relieved...

everything settled now...

'whole-heartedly'... a very good choice of word.

thanks atih :)

commitment. komitmen.

SO MANY things happened lately. the fight. the last-minute ganti pose. the K.K.S. adeii...

even my horoscope also suggested me to,

"Do your best to deal with these circumstances in a calm, cool and collected manner. So it didn't end up like you thought.".

ntah laa...

akuh dapat offer jadi 'sweet'. by the director. sooo good of her for believing how sweetttt i can be. hehe... and i like it. i LOVE the part ^_^

tapi ntah nape, i rejected the offer. and feel bad about doing it.

rabu/ sabtu (and sumtimes ahad) akuh keje. sabtu (pagi-noon) akuh ade halaqah & kayak2. bulan 8 kayak tournament. this semester, tons & tons of homework. ye, aku exaggerate on the homework part (--")

aku risaw tak dapat commit. to the training. every nite. aku tau my part was the sikit-est line of all dalam play tuh. dan macam best pula bile imagining the marvelous costume to be wore by the 'sweetie witch'. adei.. berat-nye ati...

i thought of just to go through the training, and think of it as a treatment. it is more like the time for me to express myself. for me to enjoy myself. with them. on stage.

tapi, the commitment part that really scares me. for i dont want to cari pasal with them. my own friends. imagine not going to the training and go for other meetings, which both involves me. as a whole. takut nak carik pasal. takut nak gado ngan ko director-ku.... :"(

akuh tak jumpe ko lagi arini. to say my sorry. but at the same time. pity-ing myself myself by rejecting such wonderful offer from you. and all because i'm not good in managing my own time.

"You might just find that this disappointment ends up being exactly what you needed all along."

kate horoscope itu lagi. or is this refers to the 'fight' thing-ing? emm....

+ i blog in both english & malay. harap takde menteri yg marah akuh plak... [perasan ade menteri bace blog dia :P]

he's gorgeous!

my gorgeous British heartrobe!!!!

KAED FEST '06

BMX show. aku teruja~

lawatan ke 'animal kingdom'

aku. duta iklan friskies ^_^"

"sape kaco time tido akuh?" kate encik rabbit.

tangan fid yang kejam. mencengkam 'gwen'.

+ name boyfren gwen, 'quincy'. huhu...

berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul...

pagi tadi, 1st presentation from my halaqah group.
topic: 'the' sisters in islam. hehe... BEST! everybody was participating. semua orang mengerut-ngerutkan dahi, mengangguk-anggukan kepala tanda setuju. wah, khusyuk sekali junior2 ku membincangkan isu. sejuk ati tengok adik-adik ku yang prihatin...

dalam pada yang sama, Helena juga menjadi topik perbincangan. nope, bukan Helena dalam video clips 'my chemical romance' tu. bukan yang itu. tapi, ini Helena yang baru convert Islam pada 2002 yang lepas.

Helena ini orang Miri. Ibu dan ayahnye Christian. Adik-beradiknye Christian. Grandpa, grandma, semua sepupu sepipi-nye menganut Christian. Even one of his uncle is a well known priest kat sane. tapi Helena yang ini Islam. Muslim.

aku ingat dia ni same kes ngan kak Jennifer. nama je omputeh tapi memang Islam sejak lahir. Orang Sabah bah... perkara sebegini normal disana.

dia kate:
"saye ramai kawan melayu. saya selalu tanye mereka, kenapa kena 'naik turun' [bace: solat] 5kali sehari ? tak penat ke? you boleh dengar ke orang cakap ape bila you pakai tudung?". dia ketawa.
heh, kelakar pulak dengar dia kutuk diri sendiri. tapi, kata-kata ini jujur dari seorang yang kini Muslim.

dia citer lagi:
"saye selalu fikir, bile agak-nye hari kiamat akan datang. apa tanda-tanda hari kiamat. tapi bile saye tanye my uncle, dia tak dapat jawab. dia reply, "u're too young to know." saya dah 18tahun. sy tak puas ati. saye tanya ustaz. ustaz dapat jawab soalan saye. banyak soalan yang ustaz dapat jawab. kita kena pakai tutup aurat untuk menjaga diri dari perkara buruk. dan kahwin itu perlu bagi mengelakkan zina. uncle saye [Helena] priest. dalam bible, priest tak boleh kawin. tapi, banyak saje kes priest yang berhubungan sulit dengan sisters. anak, hasil hubungan luar nikah mereka diletakkan dibawah jagaan church. supaya tiada siapa yang tahu."

ramai yang melopong. terkejut agaknye mendengar kisah benar dari Helena.

dia sambung lagi:
"islam comprehensive. it covers all aspects of life. ada sebab untuk setiap perkara. dan sebab-sebab itu logik. untuk kebaikan diri sendiri."

bayangkan mendengar kisah benar dari orang yang memang dari keluarga bukan Islam. tapi mempunyai kekuatan untuk menganut agama Islam. sorang-sorang. hanya mak, ayah, dan adik-beradik yang tahu yang dia kini Muslim. bila balik kampung, dia jarang makan dirumah. dia terpaksa mengikut nenek ke church setiap Ahad. dia terpaksa buka tudung pasal takut mak malu kat sedara lain, yang Helena sudah masuk Islam. dia tak sambut aidilfitri macam kite. dia sorang-sorang.

sedih dengar citer Helena. tapi dia rilek je. buat muka tabah je. kata dia, "berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul". aduh... terdiam aku yang selalu mengeluh raya tak best...

Helena. dulu bukan Muslim. dia dapat hidayah. dia nampak perbezaan. dia tahu mana yang lebih baik dan terbaik. dia peluk agama islam. walaupun takde sokongan keluarga. kita? yang memang Islam sejak lahir. takde masalah nak makan. takde masalah nak solat, pakai baju tutup aurat. tapi... tetap lengah solat. tetap makan bende2 yang takde logo halal. tetap tamau percaya yang kiamat dah nak dekat sangat. masa untuk hidup hampir tamat.

aduii, terasa-nye akuh...

happy frenship day!

Its the official "frienship day" people!

and i miss him...

I never do anything that pleases you

So maybe we are better off apart

I don't wanna argue anymore

So maybe we are better off apart

~*~

Permintaan Sayyid Hassan Nasrallah untuk SEMUA umat Islam

Permintaan Sayyid Hassan Nasrallah Untuk SEMUA Umat Islam

Qana, 29 Julai 2006 - Kami Ingat

Minta baca secara berterusan Surah al-Fatihah, Surah al-Fil, Surah al-Ahqaaf, Surah Muhammad, Surah al-Fath, Surah al-Hujuraat, Surah Qaf, Surah az-Dhariyaat, dan Dua Ahl ath-Thughur dari Sahifah Sajjadiyyah.

BACA:
> Peduli Palestin
> Permintaan Sayyid Hassan Nasrallah Untuk SEMUA Umat Islam

dia...

tadi nampak dia.
dah lame tak sembang ngan dia. dah lame tak senyum2, gelak sama-sama...
seronok... walaupon hanye dapat tengok muka dia....

PELAJAR MELAYU UPM MENGGANAS!

aku tau citer ni lepas bace blog Roslan SMS.
terkejut! tak sangke benda macam ni maseh boleh berlaku. yang heran-nye... pelaku2 ni sumanya belajar tinggi, pemuda-pemuda bakal peneraju negara.

BACA:
> Budaya kurang ajar dan biadap menular di kampus tempatan
> Mob heckles seven undergrads in UPM
TENGOK: Video> UPM

ape perlunye dorang (budak2 melayu tu) wat gitu? budak-budak tuh nak letak kaunter je, bukan nak wat rusuhan pon. takkan itu pun dah rase tergugat?

ape komen kalian?

ciss....

sent:
10:52:07am
19.07.2006
"ADA! crdt dah xde tp nk bgtau gak! AMANI JMPA SHEILA ON7 SMLM KAT KL TOWER!! GLR BEST! THEY SIGNED MY CHANEL HANDBAG! AMIK GMBR AND ALL! cu tnte k! AAAAHHHH! HEHE"

ciss... bile ko nak datang simpang pulai arr encik Duta?

to all STARBUCKS lovers...

Written by Howard Schultz
Tuesday, 11 July 2006

Dear Starbucks Customer,
First and foremost I want to thank you for making Starbucks the $6.4 billion global company it is today, with more than 90,000 employees, 9,700 stores, and 33 million weekly customers. Every latte and macchiato you drink at Starbucks is a contribution to the close alliance between the United States and Israel, in fact it is - as I was assured when being honoured with the “Israel 50th Anniversary Friend of Zion Tribute Award” - key to Israel’s long-term PR success. Your daily chocolate chips frappucino helps paying for student projects in North America and Israel, presenting them with the badly needed Israeli perspective of the Intifada.

Starbucks, through the Jerusalem Fund of Aish HaTorah, an international network of Jewish education centres, sponsors Israeli military arms fairs in an effort to strengthen the special connection between the American, European and Israeli defense industries and to showcase the newest Israeli innovations in defense. As my contribution to the fight against the global rise of anti-Semitism, the reason behind the current conflict in the Middle-East, I help Aish HaTorah sponsoring the website "honestreporting.com” and produce material informing of Israel’s side of the story.
Without you, my valued customer, I wouldn’t be able to raise hundreds of millions of dollars each year to support Israeli citizens from terrorist attacks and keep reminding every Jew in America, to defend Israel at any cost. $5 billion per year from the US government are no way near enough to pay for all the weaponry, bulldozers and security fences needed to protect innocent Israeli citizens from anti-Semitic Muslim terrorism. Corporate sponsorships are essential.

Having the bigger picture in mind, Starbucks have donated a store to the US army to help in the “War on Terror”. I cannot emphasise enough, how vital the “War on Terror” is for the continued viability and prospering of the Jewish State.

So next time you feel like chilling out at a Starbucks store, please remember that with every cup you drink at Starbucks you are helping with a noble cause.

Howard Schultz
Chairman & Chief Global Strategist
Starbucks Coffee Stores

source: Parody: A Big Thank You To All Starbuck Customers

demi kemajuan negara....

sakitnye ati...
sekarang ni minyak naik pon orang dah bising. kang bile jadi gak projek kompleks sukan dorang tuh, tak ke menyusahkan orang lagi? dah le RM490 JUTA!

aritu, ade menteri tuh kate kena kurangkan harga arak untuk tarik pelancong ke Malaya. kali ni plak ade yang suggest bina satu sports complex yang unggul kat UK dengan RM490 JUTA!

adeiii....

+selain saman keta, misti banyak lagi saman yang menteri-menteri tuh tak bayarkan? kena pi TERJAH neh...

BACA:
> Komplek Sukan di UK: Mengapa kita perlu turut nafsu Azalina
> Pusat Latihan Sukan di London, satu lagi pembaziran

takde rezeki... lagi.

Pinkie dah nak datang ke Ipoh. tapi akuh plak dah kat sini....

kingston 256MB, blue in color...

my tumbdrive hilang. or is it?

jumaat aritu pi hsLab. sebelum kuar, [seingat akuh] memang dah tarik kuar tumbdrive dari pc. lepas tu pi men squash ngan emma. [seingat akuh] takde tonggang beg kat sane. lepas tuh, dinner kat summayyah. [seingat akuh] beg takde ter-jatuh atau ter-tonggang kat sane. malam, tengok citer 'pirates of the carribean' reramai. dah konfem, akuh tak bawak beg pi bilek ateh.

pagi tadi (monday) kul8 dah tercangak kat depan hsLab. hoping that tumbdrive tuh tertinggal kat kat sane. tapi takde. tanye opis technician pon dorang kate takde...

+isk... mane ye? harap-harap ter-misplaced je. baru setahun pakai tuh...

bukan aku...

tadi, waktu kelas Comp. App. madam mintak kitorang write out our expectation towards her. masing-masing khusyuk menules masing-masing punye expectations. bile dia collect the list, she started to gelak jahat. [gelak yang tak kuat tapi bunyi macam gelak witch yang jahat] until something caught her eye...

madam: hear this... one of your friend's expectation, "hoping that she will let us re-do the assignment if it is horrible". hahaha.... [dia gelak jahat (lagi)]

the whole class agrees. laughing.

sape punye laa tu.... (--")

SEM 1 2006/2007

sem ni adelah sem terakhir bagi cik emma. dan sem depan; tim, amrah, syima pula akan menyusul keluar sebagai graduan uia. akuh? ade lagi 1thn nak abes. adeii.....

sem ni buat 18.5 kredit hour. 6subjek.
1. Foreign Language 1 for BENL
2. Error & Contrastive Analysis
3. Discourse Analysis
4. Computer Applications in Language Studies
5. Public Personnel Administration
6. Islamic Ethics
dan most of the subjects adelah se-susah namanya...

RAJIN RAJIN RAJIN!

entry baru untuk sem baru

<syima>: lamenye tak update da.. cepatla entry comel entry comel..heheheeee

entry sy musti laa se-cumel tuannye ^_^

memang lame dah tak updet. dan memang banyak alasan kenape aku tak updet:

1. tenet uMah slow. sikit-sikit kena connect balik...

2. sibuk khAtam-kan rancangan kat tivi...

3. jadik drebar bertauLiah, dok teman ayah pi court ke hulu & hilir perak...

4. cuti otak jadik b.l.A.n.k

5. kena pakse men Barbie, tgk channel 61 ngan aiSyah...

KESIMPULAN-NYE, akuh M.A.L.A.S (o_0")

tapi, sekarang... akuh tidak malas lagi. akuh tidak buleh malas lagi.

sem baru dah mula. kena rajin. RAJIN RAJIN RAJIN. bukan rajin ONLINE sahaje, tapi rajin bace buku, pi perpustakaan, mengulangkaji pelajaran.... (--")

insyaallah...