predict team mane yang menang bola tu betul2 sotong ke ataupon gelaran semata?
suami:
octopus? sotong? apsal plak?
isteri:
laaa... kan sibuk dorg dok bising, si sotong itu telah meneka dengan jayanya pasukan mane yang akan menang di game seterusnye...
suami:
heh? *maseh blur*
isteri:
betul ke gile bola nehhh? *hehehehe*

since encik suami tidak membantu, aku pon berpaling kepada encik google yang setia menunggu...

ooooo... name ko Paul rupanye.... ^____^"

MUST-SEE MOVIE !!!!

2010-07-01T18:34:00.004+08:00

to be presented in 2 parts?

oh... that is just so cruel!

* meremang badan tengok trailer!

Bonjour!

2010-06-25T14:21:00.001+08:00

cukup 3 minggu. langsung tak rase rindu kat tempat kerja. pasal di sini, kerja aku: makan, tdo, mandi, menonton, makan lagi, main dengan Sarah, tido lagi. heee~

puas berehat, pegi bercuti pula. fully paid hokey? ^___~

so, for the past 4days and 3nights, i was not here:

old Colmar, Alsace. France

but here:

Colmar Tropicale, Bukit Tinggi \o/

the bed, the window, and the view
(maaf, kualiti gambar kurang menarik)

and the foods: delicieux!

ye, aku maseh lagi Melayu. so nasi will always be my choice.

tapi, pastries dia yang aku tak bley tahannnnnnnnnn.....

ni baru breakfast.
bayangkan aku makan 6kali sehari, setiap kali makan aku akan amek cakeS, cream puffS, pieS, strudelS, and the list continues.....

actually, i was OFFICIALLY there for this:

and un-intentionally for this:

hehehe.....

sila jeles!
*hahahahahhahahaha*

belum masanya lagi...

2010-06-18T12:11:00.000+08:00

kalau la memang rezeki,

dapat dah Sarah adik tahun depan..

tuhan ade plan baekk punye untk kami sekeluarga :)

'Babies' Trailer HD

2010-06-07T17:24:00.001+08:00

in confinement... again.

2010-05-29T11:47:00.000+08:00

yes. I'm pregnant again.
but this time, its ectopic.

dah bukan rezeqi kami, nak buat macamane. bukan salah husband, bukan salah sesiape. as said by the doctor, "it could happened to anybody".

tuhan mahu uji. aku redha.

mujur ada Sarah :)

respons dari doctor2 tak bertauliah :

"anak kecik lagi dh mengandung balek ye?"
"lepas ni susah la nak mengandung lagi..."
"tu laa.... tak rancang.."

aku rase mcm nk sembelih je sekor2.

my 1st time.....

2010-05-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

..... to a J-Card Sale! \o/

i literally amek cuti hokey semata-mata untuk pegi ini J-Card. it may sound lame to you, tapi den dah lamo tidak memberi rehat kepada diri sendiri ;)

so,
woke up not-so-early that morning. sending off husband at the gate, preparing lil Sarah's clothes and kemas rumah sikit2.

around 9.30am, off to Somban. dalam keta nyanyi-nyanyi.... hati senang... suka suki, maklumlah... hari ni 'bekerja' kat Jusco ;) hehehe

sampai destinasi jam 10am. amek kau, parking ponuh! bawah, tengah, atas, luar jalan... penuh!
*gile ah* takkan sume org amek cuti mcm aku kot??

ni antara suasana di hari tersebut:

ni bahagian electrical. lupe plak aku nk carik usb port.

bahagian baju-baju

dan lagi...

see?

i ended up going home at 3.3opm. itu pon tak habes survey laei. dan selama-lama aku kat situ, langsung tak keluar ke kedai2 len hokey?

---------

keesokan harinya, aku poei laei ke Jusco. nk tukar saiz baju laki ku.

lengang je jusco. barang2 ade je yang maseh sale. and, aku berkesempatan meninjau barang2 yang aku terlepas pandang waktu J-Card semalam. and guess what?

handbang cantek Sembonia dari RM200++ dapat RM87!!
kasut carlo rino jojes dapat RM30!!

dan sekarang, tahulah aku bahawasanya:
- jangan shopping ikut orang. orang kerumun, ko pon ikut kerumun.n tak pasal2 orang beli, ko pon ikut beli. sungguhpun bende itu bukan keperluan.
- pegi shopping SELEPAS J-Card. supaya anda akan dapat shopping dengan lebih aman :)

tapi ai tetap tak serik. rasanye mcm nk amek cuti laei poei J-Card tahun depan plak hahahahahaha

2010-05-17T15:19:00.002+08:00

People who regularly put in overtime and work 10 or 11-hour days increase their heart disease risk by nearly two-thirds, research suggests. (BBC)

AHMAD MUAZ!!! BALEKKKK!!!!

takde koje ^___^"

2010-05-17T14:26:00.003+08:00

rumah den! rumah den!

angah, cube try teka mane satu ghumah kite? ;)

* nk skodeng rmh omak mertuo plak *muahahahahhaha*

Bosan? Indulge urself :)

2010-05-17T13:18:00.001+08:00

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how i wish.....

2010-05-12T12:19:00.001+08:00

for somebody to make a movie out of this book:

oh please! oh please! oh please!

* kalau laa den ni kayo rayo mcm dr. romzey (-__-")

Engkau lah Ratu Hati-ku :)

2010-05-09T11:03:00.003+08:00

Sejak kecil,
Ibu sayangkan aku.

Bila aku meningkat dewasa,
aku mula rebel. Kununnye tak 'cool' geng ngan ibu.

......tapi ibu tetap sayangkan aku.

Masuk universiti,
aku rindu masakan ibu. Hari-hari mesti mau ber-gayut dengan ibu.

Mula bekerja,
pagi-pagi akan rindu dengan bebelan ibu.

*sape suh koje jauh2*

Sebelum kawen,
aku sedih mau berpisah dengan ibu.

Setelah kawen,
aku rindu mahu ketemu ibu.

Selepas merasai sakit bersalin,
aku lagi lagi laaaa sayang ibu!

Ibu,
terima kaseh kerana sanggup bertarung nyawa melahirkan aku.
terima kaseh kerana sanggup melayan tangisku sepanjang pantang.
terima kaseh kerana sabar mendidik aku menjadi manusia yang punya guna-nya didunia.

Ibu,
sungguh pun opah dah pergi, ibu jangan sedih2 ye?
ayong kan ade :)

terbaek!

2010-05-08T12:25:00.007+08:00

dah lame tak dating ngan husband.
berpoya-poya berdua. sahaja.

sabtu,
dia ajak ber-movie maraton. Ip Man 2 & Iron Man 2.
gile lame tak tgk wayang!

1.20pm- Ip Man 2.
4.00 pm- Iron Man 2.

habes movie, lesu ^___^"

Ip Man 2 MEMANG YANG TERBAEK!

Sorry Mr. Tony Stark. Even with ur latest gadgets and fantastic CGI's, u can never challenge Ip Man's courage, his moves, his coolness... *flashback scene2 best dlm movie*

"Ip Man 2 was intended to focus on the relationship between Ip and his most famed disciple, Bruce Lee. The filmmakers, however, were unable to finalize film rights with Lee's descendants and decided to briefly portray Lee as a child." - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ip_Man_2

bayangkan if they actually managed to get the film rights.... pehh!! lagi laaaa!!!

* berangan nak blaja Wing Chun ^____^v

O.P.A.H

2010-05-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

Aku dan suami balek Perak. meraikan Meon & Sheila. dalam jam 3 pm gitu, ibu kol
"Ayong, balik. Jom ke kampung. Nyahween tpon, katanye opah tenat."

Hati tak tenang. Tapi maseh senyum bermain-main dengan Sarah.

6.30pm, sampai rumah pak lang. Medical Officer (M.O) juge sampai dalam mase yang same. Aku terus meluru masuk. Opah tercungap2. Badan opah kembung-kembung, kesan dari masuk air seminggu lepas. Lepas checkup, M.O kate
"Nadi opah dah semakin statik. Tekanan darah tersangat rendah. Masalah terbesar opah, kekurangan oksigen. Saya jangkakan, dalam tengah malam. Tapi, kuasa Tuhan. Doakan yang terbaik untuk opah.."

aku terus lari keluar rumah. mata tak mampu menahan tangis. bayangkan, mendengar tempoh hayat opah yang tersayang dengan ruang telinga sendiri.

aku ambil wudhu. mahu solat jama' ta'khir.

selesai asar zuhur, aku mencurik pandang.

opah masih lagi bernafas, alhamdulillah.

selepas zuhur asar, kembali memandang opah.

keadaan maseh lagi terkawal.

selesai doa, aku kuar bilek. kak lia menanges teresak-esak. mata ibu merah.

opah dah takde??

sungguh, opah sudah pergi.

opah....
ayong rindu opah ;(

2010-04-02T14:14:00.003+08:00

Hari ni hari Jumaat.

Tuhan makbulkan permintaan orang yang ber-doa hari Jumaat.

"... aku nak mati hari Jumaat... "

baca

too cute!

2010-02-19T10:01:00.004+08:00

was surfing the net, and came across these:

happy times :)

cute as button!

cant wait to play dress-up and goof around with lil' Sarah!!

"Ya Allah, cintailah mereka...."

2010-02-14T09:09:00.000+08:00

Abu Hurairah berkata: "Kedua-dua telingaku ini pernah mendengar dan kedua-dua mataku ini pernah melihat Rasulullah s.a.w mangambil Hasan atau Husin dengan kedua tangannya, lalu kaki Hasan atau Husin berada di kaki Rasulullah. Rasulullah pun bersabda yang bermaksud: 'Naiklah wahai anak yang pendek, anak yang pendek dan bermata kecil (sebagai gurauan dan tanda sayang). ' Kemudian anak kecil itu naik hingga ia meletakkan kedua kakinya diatas dada Rasulullah. Rasulullah pun bersabda (mafhumnya): 'Bukalah mulutmu.' Lalu Rasulullah menciumnya dan bersabda: 'Ya Allah, cintailah dia kerana sesungguhnya aku mencintainya.' "

(Riwayat Al-Tabrani no. 2652)

Alhamdulillah... Takbir!

2010-01-21T13:13:00.002+08:00

Ummu Sarah Bt Mu'az @ Ahmad Mu'az

telah selamat dilahirkan pada 21.1.2010 jam 7.21pagi. Terima kasih atas doa semua ^___^v

insyaallah... 8days to go....

2010-01-13T17:18:00.005+08:00

11.01.10
went for weekly checkup with the specialist.
consulted the doc about my condition, whether i'm fit enough to go back to perak before my due date. she advised me to stay if i started my major contractions before the 15th.
perasaan: neves (-_-")
my current weight: 55kg
the doc scanned & estimated the baby's weight : 3.0kg.
the mummy: tuh diaa...

12.01.10
went for weekly checkup with klinik desa pulak. both mother & baby are in good condition. alhamdulillah...
mummy's current weight: 56kg *pulak*

13.01.10
appointment with the klinik kesihatan's doctor. consulted the doc about the same issue. she gave the same advice; to not go back if the i've already felt the pains from the contractions....
perasaan: maseh neves tetapi maintain cool ^__^"
the doc scanned & estimated the baby's weight : 3.2kg
the mummy's thinking, "ape laa yang aku makan nehhh...."

14.01.10
bday Yang Di-Pertuan NSDK. cuti.
mummy plans to bergolek puas2 dirumah ^___^v *hehehehe*

another 13days to go! gasp

2010-01-08T15:25:00.003+08:00

1.1.2010
isteri: hrmm... dah masuk tahun baru ni. ape ek azam untuk tahun 2010 ni? *berfikir*
suami: azam tahun 2010 adelah untuk beranak dengan cemerlang sekali! yeah!
isteri: (betui gak tu)

2.1.2010
dokte: awak sekarang sudah minggu ke-37 so be prepared ye?
bakal ibu: baek dokte! *bersemangat!*
dokte: dan baby awk skrg sudah mencapai berat 2.8kg....
bakal ibu: (melopong) biar betui dokte?
bakal abah: patut la jalan macam peguin dah (gelak)
bakal ibu: chait!

5.1.2010
sewaktu menonton Merlin, episod Uther kawen dengan troll ...
suami: jadi gile pompuan tu bawak watak troll (teruja)
isteri: tu ah pasal. siap sedawa kuat, kentut busuk suma... mcm real je....
suami: eleh... cakap orang, dia pon same...
isteri: hoh. kecik ati!
suami: hahahahhahahahahhaha

kaki aku dah mule bengkak-bengkak. jengjengjeng ^___~

another 1 month to go! or not ^__^"

2009-12-22T09:56:00.002+08:00

according to the ticker, i have about 30 more days to go. but according to my readings & people's experiences, i could easily given birth by the 36weeks or sooner *hoh*

happy. anxious. scared. excited. blur. tired.

i am currently 53kg. and according to the doc, my baby's weight at the moment is about 2.3kg. she predicted that by the time i (supposedly to) deliver, my baby should weigh around 2.7 or so... which is quite a relief. takut gak kalo tak larat nk meneran keluar nanti *eheh*

kepala bayi is already in position, cuma belom check-in lagi laa... *hehe* aku dah mula rajin ke bilek ayer for 'no 1 & 2' and dah mula rase Braxton Hicks suma.... dan sedang berjinak2 belaja to time contractions....

badan semakin berat. perut semakin berkilat. kaki semakin bulat. hehehe... tapi Tuhan memang Maha Kuasa.... walopon badan ku kecik, tapi baby alhamdulillah sehat didalam *allahuakhbar!*

preparations have been made; hospital bags are already in the bonet, stemcell kit, sijil nikah... ape laei ek?

baby's stroller, car seat, breast pump, baby carrier... itu boley delay lagi, boley tunggu baby kuar dulu baru beli. pulak, ade salesperson kat JJ btau kate next year February ade BabyFair. menarik tuh ^__~

i am still working. and driving to work. but since it is still semester break, working here refers to: surfing the net, playing FB & pc games, mengulawing... u name it! ^__~

oh anakku, jangan kuat ngulaw mcm ibu ye? ^__~

its my birthday!! \o/

2009-11-21T14:00:00.000+08:00

angah gave me this:

suke! suke! (thank you angah!)

husband pon takmo kalah. he gave me this:

lagi laaagi suke!! c.u.m hadiah anniversary skali laa ^__~ hehehe
(thank you dear!)

and on that day, we went to visit our lil miracle via Dr. Kalai's 3D screen. alhamdulillah... doc estimated that she is now 1.9kg and in a very good condition. alhamdulillah!! ^_^

yang best nye, kali ni punye scan, we managed to get a good look at her lovely face ^_^
husband laughed, saying that she has a sexy pair of lips, since at that moment the baby mencebik at us, probably saje nk manje2 ngan abah & ibu dia kot *hahahhaha* and she sure looks so damn cute! tak sabaw plak nak tunggu dia kuar ^_^"

and the rest of the day, we went shopping!!!

bought 2 baju tebuk2 (utk hari panas), 2 baju lengan pendek+pants, 1 baju tak berlengan+pants, 2 blankies, 10 napkins, 2 barut bayi, and extra socks for starters...
tapi, yang bikin den tak sonang ati, sumo baju2 kaler puteh & biru yoo.... all due to the fact that husband dont want our baby to wear pink. cause for him, pink equals to gedik. *chait!*

dah la baju girls yang comei2 suma kaler pink. yang kaler oren, hijaw takde yg lawa lak. takkan nk bagi dia pkai baju baby mickey plak (-_-")

** hint hint **
kawan2, sila belikan untuk bayi saye baju kaler pinkish comei2 ye? ^_~

macam tak cayo, i have another 57days to go. tak lamo dah tu. nurses dah siap pesan, prepare hospital bag suma dalam bonet keto. just-in-case. baju kurung aku sumo tak boley pakai dah, senteng sumo. happily wearing jubah to work all week, sonang den tak payah pulun nk menggosok baju kurung pagi2. hehehe ^__^"

lupe nk cite.

the previous week, husband spare some of his precious overtime to spent it with me, to the antenatal class. and to my surprise, he enjoyed every moment of it!

as 1st time parents, i would say that it is important for us to go to these parent-craft classes. even more when ur mother (plus mom-in-laws) are not there during ur pregnancy.

for only RM50, we were introduced to the option of using various types of analgesia (pain-relief) in labour, the antenatal problems and how to recognise when it is time to go to the hospital (air ketuban pecah and what-not) by the O & G. but the best part was the practical sessions with the Midwife nurses; Breastfeeding & Baby Bath demo session. husband even video-ed the whole session, just so that we have references back home. hehehe... and lastly, we were taught on antenatal exercise for back care and were taken for a tour to their labour rooms.

one complain though. since the class was done only for half a day, husband and i have to make our own time for prayer. we even missed parts of some sessions, hanye kerana mahu mengejar waktu solat. the organiser should be more sensitive on this.

nevertheless, we learn A LOT.

on the way back home, husband said:
"nanti baby kena bagi eksklusif breastfeeding tau? 2-full-years. ade fahem??"
i replied,
"insyaallah. tapi encik kena provide breastpump yang rega 500++ untuk saye tau? psl nnt sy masuk koje, senang sy nk simpan susu untuk baby"

husband telan air liur. "insyaallah" - katanye....

hehehe..... sayang abah kat baby tau? ^__~

sebelum berundur, ingin sy menjual serangkap pantun...

hati tak sabar nak tunggu gaji,
nak shopping barang bayi banyak-banyak lagi....
SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA HAJI,
ingat-ingat, yang hadiah untuk baby saye anda kena bagi ^__~ *hehehhee*

~ abah umi, makcho di Tanah Suci. semoga selamat semuanya ~

tak lamo laei dah....

2009-11-11T22:26:00.007+08:00

Today, i am officially entering my 3rd trimester! *alhamdulillah*
the baby is now 7 months and 3weeks old. my 'Rekod Kesihatan Ibu' pon dah penuh. aku dah kena start isi carta pergerakan bay, starting 9am to 8pm daily; counting the baby's movement until the 10th.
nurse pesan kat aku semalam,
"Kalau pergerakan bayi kurang dari 10 pergerakan dalam tempoh 12jam tu, cepat2 pegi cek kat hospital!" phew.... scary duh bile nurse tuh warning cenggitu ^_^"

Ituhari husband and i went for a 3D scan kat KPJSeremban. and as usual, the baby will always men aci nyorok everytime we went for my checkup. susah dokte nak dengar heartbeat dia, nk scan zoom tgk muke dia.... *nakal anak ibu ye?* as much as i want to share my baby's 3D pic, i decided not to. asek gamba baby je kn? nak gak tayang gamba ibu dia plak kan? hehehe.....

so, presenting.... jengjengjengini aku-punye-perut-7-bulan ;)

*suma orang bising perut aku kecik.
macam laa aku yang plan perut nk beso kecik mane ;p

eventhough i'm not getting as big as i should, i'm still heavier than before!
1st month - from normal 43kg dropped to 42.2kg
2nd month - turun 41.7kg
3rd month - naik sikit 42.6kg
4th month - naik lagi 43.4kg (aku pose penuh woo)
5th month - naik 46kg (ni lepas raye pnye berat ^_^")
6th month - naik lagi 49.2kg
7th month - currently 50.2kg ^_~

i'm liking the changes on my body. i even appreciates the weight gain for the last time i reached 48kg was waaay back in 1999 ^_^"

tapi, bile badan makin berat, jalan pon makin slow. buat kje pon macam cepat penat. i rarely took a nap at noon but sejak masuk 3rd trimester neh aku bantai tdoq sampai 2jam. naseb bek laa klas dah abes, budak2 dh start examination week. bile malam lak, lepas isya' je aku dah tingtong depan tivi. dah takde kuase nk layan BurnNotice and Reaper jam 10.30 kat tivi...

went window-shopping for baby's items last week at Melaka. gile excited tgk stroller, baby carrier, baby's car seat suma..... cuma tak beli lagi je. situasi kewangan maseh belom mengizinkan. tp, bought these cuties for starters:-

awww~

adorable!

hmmm..... i have to start packing for our (me+husband+baby) hospital bags. just-in-case. it never hurts to be prepared kan?

oh. gua sulah melantuk. tapi jam balu pukui sepuloh. oh!

husband & me + 18

2009-10-22T16:39:00.001+08:00

small talk with husband...
"nanti kite rancang kehamilan boley?"
"tak boleh. orang nak anak 18..."
*gedebush-tendang suami kuar katil*

waktu 1st trimester dulu, memang jenuh laa mengandung ni... asek muntah je, lapo tapi tak lalu makan, penat tapi takley tido....

tapi bile dah masuk 2nd trimester, hidup semakin indah.... makan tak hengat donia... berat badan naik alhamdulillah... pastu perut pon mula laa kembung tegang berkilat suma... tapi baby dah mula gerak2... so agak suke bile nampak kulit perut bergerak2 pasal baby dok shuffle pusing tendang flying kick suma ^_^"

husband tanye lagi,
"suke tak pregnant?"
"suke! alhmdulillah, bile dah 5bulan, badan semakin sehat.... takde masalah sangat laa..."
"jadi, lepas bersalin ni kite buat anak lagi ye?"
*gedebush-tendang suami kuar katil lagi*

sungguhpon happy being pregnant, i could not answer that question yet. the BIG DAY has yet to come. the day when i'm going to deliver, pushing with all my might...... i could never imagine.... neither can he....

insyaallah.... ade rezeki, dapat laa capai target 18 orang anak tuh ;p

ape yang pasti, aku suke bile dapat gune toilet untuk pregnant ladies. tak payah berato... bersih... wangi.... tisu pun banyak.... oh! bahgia jadik ibu mengandung ^_^" *heheheh*

Happy 25th Birthday Darling!

2009-10-12T11:43:00.001+08:00

" when i'm with you its paradise....

no where on earth could be so nice... "

{ i l.ove yo.u }

it's a girl insyaallah ^_^

2009-10-08T17:01:00.000+08:00

went for my 2nd checkup at Ar-Ridzuan with a specialist, and she asked,

"nak tau jantina ke tak?"

me and husband looked at each other. i replied,

"kalau dah boley nampak, ape salahnye.... "

she is now 25weeks old and measures about 13 1/2 inches ^_^

kol ibu, ayah, abah, umi... btau kate cucu mereka insyaallah a girl; sume pakat gelak. hehehe.....

lepas scan, saje pegi jalan2 tengok barang baju baby. husband sungguh2 takmo beli barang kaler pink; katanye takmo anak jadik gedik beso nanti. hahahaha......

bahagia.... knowing that she is healthy inside me.
bahagia.... knowing that she is loved by everybody.
bahagia.... when husband starts calling her by her name already ^_^

terima kaseh tuhan!

Graduan UiAM syahid di Palestin

2009-09-17T09:11:00.001+08:00

baca sini

Al-Fatihah untuk beliau.

Selamat Hari Raya!

2009-09-16T16:08:00.002+08:00

Sedar tak sedar, hujung minggu ni dah nk raye ^_^

and sedar tak sedar gak, tahun ni (insyaallah) aku akan berjaya berpuasa cukup sebulan! *yeah*
tapi, dalam dapat pose sebulan tu, aku rase aku tak sedar yang tak tentu laei sume hari2 aku berpose tuh diterima tuhan (--")

ye, aku pose perut. tahan makan dr pagi sampai maghrib. tp mata, telinga, tangan, kaki & mulut macam tak bape nk pose sangat je *erkk*

part teraweh je dah fail. ngaji? ok laa. kot. tahajud? lagi laaaaaaa tak lulus.

setiap Ramadhan mesti rase gini. tau nyesal. tau rugi. tapi buat gak. tak ikut gak.
sungguh ke setan kena ikat ar? - salahkan makhluk lain (--")

ubah topik. ubah topik.

tahun ni turn beraya di Melakaw.
tapi,
adelah tidak mustahil sekiranya tahun ini juga aku akan mencipta sejarah KALI PERTAMA sambut Aidilfitri kat umah sendiri; jauh dari keluarga, rendang tok, laksa ibu, nasi dagang umi.......

kalau komfem raya ku disini, aku tak kesah..... pasal bukan suami sengaje carik pasal mintak masuk raye nanti. at least, dua2 tak dapat balik beraya di kampung. baru aci ;p *hehehe*

tapi, yang tak acinye...... aku takkan dapat merasa masakan kampung yang sedapppppp... OH!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kawan-kawan.... Maaf Zohir & Batin.....
Mintak halal suma2 yang korang penah belanja @ atau ape2 yang aku selamba bedal dari korang dulu...
Segala kata-kata ku yang mungkin (atau memang) mengguris hati & perasaan, jiwa & raga, harap dimaafkan ye? (benar, aku adelah seworang yang agak laser (--")

aku maseh lagi bekerja esok (--")
korang2 yang dah nak balik, berhati2 di-jalanraya. pastikan cek enjin, angin tayar suma... jangan racing2, bawak keta dengan sabar pasal bukan ko sorg yang nk balek beraya.... jangan lupe bace doa nek kenderaan, bace 3Qul & ayat Kursi.

dan ingat, sampai rumah nanti.... salam peluk cium ayah ibu kome, mintak ampun maap, dihalalkan makan minum suma.... pasal nanti bile dah dah kawen mcm aku ni, dok jauh pulak tuh, dah susah nak balik.... nk makan sama2.... nk tgk ibu ayah, adik2 gelak sakan beraya... men mercun suma....

huhuhuuuuu...... nk balekkkk!!!! *sobsob*

i am...... still shy laa ^_^"

2009-09-07T12:56:00.004+08:00

as planned, husband & i when for a scan-of-the-month. and since we're in Perak last weekend, we decided to check on the facilities available for maternity purposes at Pusat Rawatan Islam Ar-Ridzuan. just in case, kot2 laaa aku jadik bersalin kat ipoh ;)

smp je kat entrance, husband asked 'betui ke gini hospitalnye?' hehehe... gile kelakar! for those who didnt know, pusat rawatan islam kt ipoh neh bangunan nyer memang old-school, not like KPJ or other specialist available ^_^"

Contoh bangunan lama di Ipoh

i favours the place because my youngest sister was born at that particular hospital and the place was not as crowded as the others. husband tak kesah mana2 pon janji yg sambut baby nanti dokte pompuan & he could come in to (kununnyer) involve in the delivery process ;p *hehehe*

while waiting for my turn, husband asked;

'agak2 la kn, malam2 dok kat hospital ni scary tak? boley dengar tak bunyik kerusi roda ke.... orang menjerit tengah2 malam ke.... haaa'

aku yg mula ketakutkan pon menjawab;

'kompom le ade bunyik kusi roda, orang jerit2 suma... dah name pon hospital' *hehehe*

elok je smp turn, kami (me, husband & my two sisters) entered the Dr.'s room without delay. Aisyah (the youngest one) was even more excited than husband when the doctor told us that we can try to see the gender of the baby! *yeah*

selepas puas dokte melayan aisyah & her questions (mate dia yg mana dokte? kenapa jantung dia laju sangat gerak dokte?) we discovered this:

i am now 20 weeks old & 18cm long.
and that shiny line is my healthy & strong backbone! ^_^

instead of laying on his/her back, the baby decided to fool around and bertelingkup on top of the uri and makes it impossible for us to take a peek at his/her toot... anak ibu malu ye? *hehehe*

agak keciwa kerana tidak berjaya mengenalpasti janti bayi pada scan kali ni tp takpe..... bulan depan kite cube laei! ^_^

whatever it is, we are still blessed kerana bayi saye sihat & takde sebarang kompikasi alhamdulillah.... risaw mengingatkan kawan2 yang tumpah darah la, keguguran, rahim jatuh..... aduh! mintak jauh!

semoga segalanya diberkati & berjalan dengan lancar insyaallah... doakan!

sekian untuk kali ini.

saye saaaayang ibu sy! mmmuuuuaaahhh!

iye ke???

2009-09-04T16:02:00.005+08:00

bukak blog dia. baca sesuatu yang menarik :Tarikh Lahir & Sifat Anda dalam Kalendar Hijrah

based on the calendar, i was born on 26/Safar/1405 AH. and according to descriptions in his entry, mereka-mereka yang lahir bulan Safar sifatnya:

"Tabiatnya buruk. Dia tidak suka mengakui kesalahannya. lbubapanya perlu mendidiknya bagi menghilangkan tabiat buruk itu, jika tidak, kehidupannya akan menjadi susah di kemudian hari. Walaupun begitu, sekiranya dia melakukan sesuatu untuk kepentingan dirinya, selalunya ianya akan mendatangkan hasil."

kecik ati *uhuk* (--")

the baby's active wooo.....

2009-09-02T10:52:00.005+08:00

went for my monthly checkup yesterday. and the nurse told me that we can now listen to my baby's heartbeat. *dupdapdupdap* - aku yang gemuruh.

and u know what? my baby's heartbeat sounded like he/she is jogging inside my tummy - gile laju! and since the baby's size is still small, he/she tends to run here and there, making it hard for the nurse to track his/her heartbeat - anak ku sudah pandai men hide & seek. oh!

insyaallah, kalo ade kelapangan, husband & i will go for another scan this coming wiken.

cant wait to see you bebeh!

sorry dear~

2009-08-26T15:07:00.005+08:00

i think i accidentally made a student cry ^_^" (it was really not on purpose, janji!)

tadi, the student came and asked for the class to be forwarded from 4pm to 2pm. i said ok la, since i had prepared my notes and i asked him to find a new venue for the class.

tapi, when its actually 2pm, only 10 of them was there; while the rest was missing-in-action. aku pon ape lagi, naik angin laa. dah la it was a 1-hour class. kalo budak2 tu lambat 30mins, ape je yang boley cover within the next 30mins?

dorg plak masing2 menunding jari. and the student who came to see me earlier - merah padam muke dia. and further asked to be excused. back in, i can see that his eyes turned red. aiyoh. aku plak yang rase bersalah!

what confusing was, the student was a he and he was supposed to not-be terase if these things arises. but, he is a good student and probably he takes his responsibility seriously and that was also why he is quite sensitive when the class (including me!) was kinda finger-pointing it to him ^_^"

i did took him aside and said my sorry. and even though he answered 'takde pape la teacher' , i still can see that he is still quite terase from what had happened....

again, i'm sorry (--")

30 Syaaban, 1430 Hijriah

2009-08-21T15:40:00.002+08:00

tahun ni, 1st time aku terlepas siaran pakcik-Pemegang-Mohor-Besar- Diraja. demm!

tahun lepas, aku sambut Ramadhan berdua... tahun ni, aku raikan Ramadhan ber-tiga... baek punya planning kan? hehehe... terima kaseh tuhan! ^_^ semuga Ramadhan kali ni, aku akan berjaya berpuasa cukup sebulan ^_^

dan dikesempatan ini, aku ingin memohon ampun & maaf atas segala bentuk salah silap, kekasaran bahasa, ketidakbetulan perlakuan dan ape sahaje lah. Semuge Ramadhan kali ini membawa makna & rahmat kepada semua ^_^

Selamat Berpuasa ye? ^_~

aku & n a f s u

2009-08-19T14:50:00.006+08:00

amek kau, aku bantai The Proposal, G.I.Joe, and Harry Potter all in 1 week!

Sudah 3bulan aku & suami 'puase' dari menonton movies di panggung.
kenape? pasal ade orang pesan kat suami, yang pompuan mengandung tak boleh tgk movie psl takut sound system itu boley merosakkan janin. mau tak takut dia?

tapi si ibu yang mengandung tu pulak bukan jenis yang reti bahase, dok pujuk rayu je selalu... minta dibawa menonton wayang juge ^_^" sabit laa si suami ni kuat semangat & kretif, bini tak dapat tgk movie kat panggung, dia usahakan jugak bawakkan movies2 itu ke isteri tercayang *ceeewah*

tapi, si isteri tetap tak putus asa. bermacam2 research dibuat; internet, books.... takde pon yang kate ibu mengandung tak boley tgk movie. yang dorg kate, horror movies je tak sesuai ditonton. maseh tidak puas hati, si isteri consult kawan yang bekerja sebagai peg. farmasi di sebuah hospital terkemuka (yeke?) kat KL & si emak sedara sorg nurse bersalin pencen.

and guess what? the fren told me (from her brief research thru medical journals) that the decimal sound system of Malaysia's movie theater are still under no threat to any living things. and the emak sedara even confirms the statement with "iye, boleh aje nak tgk wayang....."

haku pon ape lagi ^_~

....but you know what?
after coming out from the movie theatre, aku rase 'beseeee' je. apsal ye?

pasal itu sume n a f s u belaka.
nafsu ni, bila tak dilayan, bukan men lagi dia memberontak.
tapi, bile dah disuap, takde mende pon.... tak tgk kt wayang pon takpe. tunggu je laa suami men- errkk, suami beli dvd original kat kedai speedy tuh ^_^" and kalo laa di-maintain-kan tidak menonton sampai baby lahir, duit2 yang terkumpul boley wat belanja pape yang patut baby...

sungguhpun demikian, aku tetap nak menonton:

just to share:
ituhari waktu tgk Harry Potter kan, ade satu scene tu kan. dia mcm terkejut sikit tau. bukan aku tak tau yang memang akan kuar satu tangan dari tasek tu yang akan tarik Harry ke dalam tapi, scene tu tetap berjaya men-terkejutkan aku.

but the scarier thing was, when my baby stopped moving. *hoh*

right before the scene, my tummy was not feeling at ease, i had to adjust my posture quite a lot. elok je scene terkejut tu kuar, ilang suma sakit. ilang suma rase baby gerak2. aku gabrah.

throughout the movie, i put my hands on my tummy smbl selawat banyak2, risooooooooooo kalo jadik pape inside. tulaa, orang tak bagi tgk dia nak tengok gak (--")

habes wayang, btau kat suami. mengelabah member. terus diajak nye pegi cek dokte *hehe* tp alhamdulillah, tak lame lepas itu, the pain comes right back! tak penah aku rase se-suke itu bile tummy tak selesa ^_^"

itu tuhan nk bagi reminder kat aku,
yang ber-kuasa: DIA! yang bagi aku rezeki: DIA!
jadi, jangan terlampau suke sangat.... berhibur hendaklah berpada2. wasatiah dan bersyukur ^_^

tapi, G.I.Joe yang action-pack tuh takde pulak aku terkejut2! ^_^"

wynn.... beringat..... syukur......

ours ^_^

2009-08-17T15:44:00.000+08:00

berikutan kes H1N1, kolej aku pon sibuk menutupkan dirinya, dengan meningkat nyer bilangan student2 yang suma pakat demam panas+selesema.
tidak seperti institusi2 lain, tenaga pengajar kolej kami juga dibenarkan cuti sama seperti student2 dorang! *yeay*
apo laei, kepalo den dah mula merangka: Moh Balek Perak Yob! \o/

since its a last minute plan, husband only manages to escape from work and apply for leave on Thurs & Friday. takpe2, janji balek!

seminggu cuti, berleluasa laa aku kat umah ^_^"

but the best thing was, on Wednesday husband takes the half-day leave and took me for an ultrasound scan!

sebelum ni, aku buat suma sorg je kat klinik kerajaan. since he's working and all. and when he actually had the chance to take me himself, dia yang dupdap neves. 1st time laa katekan.

until he saw this:

our baby is now 16 months old.

i should have captured husband's expressions when he sees the baby. so chomel!!!!

Al-Fatihah.

2009-07-27T02:05:00.000+08:00

dia tak kenal aku. tapi aku suke betul dengan dia.
dia tak tahu pun kewujudan aku. tp aku suke betul ikuti perkembangan dia.

dia comel pakai baju kurung bunga kecil-kecil. senyuman dia manis. dia ada ramai kawan. semua orang sayangkan dia.

...... tapi Allah lebih sayangkan dia.

tanpa iklan mahupun notis dari sesiapa, dia pergi meninggalkan kita. yang tinggal hanya cerita-cerita hasil karya dia untuk kita tonton, untuk kita dalami, dan untuk kita sama-sama belajar dari kehidupan.

sayang kita hilang dia.

takziah untuk keluarga Puan Yasmin Ahmad.
...... terasa sungguh kehilangan dia.

2nd revelation; i am 3months 2weeks now ^_^

2009-07-25T03:46:00.000+08:00

the baby has grown!

he/she is now at about 6.5cm, and sudah mula punya jari tangan dan kaki serta kelopak telinga. i'm excited!

and oh! adelah normal jika pada umur ini kepala baby lebih besar dari anggota2 yang lain. hehe ^_^"

insyaallah, dia bakal lahir 21 Januari 2010. jadi kawan2, u can start saving from now. next year aku collect ek? ^_~ hehehee

aku maseh belom ber'perut' ^_^" tp alhamdulillah, muntah2 sudah kurang, sudah mau makan nasi cume.... berat maseh belom naik. harapannye, bulan ke-4 nanti aku akan jadi semakin bertenaga! ameeennnnnn!

terima kaseh atas doa kalian. teruskan berdoa ek? ;)

July 18~

2009-07-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

Husband dearie,
thank you for an amazing married life! looking forward to the future... even with the coming of the baby as the 'orang ketiga' in our life ^_~ hehehhehehe

i love u ahmad muaz *mmuuuuaaaahhhh*

finally got my hands on these....

2009-07-18T06:43:00.000+08:00

thanks for the trip to KINO angah ;)

ayah blanjer *yeah* book version of course ;)

and a book for preggy's, "BUKU LENGKAP PENJAGAAN IBU & ANAK" by Elizabeth Fenwick.

Aku tak tipu, seriyes lengkap duhh! the author even included a VERY CLEAR IMAGE of a baby coming out from the mother's toot! even my husband dok terasa2 sakit kat situ ^_^" hahahahahahah

cant wait for my 2nd ultrasound!

huuuu~

2009-07-14T02:54:00.000+08:00

husband..... saye ngidaaaaaam sgt nk tgk HARRYPOTTER nehh.... kite pg tgk ek?
boley laa... boley laaa.....

* kepala dok terngiang2 soundtrack HP dari minggu lepas ^_^"