husband & me + 18

small talk with husband...
"nanti kite rancang kehamilan boley?"
"tak boleh. orang nak anak 18..."
*gedebush-tendang suami kuar katil*

waktu 1st trimester dulu, memang jenuh laa mengandung ni... asek muntah je, lapo tapi tak lalu makan, penat tapi takley tido....

tapi bile dah masuk 2nd trimester, hidup semakin indah.... makan tak hengat donia... berat badan naik alhamdulillah... pastu perut pon mula laa kembung tegang berkilat suma... tapi baby dah mula gerak2... so agak suke bile nampak kulit perut bergerak2 pasal baby dok shuffle pusing tendang flying kick suma ^_^"

husband tanye lagi,
"suke tak pregnant?"
"suke! alhmdulillah, bile dah 5bulan, badan semakin sehat.... takde masalah sangat laa..."
"jadi, lepas bersalin ni kite buat anak lagi ye?"
*gedebush-tendang suami kuar katil lagi*

sungguhpon happy being pregnant, i could not answer that question yet. the BIG DAY has yet to come. the day when i'm going to deliver, pushing with all my might...... i could never imagine.... neither can he....

insyaallah.... ade rezeki, dapat laa capai target 18 orang anak tuh ;p

ape yang pasti, aku suke bile dapat gune toilet untuk pregnant ladies. tak payah berato... bersih... wangi.... tisu pun banyak.... oh! bahgia jadik ibu mengandung ^_^" *heheheh*

Happy 25th Birthday Darling!

" when i'm with you its paradise....

no where on earth could be so nice... "

{ i l.ove yo.u }

it's a girl insyaallah ^_^

went for my 2nd checkup at Ar-Ridzuan with a specialist, and she asked,

"nak tau jantina ke tak?"

me and husband looked at each other. i replied,

"kalau dah boley nampak, ape salahnye.... "

she is now 25weeks old and measures about 13 1/2 inches ^_^

kol ibu, ayah, abah, umi... btau kate cucu mereka insyaallah a girl; sume pakat gelak. hehehe.....

lepas scan, saje pegi jalan2 tengok barang baju baby. husband sungguh2 takmo beli barang kaler pink; katanye takmo anak jadik gedik beso nanti. hahahaha......

bahagia.... knowing that she is healthy inside me.
bahagia.... knowing that she is loved by everybody.
bahagia.... when husband starts calling her by her name already ^_^

terima kaseh tuhan!

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Al-Fatihah untuk beliau.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Sedar tak sedar, hujung minggu ni dah nk raye ^_^

and sedar tak sedar gak, tahun ni (insyaallah) aku akan berjaya berpuasa cukup sebulan! *yeah*
tapi, dalam dapat pose sebulan tu, aku rase aku tak sedar yang tak tentu laei sume hari2 aku berpose tuh diterima tuhan (--")

ye, aku pose perut. tahan makan dr pagi sampai maghrib. tp mata, telinga, tangan, kaki & mulut macam tak bape nk pose sangat je *erkk*

part teraweh je dah fail. ngaji? ok laa. kot. tahajud? lagi laaaaaaa tak lulus.

setiap Ramadhan mesti rase gini. tau nyesal. tau rugi. tapi buat gak. tak ikut gak.
sungguh ke setan kena ikat ar? - salahkan makhluk lain (--")

ubah topik. ubah topik.

tahun ni turn beraya di Melakaw.
tapi,
adelah tidak mustahil sekiranya tahun ini juga aku akan mencipta sejarah KALI PERTAMA sambut Aidilfitri kat umah sendiri; jauh dari keluarga, rendang tok, laksa ibu, nasi dagang umi.......

kalau komfem raya ku disini, aku tak kesah..... pasal bukan suami sengaje carik pasal mintak masuk raye nanti. at least, dua2 tak dapat balik beraya di kampung. baru aci ;p *hehehe*

tapi, yang tak acinye...... aku takkan dapat merasa masakan kampung yang sedapppppp... OH!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kawan-kawan.... Maaf Zohir & Batin.....
Mintak halal suma2 yang korang penah belanja @ atau ape2 yang aku selamba bedal dari korang dulu...
Segala kata-kata ku yang mungkin (atau memang) mengguris hati & perasaan, jiwa & raga, harap dimaafkan ye? (benar, aku adelah seworang yang agak laser (--")

aku maseh lagi bekerja esok (--")
korang2 yang dah nak balik, berhati2 di-jalanraya. pastikan cek enjin, angin tayar suma... jangan racing2, bawak keta dengan sabar pasal bukan ko sorg yang nk balek beraya.... jangan lupe bace doa nek kenderaan, bace 3Qul & ayat Kursi.

dan ingat, sampai rumah nanti.... salam peluk cium ayah ibu kome, mintak ampun maap, dihalalkan makan minum suma.... pasal nanti bile dah dah kawen mcm aku ni, dok jauh pulak tuh, dah susah nak balik.... nk makan sama2.... nk tgk ibu ayah, adik2 gelak sakan beraya... men mercun suma....

huhuhuuuuu...... nk balekkkk!!!! *sobsob*

i am...... still shy laa ^_^"

as planned, husband & i when for a scan-of-the-month. and since we're in Perak last weekend, we decided to check on the facilities available for maternity purposes at Pusat Rawatan Islam Ar-Ridzuan. just in case, kot2 laaa aku jadik bersalin kat ipoh ;)

smp je kat entrance, husband asked 'betui ke gini hospitalnye?' hehehe... gile kelakar! for those who didnt know, pusat rawatan islam kt ipoh neh bangunan nyer memang old-school, not like KPJ or other specialist available ^_^"

Contoh bangunan lama di Ipoh

i favours the place because my youngest sister was born at that particular hospital and the place was not as crowded as the others. husband tak kesah mana2 pon janji yg sambut baby nanti dokte pompuan & he could come in to (kununnyer) involve in the delivery process ;p *hehehe*

while waiting for my turn, husband asked;

'agak2 la kn, malam2 dok kat hospital ni scary tak? boley dengar tak bunyik kerusi roda ke.... orang menjerit tengah2 malam ke.... haaa'

aku yg mula ketakutkan pon menjawab;

'kompom le ade bunyik kusi roda, orang jerit2 suma... dah name pon hospital' *hehehe*

elok je smp turn, kami (me, husband & my two sisters) entered the Dr.'s room without delay. Aisyah (the youngest one) was even more excited than husband when the doctor told us that we can try to see the gender of the baby! *yeah*

selepas puas dokte melayan aisyah & her questions (mate dia yg mana dokte? kenapa jantung dia laju sangat gerak dokte?) we discovered this:

i am now 20 weeks old & 18cm long.
and that shiny line is my healthy & strong backbone! ^_^

instead of laying on his/her back, the baby decided to fool around and bertelingkup on top of the uri and makes it impossible for us to take a peek at his/her toot... anak ibu malu ye? *hehehe*

agak keciwa kerana tidak berjaya mengenalpasti janti bayi pada scan kali ni tp takpe..... bulan depan kite cube laei! ^_^

whatever it is, we are still blessed kerana bayi saye sihat & takde sebarang kompikasi alhamdulillah.... risaw mengingatkan kawan2 yang tumpah darah la, keguguran, rahim jatuh..... aduh! mintak jauh!

semoga segalanya diberkati & berjalan dengan lancar insyaallah... doakan!

sekian untuk kali ini.

saye saaaayang ibu sy! mmmuuuuaaahhh!

iye ke???

bukak blog dia. baca sesuatu yang menarik :Tarikh Lahir & Sifat Anda dalam Kalendar Hijrah

based on the calendar, i was born on 26/Safar/1405 AH. and according to descriptions in his entry, mereka-mereka yang lahir bulan Safar sifatnya:

"Tabiatnya buruk. Dia tidak suka mengakui kesalahannya. lbubapanya perlu mendidiknya bagi menghilangkan tabiat buruk itu, jika tidak, kehidupannya akan menjadi susah di kemudian hari. Walaupun begitu, sekiranya dia melakukan sesuatu untuk kepentingan dirinya, selalunya ianya akan mendatangkan hasil."

kecik ati *uhuk* (--")

the baby's active wooo.....

went for my monthly checkup yesterday. and the nurse told me that we can now listen to my baby's heartbeat. *dupdapdupdap* - aku yang gemuruh.

and u know what? my baby's heartbeat sounded like he/she is jogging inside my tummy - gile laju! and since the baby's size is still small, he/she tends to run here and there, making it hard for the nurse to track his/her heartbeat - anak ku sudah pandai men hide & seek. oh!

insyaallah, kalo ade kelapangan, husband & i will go for another scan this coming wiken.

cant wait to see you bebeh!

sorry dear~

i think i accidentally made a student cry ^_^" (it was really not on purpose, janji!)

tadi, the student came and asked for the class to be forwarded from 4pm to 2pm. i said ok la, since i had prepared my notes and i asked him to find a new venue for the class.

tapi, when its actually 2pm, only 10 of them was there; while the rest was missing-in-action. aku pon ape lagi, naik angin laa. dah la it was a 1-hour class. kalo budak2 tu lambat 30mins, ape je yang boley cover within the next 30mins?

dorg plak masing2 menunding jari. and the student who came to see me earlier - merah padam muke dia. and further asked to be excused. back in, i can see that his eyes turned red. aiyoh. aku plak yang rase bersalah!

what confusing was, the student was a he and he was supposed to not-be terase if these things arises. but, he is a good student and probably he takes his responsibility seriously and that was also why he is quite sensitive when the class (including me!) was kinda finger-pointing it to him ^_^"

i did took him aside and said my sorry. and even though he answered 'takde pape la teacher' , i still can see that he is still quite terase from what had happened....

again, i'm sorry (--")

30 Syaaban, 1430 Hijriah

tahun ni, 1st time aku terlepas siaran pakcik-Pemegang-Mohor-Besar- Diraja. demm!

tahun lepas, aku sambut Ramadhan berdua... tahun ni, aku raikan Ramadhan ber-tiga... baek punya planning kan? hehehe... terima kaseh tuhan! ^_^ semuga Ramadhan kali ni, aku akan berjaya berpuasa cukup sebulan ^_^

dan dikesempatan ini, aku ingin memohon ampun & maaf atas segala bentuk salah silap, kekasaran bahasa, ketidakbetulan perlakuan dan ape sahaje lah. Semuge Ramadhan kali ini membawa makna & rahmat kepada semua ^_^

Selamat Berpuasa ye? ^_~

aku & n a f s u

amek kau, aku bantai The Proposal, G.I.Joe, and Harry Potter all in 1 week!

Sudah 3bulan aku & suami 'puase' dari menonton movies di panggung.
kenape? pasal ade orang pesan kat suami, yang pompuan mengandung tak boleh tgk movie psl takut sound system itu boley merosakkan janin. mau tak takut dia?

tapi si ibu yang mengandung tu pulak bukan jenis yang reti bahase, dok pujuk rayu je selalu... minta dibawa menonton wayang juge ^_^" sabit laa si suami ni kuat semangat & kretif, bini tak dapat tgk movie kat panggung, dia usahakan jugak bawakkan movies2 itu ke isteri tercayang *ceeewah*

tapi, si isteri tetap tak putus asa. bermacam2 research dibuat; internet, books.... takde pon yang kate ibu mengandung tak boley tgk movie. yang dorg kate, horror movies je tak sesuai ditonton. maseh tidak puas hati, si isteri consult kawan yang bekerja sebagai peg. farmasi di sebuah hospital terkemuka (yeke?) kat KL & si emak sedara sorg nurse bersalin pencen.

and guess what? the fren told me (from her brief research thru medical journals) that the decimal sound system of Malaysia's movie theater are still under no threat to any living things. and the emak sedara even confirms the statement with "iye, boleh aje nak tgk wayang....."

haku pon ape lagi ^_~

....but you know what?
after coming out from the movie theatre, aku rase 'beseeee' je. apsal ye?

pasal itu sume n a f s u belaka.
nafsu ni, bila tak dilayan, bukan men lagi dia memberontak.
tapi, bile dah disuap, takde mende pon.... tak tgk kt wayang pon takpe. tunggu je laa suami men- errkk, suami beli dvd original kat kedai speedy tuh ^_^" and kalo laa di-maintain-kan tidak menonton sampai baby lahir, duit2 yang terkumpul boley wat belanja pape yang patut baby...

sungguhpun demikian, aku tetap nak menonton:

just to share:
ituhari waktu tgk Harry Potter kan, ade satu scene tu kan. dia mcm terkejut sikit tau. bukan aku tak tau yang memang akan kuar satu tangan dari tasek tu yang akan tarik Harry ke dalam tapi, scene tu tetap berjaya men-terkejutkan aku.

but the scarier thing was, when my baby stopped moving. *hoh*

right before the scene, my tummy was not feeling at ease, i had to adjust my posture quite a lot. elok je scene terkejut tu kuar, ilang suma sakit. ilang suma rase baby gerak2. aku gabrah.

throughout the movie, i put my hands on my tummy smbl selawat banyak2, risooooooooooo kalo jadik pape inside. tulaa, orang tak bagi tgk dia nak tengok gak (--")

habes wayang, btau kat suami. mengelabah member. terus diajak nye pegi cek dokte *hehe* tp alhamdulillah, tak lame lepas itu, the pain comes right back! tak penah aku rase se-suke itu bile tummy tak selesa ^_^"

itu tuhan nk bagi reminder kat aku,
yang ber-kuasa: DIA! yang bagi aku rezeki: DIA!
jadi, jangan terlampau suke sangat.... berhibur hendaklah berpada2. wasatiah dan bersyukur ^_^

tapi, G.I.Joe yang action-pack tuh takde pulak aku terkejut2! ^_^"

wynn.... beringat..... syukur......

ours ^_^

berikutan kes H1N1, kolej aku pon sibuk menutupkan dirinya, dengan meningkat nyer bilangan student2 yang suma pakat demam panas+selesema.
tidak seperti institusi2 lain, tenaga pengajar kolej kami juga dibenarkan cuti sama seperti student2 dorang! *yeay*
apo laei, kepalo den dah mula merangka: Moh Balek Perak Yob! \o/

since its a last minute plan, husband only manages to escape from work and apply for leave on Thurs & Friday. takpe2, janji balek!

seminggu cuti, berleluasa laa aku kat umah ^_^"

but the best thing was, on Wednesday husband takes the half-day leave and took me for an ultrasound scan!

sebelum ni, aku buat suma sorg je kat klinik kerajaan. since he's working and all. and when he actually had the chance to take me himself, dia yang dupdap neves. 1st time laa katekan.

until he saw this:

our baby is now 16 months old.

i should have captured husband's expressions when he sees the baby. so chomel!!!!

Al-Fatihah.

dia tak kenal aku. tapi aku suke betul dengan dia.
dia tak tahu pun kewujudan aku. tp aku suke betul ikuti perkembangan dia.

dia comel pakai baju kurung bunga kecil-kecil. senyuman dia manis. dia ada ramai kawan. semua orang sayangkan dia.

...... tapi Allah lebih sayangkan dia.

tanpa iklan mahupun notis dari sesiapa, dia pergi meninggalkan kita. yang tinggal hanya cerita-cerita hasil karya dia untuk kita tonton, untuk kita dalami, dan untuk kita sama-sama belajar dari kehidupan.

sayang kita hilang dia.

takziah untuk keluarga Puan Yasmin Ahmad.
...... terasa sungguh kehilangan dia.

2nd revelation; i am 3months 2weeks now ^_^

the baby has grown!

he/she is now at about 6.5cm, and sudah mula punya jari tangan dan kaki serta kelopak telinga. i'm excited!

and oh! adelah normal jika pada umur ini kepala baby lebih besar dari anggota2 yang lain. hehe ^_^"

insyaallah, dia bakal lahir 21 Januari 2010. jadi kawan2, u can start saving from now. next year aku collect ek? ^_~ hehehee

aku maseh belom ber'perut' ^_^" tp alhamdulillah, muntah2 sudah kurang, sudah mau makan nasi cume.... berat maseh belom naik. harapannye, bulan ke-4 nanti aku akan jadi semakin bertenaga! ameeennnnnn!

terima kaseh atas doa kalian. teruskan berdoa ek? ;)

July 18~

Husband dearie,
thank you for an amazing married life! looking forward to the future... even with the coming of the baby as the 'orang ketiga' in our life ^_~ hehehhehehe

i love u ahmad muaz *mmuuuuaaaahhhh*

finally got my hands on these....

thanks for the trip to KINO angah ;)

ayah blanjer *yeah* book version of course ;)

and a book for preggy's, "BUKU LENGKAP PENJAGAAN IBU & ANAK" by Elizabeth Fenwick.

Aku tak tipu, seriyes lengkap duhh! the author even included a VERY CLEAR IMAGE of a baby coming out from the mother's toot! even my husband dok terasa2 sakit kat situ ^_^" hahahahahahah

cant wait for my 2nd ultrasound!

huuuu~

husband..... saye ngidaaaaaam sgt nk tgk HARRYPOTTER nehh.... kite pg tgk ek?
boley laa... boley laaa.....

* kepala dok terngiang2 soundtrack HP dari minggu lepas ^_^"

presenting...... jengjengjeng!

went for my 1st ultrasound yesterday. and my baby is something like this.

pelik kan? u see nothing but a gumpal of something inside. hehehe....

perasaan sy? happy. weird. cold.

why happy?
because it is confirmed that the creature inside me is well. heartbeat present and he / she has already grows a head, a pair of hands and legs. and you know what? even by being only 3cm long, she has already annoys me with all these morning/night sickness and the urge to vomit like every time! hehehhe.... my baby ^_^" TUHAN MEMANG HEBAT!

its weird because... macam tak caye i am carrying a future caliph inside me. and it is my duty to grow, taking care and educate him / her. responsibility. wow. diri sndri pon maseh lagi terkontang-kanting (--")

and it is also cold at that moment because the gel that the doctor uses is sejuk. but nice. rase best ^_^" *ntahapahapentah*

this 1st ultrasound is important for me. because it is to confirm bape sebenarnyer umo my janin. the doctor estimated that the baby is around 9weeks and 6days old. but, it is yet to be confirmed! maseh kena 2nd scan next month. takpe dokte, sy suke perut sy di-scan ^_^v

*notakaki:
to all married ladies, next time jangan lupe to take note setiap tarikh period anda! (bila mula & bila it ends) why you asked? because when it is actually time for u to get preggy, takde laa susah2 nk estimate bape sebenarnye umo ur janin inside... ngerti? ^_~

sy maseh muntah2. doakan!!

Tagged

Tagged

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 5 people to be tagged.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: air cincau satuuu!
2. Last phone call: yana. my dps student.
3. Last text message: tikah. my student as well.
4. Last song you listened to: no boundaries - kris & adam AI'09
5. Last time you cried: yesterday- the biggest loser (emo seh!)

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yup. but ended up being nothing.
7. Been cheated on: of course!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yup (--")
9. Lost someone special: uhuh...
10. Been depressed: at times...
11. Been drunk and threw up: NO.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. green
13. brown
14. does rainbow colours counts? ^_^"

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yup.
16. Fallen out of love : big no-no.
17. Laughed until you cried: yup. tgk citer ape ntah ngan husband ;)
18. Met someone who changed you: ntah.
19. Found out who your true friends were: yup.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: mustilaa ade.. i kan glamer ^_~
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: u know who ^_~
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: all of them.
23. How many kids do you want?: dunno. yg satu ni pon dok meghampuih ^_^"
24. Do you have any pets: no.
25. Do you want to change your name: dulu laa... skrg dak dah ;D
26. What did you do for your last birthday: work.
27. What time did you wake up today: lambat. i mabuk ^_^"
28. What were you doing at midnight: sleeping.
29. Name something/someone you CANNOT wait for: ntah.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: semalam. windu ibu *sob sob*
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my grades in uni. i know i can do better!
32. What are you listening to right now : surah yusuf - taruk kat tummy for baby ;)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: my angin. dok sedawa mcm ketapi!
35. Most visited webpage: fs/blogger/fb/ms/etc....
36. Whats your real name: RAKA
37. Nicknames: ayong, ada, awie, wynn
38. Relationship Status: happily married!
39. Zodiac sign: Scorpio
40. Male or female?: female.
41. Primary school: SRKRJ
42. Secondary school: MUC (seriously)
43. High school/college/university? : iium
44. Hair color: black.
45. Long or short: medium long
46. Height: 149cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone? : ntah....
48: What do you like about yourself?: my laugh *hahahahhahahahahha*
49. Piercings: none. not even at telinga.
51. Righty or lefty: righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: never
53. First piercing: 1994.
54. First best friend: Nani.
55. First sport you joined: lumba lari & bola jaring woo
56. First vacation: betong, thailand!
58. First pair of trainers: R. dunno what it stands for ^_^"

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: ubat hangin bdn
60. Drinking: plain water+cincau
61. I'm about to: finish this tag.
62. Listening to: kak aida ngaji ^_^"
63. Waiting : go back home! want to lie down badly!!

YOUR FUTURE
64. What kids?: tak kesah....
65. Get Married?: done that
66. Career?: ptd? ;) hehehe

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs.
69. Shorter or taller: taller all the way.
70. Older or Younger: ntah.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantaneous. tiru fathia :P
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both.
73. Sensitive or loud: sensaloud. again tiru ko :P
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: ntah (--")

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: no
78. Lost glasses/contacts: lost? no. pecah? thousand times.
79. Sex on first date: no no.
80. Broken someone's heart: maybe?
82. Been arrested: no no no.
83. Turned someone down: ade kot...
84. Cried when someone died: yeah.
85. Fallen for a friend?: of course, he's my husband now ;)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: err,most of the time kot?
87. Miracles: sometimes.
88. Love at first sight: yeah.
89. Heaven: hell yeah.eh,heaven yeah.
90. Santa Claus: ys ^_^"
91. Kiss on the first date: no.
92. Angels: yeah.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no.
95. Did you sing today?: i did.
96. Ever being cheated by somebody?: as guilty as they are charged.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: all the way to 1984. the day i was born
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: days with my kayakers. missing them like h*ll!
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yup
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: the truth,the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

and so wynn would more than love wanna make these people suffer as much as she did:
1) kak long mazni (if u're reading this ;)
2) phyd
3) adekpyan
4) amrah
5) nore
6) and everyone that cares for me *wink*

i'm 6 weeks pregnant people ^_~

the doctor confirms it. alhamdulillah....
we are happy. husband smiles all the way home.
we are fortunately blessed.

..... but at the same time, i do feel scared.

aku, walopun 25 yrs old, perangai maseh mcm budak form4.
aku, walopun udah 10bulan kawen, maseh tak pandai masak (--")
aku, walopun udah bekerja dan punya duit sendiri, maseh tipon ibu untuk tanye "boley tak ayong beli spekmata baru?" ^_^"

and now that i am soon-to-be a mother, aku takut.

boleh ke? layak ke? sesuai ke? mampu ke? larat ke?

doakan aku. aku maseh takut.