January 13, 2021

 PKPB 2.0 for us.

Nothing new. 

Husband's still need to go to work. Kids still at home. And me? Still on my laptop like literally on screen time 24 hours blurghhhhhh

January 12, 2021

Panic buying! 

Last minutes decision to go out and buy their school uniforms. 

"Mane boleh bawak budak-budak keluar waktu covid ni kan, ibu?"

"Harini PKPP lagi. Esok dah PKPB 2.0 pulak. Kang lagi susah nak carik barang sekolah dah..."

Punya laa banyak alasan depa tak keluar rumah. Senang hati sungguh dapat duduk rumah. Semoga Allah sentiasa jaga dan berikan mereka kesihatan fizikal dan mental. 

Bior ibu sorang ajelah yang sakit kepala huhu

January 11, 2021

 Just another Monday. And another 'birth' day of 'my' Siti Norhaliza *wink*

Thank you for looking out for me back then. Syukur Allah bagi rezeki berkawan dengan orang baik-baik. 

Alhamdulillah :)

January 10, 2021

I lost my temper again with the kids.

I'm becoming my father. And my scripts were all similar to what they've said to me before.

I do not want history to repeat itself.

I do not want them to be like me.

I really don't.

But cannot seem to hold this part of me for too long.

Whenever I'm mad, I need to burst it out.

And so far, I failed at channeling it out.

 January 9, 2021

An on-the-spot decision.

The actual plan was to find a space where Umar can happily run around and gets his physical time while the rest of us enjoying each other's company out in the sun.

But we went tp Phantasy Farm instead.

   

Petting the furry animals

 

The place is actually bigger than it looks in these pictures. Very neat, very organised. And clean too! 

My personal fave were when we were ath the Grandma's Farm. The tree house with swings and slides, complete with a water well; all of us had fun! Sarah Hannan learned how to use the bucket to retrieve water from the well. And as for Umar, puas hati dapat tengok dia naik turun tangga playing with the slides and all smiles! 

Bought ourselves McDonald's for lunch, just like pre-covid times when we went out for jalan-jalan.

It's been a while since we got out of the house together. Looking forward to more this 2021, insyaallah ameeeen! 

 January 8, 2020

I realised that I will always be motivated to complete my tasks (house/office work) every time when someone offended or hurt me. 

Yes, I slept late.

Yes, I woke up late.

But, the job's done.

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Tapi takkan nak kena sakit ati aje baru bersemangat nak buat kerja. Buat terox ah! 

 January 7, 2021

Word cuts deep. 

Especially when it was being reminded againandagainandagain. 

As if nothing else is right. 

As if nothing else matters.

But it's not wrong to put up a fight, right?

But it sure is wrong to not consider others in the fight, no?

Truth hurts. But words cut deeper. 

 January 6, 2021

Got too overwhelmed with work. And headache. And all other occurring stuff.

And what did I do?

I cancelled/postponed all my classes. Gave them noted for self-reading instead.

Am I wrong to do that? Maybe.

Am I at fault for needing time to reschedule all of the abundance of stuff/work? No, I don't think so. 

I hope.

January 5, 2021

Came for a filling. Got treated for root canal instead. Felt like being scammed by the doctor hahaha

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My first root canal at 37. WHAT?! I'M 37 THIS YEAR?!!!! 

January 4, 2021

Drove back at 8:30 pm. Arrived home at 2:30 am. Arghhh penatnya! 

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I'm lucky that husband is such a good driver. And a singing one too ;p

January 3, 2021

 Happiest birthday, A*jah :)

Semoga Allah selalu pelihara dan murahkan rezeki dimana-mana juga awok berada.

And enjoy dating around with the husband while you still can ;)

January 2, 2021

 Majlis bersanding.

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Phew, penatnya! Aku perform sungguh hari ni. At least, that was I thought I was doing. Running around here and there. Adjusting this, locating that - man! I even cracks my heels doing these! 

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I am kinda liking this PKP wedding template - limited guest means its small and intimate. Also means that guests are free to stay and enjoy the wedding, ample time to sit around and catching up with each other's stories. Even though I don't really have the luxury to enjoy my time with my cousins, but seeing everyone faces has already made my day :)

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Semoga Allah pelihara dari penyakit-penyakit berjangkit dan merbahaya *ameen* 

January 1, 2021

Alhamdulillah, my sister is now a married woman! :)

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Marriage is hard work. That's for sure. Have fun together. Solve problems together. Do not take each other for granted. For marriage is a partnership, where both efforts are needed to make it work. 

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I pray that Allah showers you with sakinah, mawaddah and rahmah. 

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I love you sister. Because of Allah :*

Only a matter of time and patience :)

                                             

It's been many years since I have put up that wish list in my blog. And three of them was achieved all within the same year!

Ceteker yang mana? 

Things I've learnt from the year 2020

1) Don't buy a fancy planner for next year. The plain normal one works fine.

2) A nice working space is important for every home. It sure helped with mine.

3) Be willing to spend money on things that will help you with your work - office work & house work. 

4) Planning and following a schedule is good for everyone in the house. Not just you.

5) Insist on having help with house chores. It's their house too!

6) Plan for more dates and staycation with the family! And act on it!

7) To be happy is more important than being perfect. But, it's hard to be happy, when every one else too busy looking out for their own...

I hope my children are happy. Ibu minta maaf sebab selalu marah-marah.

What if?

Another friend is leaving the office.

Part of it was because of stress from work. And only the husband will be earning money. The wife will try to work-from-home as a full-time mother plus trying on online businesses. 

Even so, both husband and wife were happy to leave and start over. To be better partners in marriage and better parents to their kids and soon-to-be born lil one.

I'm so happy for them. And prayed that Allah grants them health and ease them in everything they do *ameeen*

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Will I be willing to start over at a new place and new environment?

To be honest, I'm not sure.

Siapa

Team building literally means the action or process of causing a group of people to work together effectively as a team, especially by means of activities and events designed to increase motivation and promote cooperation.

And technically, a company will usually arranged for a team building program when there's a need to unite and harmonise the working environment in a company. 

The thing is, all of us staff are already very effective in working as a team. And we also cooperate well with one another.

Tapi tulahtu. 

Siapa sebenarnya yang perlukan program ni??

One of those mornings

Sedang bersiap-siap pagi tadi, I can hear the husband and kids laughing and joking around while waiting for their mommy to be ready.

Something that’s not normal when they are alone with me.

 

With me, there’ll be shouting and high pitch voices like, 

“Cek balik! Kang tertinggal!”

“Kenapa tak siap lagiii?!”

“Tolong laa kemas mainan tu sementara nak tunggu ibu!”

Ya Allah, please bless my husband for being the source of happiness for the family. And please give me the patience to be a better parent to my children ♥️

It's OK. You're OK :)

Everyone has their own tribe - people whom they vibe with.

 

So, as an individual you don't have to succumb to changing yourself so you can fit in. 

It's OK if you're not someone's cup of tea.  

 

Likewise, it is OK for someone to not be our cup of tea.

 

What's not OK is to rally other people to dislike someone whom you (we) don't like as if we're the one who need validation.

 

Instead, what we can do instead is to choose to co-exist.

 

We can leave people to their own glory and just be happy for them. 

Help each other sincerely, and just be happy for them.

Help each other sincerely, and be of assistance whenever necessary. 

 

Because it's the right thing to do.

 

This world is a big place - it can accommodate you, me and other people as well.  

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Self-entitl3ment

Aku 'ter'naik suara kat ofismate aku last week. 

Yakin je yang aku tak sengaja kan??

 

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Our thumbprint machine in the office got broken. 

So, aku dengan gembiranya masuk ofis tak thumbprint, assuming that I can only thumbprint when that thing get fixed. 

Three weeks went by. And just last week I knew that everyone else thumb themselves in-and-out at the main office.

Haa aku pun apa lagi. Meletop ah! 

Apsal aku tak tahu? 

Kenapa takde sapa kabo apa-apa? 

Apsal ko tak share dalam group kata boleh thumb kat main office?

And this one officemate, with her annoyed face and mata menjeling replied, 

"Saya ada effort untuk tanya HR. Kenapa akak takde effort untuk tanya?"

Dan aku pun ape lagi, MELETOP AH!

 

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I didn't asked the HR because I've reported about the issue since the first week. And I was just waiting for her or the others (dean/HOD) who might be able to update on the matter since they also knew about this.

So, imagine my annoyance when this mate sesukehati said that I did not put in the effort?!

 

HELLO! YANG HANG DAH TAHU TAPI TAK SHARE THE INFO TU DAH KENAPA? 

SELFISH!!!

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I guess she's just felt offended with my tone of voice at that time and responded as such as a mode to defend herself. 

I get it. My fault for yelling and making her uneasy since it really is not her job to inform me.

 

And I did say my sorry for yelling at her. 

She replied, "Tulah. Sentap kita...". 

 

OK. I'm now on her blacklist. And I'm OK with that. 

Salah sendiri.

 

I do, however, still believe that she should share the info/update with everyone else.

Am I wrong to think so?

 

Ah. Dah tua-tua macam ni semua benda rasa tak kena. Pfft.