throwback January - February 2014

 Yup. Anak-anak dok excited bangun turun kerusi. Siap berebut nak tengok keluar tingkap lagi. Tapi bapak keras saja dok tepi. Gayat katanya. Alhamdulillah trip 45 minutes sahaja :)

 Touchdown Pekan Baru's Sultan Syarif Qasim II airport. Boleh tahan cantik airport dia. and tak berapa nak risau kalau flight delayed pasal it's spacious and takda la rasa insecure macam kat Bandung ^___^"

 And this is the famous Kelok 9. Kelok means jalan-bengkang-bengkok. It is so dangerous, alhamdulilah they manage to build new roads to replace it. By the time we reach the place, Hannan has fallen asleep on my lap. So abah, Sarah and makngah saja laa yang layan the view.

Our first morning at Bukit Tinggi. 

We were so tired, it was a 7-hour drive from Pekan Baru, mind you.

Tapi kawasan tu sejukkk banget! Nama pun Bukit Tinggi kan? :)

Next stop, Danau Maninjau. 

It is, subhanallah, an amazing view! Gila bosaw tasek dia, and the water looks so green from above. We didnt manage to get a clear picture  of the lake though. But it is mesmerizing. Plus, it windy too! Look at ma' hood! *wink*

 After that, Heri drove us down through Kelok 44.

We were lucky Heri is a good driver. Speeding yes, but still ok alhamdulillah. Of course, I did took any picture of the road since we are too busy holding one another in the car. But the picture above gives you an idea of how the road is... times 44!

 This was our second stop, rumahnya Buya Hamka :)

The funny thing was, even both Heri & Adel tak tahu pun wujudnya such wisata. Macam aku gak la, nama saja duduk PD, tapi Muzium Tentera Darat tu pon aku tak sampai laei huhu

 Ahhhh... this is the place that I miss the most! 

The dreamy Air Mancur Lembah Anai.

Mula-mula pelik gak, "Pasaipa laa nak kena gi tengok air terjun. Mesia pon ade..." pastu amek kau! Nak balik pon tak sampai hati, sedeh (T__T")

It's quite a small area, tak bosar pon air terjunnya tapi mashaallah... airnya jernih bersih cantik! betul kata review, memang Lembah Anai ni ibaratnya cebisan rahmat yang jatuh dari syorga... saya rindu! 

 Malam itu, kami ke Jam Gadang. saja nak rasa night life bersama local people. biasa-biasa saja semua. except for here, in Indonesia, nothing is free. even nak tangkap gambo dengan maskot pon kena bayo. pasal kalau suma free, habes laa ramai rakyat depa ramai xdak kija. 

 Peek-a-boo! I can see you :)

Kakak Sarah demam. But alhamdulillah bekal semua siap. Tapi we missed Lobang Japang and Tembok Cina. Makngah and the boys went ahead. Kami siap2 saja mahu kembali ke Pekan Baru for the wedding. 

We arrived at Pekan Baru at 2 am despite leaving early from Bukit Tinggi. Tapi mana tak lambat, semedang menyinggahnye ;p

Wedding of the month :)

Ade sedikit segan bila pi kenduri Pak Kiki ni benornye. 

Rasa macam out of place. Pasal SEMUA ORANG PAKAI GLAMOR GILA HIJABISTA TAK HENGAT PUNYA!

And whether you like it or not, before you leave the wedding, you have to bagi 'duit tangan' for the pengantin. And you will also be asked to declare how much you give in a book prepared, complete with your signature.

Nasib baik ada bawak sampul raya *phew*

All and all, it was a memorable trip. 7 hari weh! Kau hade? 

Despite not having Kiki to bring us around, he is one hell of a host! 

Hoping to see him November for Angah's wedding.

 Jangan serik dengan kami ya? :) 

alhamdulillah

sejak beberapa hari ni, I have been re-visiting my previous entries. 
seronok juga baca entry lama.
kau nampak progress diri kau, dulu dan sekarang.
waktu blaja dulu lain, baru-baru kawen juga lain. 
ni dah  beranak ni lagi laa lain.
lain dari segi cara bercerita.
jenis ceritanya.
mood ceritanya.
grammar English-nya juga. *hehe*

dan after reading all of that, I realised that there are a lot things that I should thank Allah for.

dari takdak boyfren, sampai dok ada 3.
dari antara yang selebet, jadik antara yang terawal mendirikan rumah tangga.
dari dok buat perangai childish, sendiri sudah punya anak dua.
dari dok komplen xbertuah boleh travel macam orang lain, alhamdulillah... Bandung, Pekan Baru & Bukit Tinggi Indonesia sampai sudah.

You see? God has his own plan.
And His plan is not much different from ours, only better and on the perfect time.

Alhamdulillah... thank you Allah.

Menabung untuk ke Mekah & Madinah pula insyaallah :)

  

Penatlah.

Kita tak boleh buat semua orang suka kita.
Sebab kalau semua orang suka kita, maknanya ade laa benda tak betul yang kita dah buat tu.
Kenapa pulak macam tu? 
Yelaa, setiap suka dan tidak suka orang itu berbeza.
Dan bukan mudah untuk kita puaskan hati semua.
Pasti akan ada yang terluka.
Lebih-lebih lagi kita.

Buat apa jadi lilin yang membakar diri?
Lagi-lagi kepada mereka yang tak reti nak hargai diri ini.

Baik berpada-pada.
Jangan sampai makan diri.

stress.

Dah lama tak dating.
Berdua sahaja.
Tengok movie. Maraton movies.
Jalan-jalan. 
Pegang-pegang tangan.
Makan makanan mahal-mahal.

...rindulah.

COACH vs aku

"Amboi kak. Lawa beg? Brape ribu ni??" aku tanya gurau-gurau saja.

"Isk. Tak mahal lah. lapanratus ja".

Keras sekejap aku. 
Telan air liur bertalu-talu.
lapanratus je?  
Memang la kau keje gomen. Tapi gaji level SPM kot. 
Brapa depa bagi kau bulan-bulan??
Ituhari MANGO, kali ni COACH.  
Itu belum aku dengkikan kasut CLARKS anak kau lagi.  
... ko tak boleh nak salahkan aku kalau aku rasa jeles.
pasal dah lumrahnya, manusia macam aku ni pasti akan rasa mahu lebih macam orang lain.

pasaipa dia boleh beli handbag mahal sampai 4, 5 biji? 

Aku pulak asek beli hat murah saja...

pasaipa baju seluar dress dia suma beli boutique? 

aku jugak yang asek round bundle carik jenama murah...   

Masalahnya:

SAPA SURUH KAU BELI YG MURAH?
Salah diri sendiri.  
Tapi aku takut nak beli yang mahal.  
Mampukah nak survive sampai hujung bulan?
Mampukah nak maintain masak saja hari-hari tiap malam balik penat keje?
Mampu... tapi tak mahu. 
Mahu...  tapi tak brapa nak mampu.
sigh.
dilema pompuan psiko. 
aku.
bukan kamu.
takyah sibuk nk terasa.

... and we are back!

... to our homestay: The hospital! 
It is the school break. 
My baby sister is here with me, since ibu ayah semua went for umrah last Sunday.
But pity her, having to spend her holidays in the hospital, assisting me while kakak Sarah is under treatment.
Alhamdulillah, nothing serious.
Tapi tulah... pekat betul kahaknya. 
3kali suction pun still batuknya berbunyi.
But, double alhamdulillah *yay* Doc kate hari ni semua dh OK and we are ready to go back home!

This time, only Kakak Sarah was admitted. 
My Hannan, alhamdulillah, was clear without any sickness.
It seems that she is more immune to sickness compared to her big sister.

And it breaks my heart to not let them stay together.

They have never being apart before. 
But alhamdulillah, both of them took it very well.

When Hannan came to visit her sister, Sarah asked to wait for her in front of the elevator. 
And once Hannan step out of it, they ran towards each other and hug each other macam sebulan tak jumpa

...pastu nangeh pasal dahi berlaga peluk salah angle *hahahahahahaha*

Terima kasih ya Allah!
Semoga kasih sayang ini berkekalan hingga ke syurga ameen :)

hello!

My last post was on April.

It is now November.

I don't meant to ditch the blog for good. I just don't have the time.
I don't even have time for myself.

Even dalam bilik air pon, ade je tangan hulur bawah pintu,

 "Ibu buat ape tuuuu??" 

Aduh.

Hari ini dalam sejarah :)

buat pertama kalinya, kakak Sarah tak pakai pampers for the whole day dan berjaya tahan wee-wee + buang air beso sampailah dia di dalam bilik air!!
i am so proud of her!!

funny how these little things make me happy.

aku dulu cano ek??

selepas ribut berlalu...

lama tak update.

besa laa, perasan sibuk. semester sudah berakhir, so baru boleh ghajin sikit buat benda lagha. heh. baru balik dr ipoh neh. syok woh cuti sampai 4 hari.
pastu bile nak balik semalam, sebak semacam. sobs. 

siannn mak aku.
memang laa ade adik beradik lain kat ghomah. tapi iyelah, masing-masing dh beso. sibuk dengan karier lah. sibuk dengan internet lah. sibuk tengok tivi lah. bapak aku pulak gatai pi terima kija jauh. wiken saja baru balik. bila balik plak, dok sibuk tidoq. penat katanya. 

dihujung hari, tinggailah mak aku sibuk buat hal sendiri gak. dah suma pakat buat-buat sibuk semua...

tu pasai aku suka kalau dapat selalu balik sana. 
selain dari dapat balik kampung sendiri, aku suka bila dapat sembang dengan mak aku. cerita apa saja dengan dia. pasal aku, pasal cucu-cucu dia. pasal kawan-kawan aku. apa-apa saja. 
pasal dia akan senyum setiap kali :)

mak aku dh makin kurus. makin ringan.
lengan dia makin kecik, patah lagi si pinggang. baju suma pon dah banyak longganq. risaw weh.

last week dia cita, ade orang rembat segala botol plastik, surat khabar lama, besi sidai kain dari belakang rumah. patut laa beria beli mangga baru, takut dia datang semula. mau aku tak risau? kalau mangkok tu tahu yang ghomah tu xdak laki, takut dia berani datang di malam hari pulak. aduh.  

ni la kot lumrah hidup.
waktu kecik, anak dikasih disayang.
bila dah beso, dah kawen, dah kena ikut suami dok jauh. aku doakan semoga adik-adik semua dapat jodoh yang baik dari tempat-tempat yang tak jauh dari ibu aku. bior le aku sorang je yang jauh, depa bior lah dapat dekat2 sana saja. dok satu rumah lagi bagus.

lepaih ni turn aku pulak.
harap Sarah Hannan tak lupa ibu abah opah atok dia insyaallah ;(

sakit pelik?

isteri: sayang, nanti dapat bonus nak buat ape? bercuti jom??
suami: tak boleh lagi? nak kena setel hutang credit card dulu suma...
isteri: kata ituhari buleh setel pelan2?
suami: memang boleh tapi lebih baik kasi clear hutang tu cepat sikit. senang 
          laa nanti, kalau awak sakit pelik2 ke nanti dah ade backup... 
isteri: apsal pulak saye pulak sakit pelik2? mane pulak awak tau saye nak 
         sakit pelik2 ni?? amboi... (sambil jegil mata)
suami: eh? bukan macam tu ehehh... (taktau nak cakap apa)

mine, his & ours

sedikit menyesal. 
sebab tak rancang perbelanjaan. sebab tak prihatin. sebab tak peka.

aku tak tahu yang kompeni akan bagi bonus. ok fine. aku tahu. tapi, aku tak pernah berharap yang depa akan bagi gak. pasai pernah dulu aku berharap, pastu tak dapat. frust weh!

so, bila tetiba dapat. aku jadik gelisah weh!

laki aku pulak teringat, yang aku ada janji kat dia kata nak bagi suma duit bonus aku pada dia.
hamekaw! tak tenang jiwa weh...

tetapi, being the gentleman that he is, dia pon kata:
" takpelah... anje amek laa balik duit bonus tu semua. sayang hadiahkan balik pada anje... "

sweet tak? sweet kan??

pastu habesssss, sepanjang masa dia dok mengungkit wehhh hahahahahaha

dah memang rezeki dia, aku pon beli laa jam baru, sepasang untuk kami berdua. 
and he hug me openly in public, right after.

ooo, itu caranya nak suh dia show his affection to me in public hikhik *gelak gedik*

sakan aku wehh tunjuk jam baru aku kat kawan semua.... masakan tidak, jam beli sendiri weh. rasa hensem jak pakai. sikit2 ushar, macam tak caya beli jam mahai hehehehe

48jam lepas tu, aku 'ter'tinggal jam tersebut kat surau Aeon.

bermulalah episod mendung selama seminggu (-_-")

aku dah serik nak pakai jam dah. pasai sebelum jam ni (yg laki aku bagi), aku dh pon tertinggal jam aku kat rumah sedara & depa tak jumpa mana depa simpan pulak dah.

mungkin bukan rezeki aku.

tapi rezeki laki aku??

tak lama lepas tu, bila aku kemas meja kat bilik, tuptap nampak jam yang sama atas meja.

senyum aku weh. sayang laki aku kat aku. dia sanggup lagi belikan jam yang sama. despite my clumsiness. 

pastu aku kerling, nampak jam pojaan si dia sekali kat tempat yang sama.

"ceh. patut laa belikan. nak carik alasan beli jam baru rupanya" ;p

... i still love you though sayang. thank you :) 

Kau pergi...

Another friend is leaving today.

But this time, she is quite special than the others.

She is famous yet very humble. 

I didn’t watch the show but she was finalist. So she must be good then.

She is witty yet very religious in nature. 

Azan je, terus ke surau. Nampak orang khusyuk main pc, mesti dia tanye dah solat ke belum. Siap jerit2 bising lagi. Tapi takde yang marah. Aku selalu kena (heh) tapi tak pernah aku nak rasa terasa ke hapa. Probably sebab ape yang dia tegur tu ade betulnye...

 

And what makes it even harder to let her go, she is like a sister to me.

I’ve been working for almost 5 years now but I have never really felt like I have a close friend at the office. Until she came into the picture.

And now that she is leaving, I can sense that it is going to be a lil bit different at the office...

But that is life. 

Tadi, was our last zuhur together. Due to tiredness from last night’s event, she accidently forgot how to recite surah kursi. Pastu waktu doa, buleh sungguh2 nangeh. Macam buat dosa beso.

Ko bayangkan... punyalah sedih hati, rasa bersalah dengan tuhan nangeh macam boypren mati... pasal lupa ayat kursi tadi.

Kau hade ke wynn?? Nangeh tengok telemovie ade la ;p

Lepas kau pergi, takde dah orang nak bising2 ajak aku solat awal.

Lepas kau pergi, takde dah orang nak sukarela jadik imam solat.

Lepas kau pergi, takde dah aku geng nak mengumpat (eh?!)

I am soo gonna miss u Tuan... Akak doakan segala yang terbaik untuk ko dunia & akhirat. Semoga sukses grad sarjana, semoga sehat2 sejahtera, semoga bahagia bersama encik suami hingga ke syurga...

It's back!

Jom la jom la!!!!!!!

Sebarkan Cinta-Mu kepada kami sekeluarga ya Allah!

Ok. I cheated. I read my December's pick first. Cannot tahan laa. Even though the F. Scott Fredrick's was obviously thinner, this novel Tauhid is really tempting!

I started reading it at home, after the children are all asleep. Page by page when by, I lost track of time. It was already 3am!

The next day, balek koje sambung balik. and after maghrib sambung balik. budak-budak pun macam tak heran dah tengok ibu dia sibuk bace buku. depa pon ikut join membaca, walaupun terbalik bukunya hahaha...

and macam tak percaya, I finished it right before Deepavali! *high five*

ok. aku tak mampu nak cite sinopsis novel ni. pasal cita dia gila panjang! and the notes that comes with it is also very the hard to explain by me - I am no ustazah, mind you.

but what I can share is that, this novel educate readers, especially women, of their rights in Islam.

tahukah anda??
Rasulullah s.a.w tidak pernah ada masalah keluarga sepanjang bermonogami selama 25 tahun? Tetapi ditimba pelbagai cabaran sewaktu bermonogami selama 10 tahun??

tahukah anda??
Rasulullah s.a.w tidak menghalang menantu2 lelaki beliau untuk berkahwin lagi tetapi meminta supaya anak-anak perempuannya diceraikan, kerana tidak rela anak-anaknya merasa beban emosi bermadu??

tahukah anda??
Isteri layak untuk minta diceraikan sekiranya tidak rela dimadu, dan mahkamah akan meluluskannya dengan sebab musabab yang sah??

Betul, poligami itu sunnah. Tapi ianya bukan galakkan yang dituntut.

Kalau kamu mahu berkahwin lagi, dengan alasan mahu mengelakkan zina, maka ini menunjukkan yang kamu sendiri yang mendekatkan diri ke jalan zina tersebut. dan isteri ada hak untuk menolak diri dr dimadu dan ade hak untuk minta diceraikan.

aku tahu, cakap memang senang. tapi, percayalah. aku tahu perasaannya, pedih perit kesan dari melihat kasih sayang orang yang kita sangat sayang dikeciwakan.

aku sokong penulis.
kalau kamu kata poligami itu sunnah. kamu juga harus mengaku yang penceraian itu sunnah, perhambaan itu sunnah. kerana nabi pernah menceraikan & memberi cerai kepada isteri-isteri beliau. kerana nabi juga pernah mempunyai hamba.

ye. mungkin aku bias. sebab aku perempuan. sebab aku isteri. sebab aku juga telah merasa menjadi mangsa keadaan.

tapi, percayalah. lepas baca novel ni, aku betul-betul rasa lebih tenang. aku nampak tujuan hidup sebagai Muslimah dengan lebih jelas. yang hukum Allah memang adil, tak lebih tak kurang. tak bias pada lelaki, mahupun perempuan.

semoga aku dan keluargaku dapat mencapai sakinah mawaddah wa rahmah dalam berkeluarga. ameeen.

terima kasih F-atimah S-yarha. Terima kasih Allah :)

my personal target for 2012... late!

Came across this while googling for a reading list. Was amazed with the commitment. Despite being a Literature grad, I let other things took over my time.

Must try (again) to overcome this laziness of reading.

Will start with whatever books I have at home.

Even though it is already end of October, will start my reading list from tomorrow, November 1st.

So here I present my personal reading list for 2012:

November - The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald (my 1st time- pathetic I know)

December - Sebarkan Cinta Mu by Fatima Syarha (bought during the previous book fest)

Better late than never! Wish me luck!

Some cosmetic salesperson can be quite the bully, you know?

Just because I asked about the product, does not mean that I want to buy it right on-the-spot!

Just because I asked the wrong questions, does not mean that I'm stupid and gives you the chance to hassle me with statements like 'kalau you tak gune ni, sampai bila-bila pon you takkan puteh'!

And just because I did not know about some cosmetic terms you are using, does not give you the right to point out all of my facial problems right to my face!

Pastu boleh pulak ko buat muke bengang bile I POLITELY excuse myself just because I refuse to buy the product from you!

Dei makcik. Kalau ko cakap elok-elok, treated me like a customer supposed to be treated, kompom aku beli tau? Pasal laki aku dah memang nak belanje, walaupun reganye rm150++ tau??

Your loss! *blweeek!*

Just the two of us :)

Went to S-OGO, accompanying the husband shopping.
True story though. I was already broke since he first week; paying bills and stuff.

Got bored so went for jalan-jalan. Arrived at the lingerie section. Got sale, RM100 bra got discounted to RM40. Must try.

However, they cannot find the one exactly suits me comfortably. One was too tight, the other was too spacy.

Apparently, despite being a mom of two, my size seems to be non-exist (-__-")

Oh well.

Continue jalan-jalan. Reached the perfume section. Bumped into one tall saleswoman. NOT! His breast was so big, I should I him what was his secret.

Gile ah!

berita minggu lepas

Last week, the cast & production crew of 6 P-rogresif came to our college to shoot their season 2 episode. 

Memang pakat jakun laa kami bila tau dok ada pelakon datang buat shooting kat kolej tengah hutan neh. Jangan kata student, cikgu cikgi depa pon kalut laa aih... aku juga tidak terkecuali.

Petang tu nampak encik Z-ahiril A-dzim dok men hp kat laman panaromik kami. aku pon waktu tu gak laa dok sibuk nak kol laki aku, sambil buat ala ala mencarik signal supaya lebih jelas bercakap; sedangkan sedang mencari coverage yang lebih jelas nk tengok the actor in real life.

mak ni pemalu noks, berani melompat lebih tinggi dibalik tingkap tinted pejabat itew jew. student aku siap bergambo sakan lagi huhuu... (-_-")

anyway, my students caught me wandering around like its my first time at the college.

"Teacher carik sapa-sapa ke?"

"Saye tengah ushar pelakon ni... awk tak perasan ke sapa tu??"

 "Sape? Tak kenal pon. Suami teacher laki hensem kot."

1- baguih sungguh laa aih hangpa xkenai pelakon suma ni. hati dok suci lagi.

2- ehh... laki aku hang kenai pulak ye?? adehhh...

or at least that is what i told myself (-___-")

... and another one left to pursue better life in the future.

'we have to have the dream to be rich. to be better. to excel...'

'see? if you are strong enough to embrace new things in life, you will see that there are a lot more opportunities outside the cocoon'

'... tapi lain la you, you dah kawen.'

stop.right.there.

what are you trying to say here? that my life is over once i'm married? that there will be no more opportunities for married people like me?? that i'll be miserable here, not having the chance to be what...you???

 sape tak mau berjaya dalam hidup? sape tak mau kaye? sape tak mau ade kuase?

tengok kawan2 suma pakat sambung master, sape kate aku tak jeles? sape kate aku tak kesah?

of course i wanted to further my studies. 

but i wanted to do it for all the right reasons... bukan sebab aku jeles kawan2 sambung study, bukan sebab orang suruh, bukan sebab tergugat mak mertua aku dah ade PhD (kau hado??)

i love following the husband to utmspace. tengok all those adults wearing school bags, clutching to their files and textbooks reminds me so much of my study years. and among all those students, the husband is of them. so proud of him!

... sabarlah wahai hati. kang bila betui2 dapat sambung blaja kang, ko bising mengadu stress pulak hahahahahaha

as of now, lets make do with my double degree at home, my pretty Sarah & my lovely Hannan :)

know you know...

kengkadang aku pelik. 

aku dah kawen. anak dah dua. tapi bile balek kampung, aku maseh kena ikut mak ayah aku pi ghaya rumah sedara mara semua.

no offence. i'm not saying that i hate visiting relatives... tapi sampai ke tahap nak raye rumah kawan pon tak boleh, buleh bikin hangin juge dibuatnye.

adik aku yang belom kawen boleh pulak tinggal rumah. alasan: 'ade orang nak beraya rumah, takdak masa lain dah nak datang katanya'. say what??

until we went to opah chik's house. and she said to me...

"Kamu ni yong... cepat benor kawennye... tak pueh (puas) nak meghap"

... mungkin sebab tu mak ayah aku dok sibuk 'ikat' aku lagi, sebab depa tak pueh meghap dengan aku lagi...

**meghap - manja