You know what?

I FINISHED A BOOK! LIKE FINALLY! AFTER MANY YEARS OF NOT READING!

So happy with myself! But still trying to not buy a new book, but to keep reading the rest that have been bought and waiting to be held! 

Bismillah! Loving 2026 so far! Alhamdulillah! 

January jots...

Hello January! And a happy new year too!

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It has been hectic in our household. We have been busy every weekend, even on some weekdays too. Out looking for school items, settling doctor's appointments... phew. 

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Happy to share that kakak Sarah was offered a place in M*RSM yay! Like finally! We do not really expect that she got in, despite going to the entry exam and praying hard for it. Tapi kalau dah namanya rezeki, akan sampai jua masanya. 

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But the plot twist was - she was offered Batu Pahat. Not from the 3 lists we chose. LOL.

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Takkan nak tolak kan? Despite the distance, we are still grateful, alhamdulillah.

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Atoknek went together during her registration excluding Hannan. Rasa macam ralat tak pontengkan Hannan but then again, it is what it is.

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Bukan tak pernah rasa anak masuk asrama. Tapi tulah tu. Pulak kakak Sarah nanges pulak on the second day waktu dia call hari tu haaa koyak mak dibuatnyaaaa...

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Minggu lepas kakak Sarah balik bermalam. Minggu ni Hannan pulak. Punya lain tahun ni punya arrangement. Kena tunggu cuti sekolah laa baru boleh reunion semua hehe

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I really hope Hannan is coping well at school with new motivation now her kakak is at M*RSM. And I prayed that Sarah will be able to adapt with new culture and challenges at a new school especially being a new student there. 

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Semoga Allah jaga anak-anak saya dimana jua mereka berada AMEEEN! 

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You know what? Umar pun lain macam pe'el dia tahun ni. Memang menduga iman dan hati huhu...

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Oh I forgot to story! Umar dah setel tampal gigi yay! And it cost us RM200++ double yay but alhamdulillah nonetheless

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ok ok that's the last one. Will improve my writing skills better. Lama dah tak mengarang. Bai!  

The Not So Happy Trip To The Dentist

Been a hectic week. 

Finally got the chance to bring my boy to the dentist. And had been prepping him since last week, 

“Kita nak pegi dentist, OK? We want doctor to check your teeth!” 

“My teeth got germs? Doctor wants to brush my teeth?”

And when it was finally the day, we went up the stairs and he’s still in a good mood. 

… that is until the doctor asked him to open his mouth. And when he saw the blunt-but-looks-sharp tools on the dentist’s hand, “Tapi nanti ade blood!” he screamed! 

Mind you, his hand was also on his chest, saying aloud “MY HEART DUPDAPDUPDAP!”

This was not his first rodeo. And he also got 2 baby tooth pulled out by the same doctor! 

Tapi tulah, today was not the day. 

I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t sad. And annoyed. And frustrated.

Because I hope to checked this one out from the list. 

Tapi tulah, today was just not the day. 

Bismillah. Bantuin aku ya Allah! 

Men. At times.

Bila kau nk diskusi tapi suami kau hati kering be like: 

“Insyaallah. Usaha, doa, tawakkal.”

Habis diskusi. 😅

And by the way, kakak Sarah got into M*RSM gais! 

All praise to Allah! ALHAMDULILLAHHHH 🥳

 

The grass is not necessarily greener on the other side

Went for my annual routine check-ups at the usual hospital. 

Overheard the staff complaining about no claim, difficult leave applications, bad management…

… and here I thought their so-called big and secured company are settled and organised for life. Turns out, mana-mana pun sama ja sebenarnya. 

Despite whatever, they still sabr and work with a smile :)

Alhamdulillah for the rezqi. Because all of these are not from the company, but from Allah the Almighty.

Oh hi! My first post for 2025! 

I missed this.  

Pend*sa

Lately, I’ve been doing something that I should not have done without remorse. Perhaps it’s because I know that that no one will judge me. So I keep repeating them without guilty.

I know it’s wrong. I know I should not done it. But still, I did it. 

Despite being bad, Allah never leaves me alone. He always giving. He always deliver. 

Maybe I should reward myself. 

If I’m able to not do it for 5 days straight, I should buy myself a cake. 

If I perform for the full month, I should reward myself even more.

Mengade kan? Sendiri buat salah, tak malu langsung smp nak bagi hadiah kt diri sndri laa ape laa. 

Maaf tuhan. Aku pendosa yang selalu lupa. 

Gediks.

 A small part of me wanted to be liked by everyone. Wanted to always be love. To be supported. To always be agreed with. 

But I know that it is impossible.

Because I myself do not like everyone.

At times, I'll be jealous knowing that I'm not considered important in the group. But then again, I did not return the same energy to the them. I'm happy being a loner. I like being unnoticed.

Tapi yelah, datang time mengada mintak dimanjahhh begitulahhhhhhhhh