This love of mine

 

Never my racun.

Always my kryptonite.

But please, don't be far away from my sight.

Happy 32. 

I will always love you.

To do or not to do it...

 

I'm not trying to do everything by the book. 

I'm just trying to be the best person I can be.

I can't pleased everyone, however I can try be just and be fair to all.

I might come across to you as 'terlampau ikut peraturan' and all but what's wrong with that?

What's wrong with abiding to the rules? 

What's wrong in trying to get 'rezqi yang berkat' from what I'm paid to do?

 Is it my fault that you chose not to do the things that you are supposed to do? 

And how am I supposed to be at fault if you chose not to do it just because you think you know best?

Tak buat salah, buat pun salah...

so how? 

Maybe it's time to ... yes?

Che Nah's 2016 Family Day!

As much as I am missing my clan, I can't deny that I am blessed with a wonderful family from my husband's side :) 

Rindu rumah Atok sangat, mujur Allah bagi peluang merasa kembali kenangan manis tidur di rumah kampung di Desa Balqis, Linggi Melaka.

I am glad that my babies get along well with their makciks and pakciks LOL!

*true story*

Sarah was the family's first cucu, hence everyone else yang kecik-mecik tu naik pangkat makcik dan pakcik tanpa rela hahahahahahaha

Suka sungguh depa dapat main lari-lari, ghomah kayu luas la katakan...

Bergegau dibuatnya hehe...

Itu semua aku dah lalui dulu, sayang sungguh rasanya bila zaman depa ni dah takdak dah lagu tu...

 But then again, it's not where you are. It's who you are with :)

 Prepping for Carik Gula Dalam Tepung

Among the games that we played: 

Berita Tiga Kepala, Sambung Cerita, Kerusi Beracun, Makin Jauh Makin Sayang and of course... Terompah Gergasi. Kakak Sarah was killing it! Tak penah lagi aku nampak dia begitu all-in participating. She's a shy girl, you know? But hari tu, si Hannan yang nampak a bit down.

 

But, nampak Minnie Mouse terjun tu? 

Tu dia la tu... hantu ayor ibu :)

All in all, it was a quick yet satisfying gateway for everyone.

Semoga waghih Tok Dan pun dapat kumpul lagi, lama dah tak jumpa sesama-sendiri... or is it just me? Hmmm....

AidilAdha 2016

One for the album! :)

Good company. Good times.

 

When we were studying, we have all the time in the world.

To just be ourselves, to only think of ourselves.

To enjoy time with friends.

To enjoy life without stress.

But, then we graduated.

Got a job. Got married.

And little babies coming along the way.

Time is no longer ours.

A bit of us got lost juggling time between everything.

There is no excuse, actually.

To deny everyone.

Who wanted to reconnect.

To push away people.

Who wanted to continue the flow.

Damaged happened.

But, its OK.

You learned and grow from it.

Because we are friends forever.

In this life. Insyaallah until the hereafter.

You are one of those friends that I cherished.

Hoping that we'll be able to just continue where we left.

Despite not being there for each other like we used to.

Thank you.

I'll see you soon.

:)

RAKA

September 3, 2016 

 

 

Inspired!

Joined the conference, expecting to learn new knowledge.
But Allah gave me more. Allah led me to you :)

The last time we met, was almost 8 years ago, when both of us went to Merbuk for a teaching interview. You got in, but I don't. 

Despite being the one who told you about the interview and drove you there. 

Bapak aku frust gila hahaha

It's just not meant for me cause my rezqi is in PD insyaallah :)

Remembering my study years back in IIU, this little fighter is my roommate, my study buddy, my jalan-makan-wayang friend. She sticks to me like a lollypop to its cover, slightly annoying (hihi) but I'm vulnerable without her.

But, when I met her yesterday and 

listening to her presenting her paper, I am proud! 

Watching her in front, looking so confident,

 she was no longer the Phyd that I knew.

She's Phyd 2.0. 

Physically better, ntah kenapa nampak taller and obviously glowing with confidence!

I am again very jealous of her.

But hey, good type of jealous though :)

 

Both IIU BENL alumni.

You have made your alma mater proud!

We love Melaka!

Walaupun Melaka is our 2nd home, taip bulan balik Melaka pun mesti nak fefeeling pelancong weh!

The girls love their museums, and I love to jalan-jalan so off we go venturing to other sides of Melaka that the girls have not been exposed yet!

I've been on this Taming Sari for the third time. Every trip is better than the one before, since the kids are now more appreciating of the views from the top. 

Please excuse my Hannan's cartoon expression.

I believed she got it from her momma (--")

We got out from home a bit late, so most museums are already closed by 5. So, after the Taming Sari ride, we just simply walked around and having our ice-cream at the center of Banda Hilir.  And now, please excuse the husband and his signature pose. Geng Gagak Hitam - katanya :P

Teruja nak beli air tembikai ni bila nampak several tourist dok sakan beli.

Tak sedap and banyak biji, we ended up spitting out the beans more than drinking - macam dah bulih tanam tembikai dah sepanjang jalan >_<

And that's all for the day. 

Next time, Jonker Walk! *yeah*

My 1st allergy respiratory attack

 

Baru kau tahu langit tinggi rendah.

Baru kau tahu hargai setiap hirup udara indah.

Mujur Allah masih sayang.

Dan banyak dosa, masih bagi peluang...

His first time to CH :)

If I was asked to summarise the trip into one word, I would say: 

Beautiful!

We were blessed with a very bright day when we started our trip up the hill. 

It got even more exciting when we reached the top, pulling down the window and breathing in the awesome cool breeze Mashaallah!

Our first activity of the day was having tea at the lovely Bharat Tea Plantation.

 

 

My pretty babies enjoying their teas *awwww*

We were so happy, rasa nak buat video clip Hindustan saja main lari-lari hehe

 Masing-masing so jakun, so makngah made her attempt to photobomb but it was a very funny candid moment thanks makngah! :P

I'm sure that the one at Boh's is better (and pricey-er, maybe) but we had fun nonetheless!

Next stop, the Cameron Lavender! 

 

So cantik! It brought out the feminine in me LOL!

And of course, one for the album :)

Checking in Rossa Passadena
The last time I was here was back in 1994. I was just 10 years old! 

Bought dinner from the pasar malam nearby. I would recommend this hotel due to its convenient location but you really have to be patient with its parking-- always full!

  

  Woke up early for this!
And because husband ran in the Copthorne's 2016 Fun Run!

 

 *so jealous*
The run started at 7:30am. The first one arrived finished the run in exactly one hour!
Memang sungguh-sungguh lari takdak beghenti beli strawberry tu wehh *hihi*
Husband arrived after 2 hours, and I could not have been prouder!
*kisskiss*

We singgah the famous Kea Market on our way back, but no pics though. Bcos tangan all so busy carrying sayo, pokok, strawberrys and flowers oh syioknye dok ataih!

Makngah, cum tour guide, demanded that we drop by Avant Choc Restaurant & Factory.

Ya Allah best-cantik-betul tempatnya!

 

Strawberry Heaven!

Straight from the menu! And they tasted good too!

Can you guess which one is mine? ;)

We were so happy, husband even willing to pose in public like this for me!

Well, happy husband means we will be coming back to CH soon yeayyy!!!

... rindulah!

Annual Gathering - Poeh is back 2016!

Kali ni punya gathering was a bit of a rush.

They opted to do the gath in KL, at the very posh but not-children-friendly Regalia Residence.

No regret though, cos look at the view of the KL skyline!

Dapat jugak merasa *wink*

I kinda regretting not staying over, but turns out Poeh pon balik terus the next day. Her babies were  not well, kesian tengok...

But we had our fun!

  

One with the kids. Minus the orang putehs. 

Dan aku, haruslah menjadi yang pelik kan?

Rindu sudah... oh!

Syawal is here!

There are many reasons to celebrate Syawal.
Apart from its some what an obligation to celebrate our victory after 30 days of fasting during Ramadhan, Syawal is also the month of making amends with family and friends and tightening relationships.

 

#teambalikkampungPerak

 Abah & Ummi is back from their 1-month's umrah!

 

 Tok Dan's legacy minus our family since we got stuck at Chikuslovia.

*A bit disappointed for not having any selfie moments with the cousins on my father's side.*

 Introducing Baby Hani & the funny Fayyad!

 The girls with their 2 kepupu - as said by Hannan *lol*

 Reunited with a friend from 22 years back!

... and reconnecting with my high schoolers!

Seronok anak-anak main ramai-ramai! :)

Not to forget, the fireworks show courtesy of our neighbour :)

I lost 2 kg during Ramadhan, and gain back 1 kg right after 2nd raya. Nak buat macamana, tak makan kang ghugi kihkihkih...

All and all, the long holiday has ended. We reluctantly went back to reality, however did not manage to cope with the so called 'jetlagged' that we were having since arrival.

Ate, dikampung mangkit lambat tidoq pon lewat. Laa ni, nak mangkit awai pun berlawan mata nak tidoq malam pon dah jadik satu kheja. Fuh... malasnya nak pi kheja!

 

One for the album. 

Ciao!

Penasaran.

Genap satu tahun,

saat mula terpercik rasa

Walaupun sudah lama, 

getar hati masih ada.

Kita rancang,

mungkin tidak menjadi.

Harap ku cuma biarpun rancang,

ianya benar-benar jadi.

Bukan sekadar manis dibibir.

Bukan sekadar manis dipandang.

Tetapi manis sehingga mendatang...

Incomplete without You!

I was never a big fan of BSB.
I am more into NYSC & 5ive *fangirl mode*

However, youtube suddenly auto-played this while I was listening to the 90's playlist.
... and I'm in love!

thinking of you, love :*

"Incomplete"

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone

Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I'd try to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I'd try to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

Iftar Ramadhan 1437 H

Berasak-asak. Orang ramai

Berhimpit-himpit. Meja penuh

Berlari-lari. Kejar anak.

Bersepah-sepah. Makan tak sudah

... tapi alhamdulillah. 

Cukup berkumpul semuanya *senyum*

Inilah team kerja saya.

Team asek makan-minum-gelak sesaje.

Tapi time kerja, kena marah juga *haha*

Terima kasih ya Allah atas nikmat berbuka & berpuasa.

Semoga masih ada rezeki untuk bersama-sama menambah pahala ditahun yang mendatang.

Semoga tahun 2017 masih diberi peluang untuk bersama.

Insyaallah

Demi sesuap rezeki...

CERITA SATU:

Jalan-jalan hujung minggu.
Jumpa Ezad Exist tengah buat show atas pentas.

"Eleh, dia miming lettew. Takkan laa bulan2 posa ni nak nyanyi live lama-lama, mesti dahaga punya..." kemain menggosip laki aku.

Elok solat maghrib, baru sibuk cari tempat makan berbuka.
Terserempak dengan kawan lama-tak-jumpa.

"Lepas ni nak balik Tganu dah. Jumpa minggu depan pulak..." terang isteri kawan ke aku.

"Jadi ke nak mintak tukar Pahang? Dekat sikit dengan Tganu kan?" tanya aku si penyibuk.

"Dah kansel dah permohonan. Stay sini jelah. Tunggu jelaa si dia balik tiap minggu..." balas isteri kawan lagi.

Aku terdiam. Tergamam actually.

Laki aku balik keje lambat pon aku dah tak tenang.
Ini pulak kalau jumpa hujung minggu saje.

Kuat betul iman ilmu tawakal korang weh!


CERITA DUA:

Balik dari jalan-jalan dah malam.
Sudah anak-anak dan abah depa tido, aku tak boleh tido.
Bukak tivi.
Takdak cerita best.

Terbukak Meletop Kebabom! Live.
Tertengok.
Ternampak Ezat Exist lagi.
Dengan baju yang sama.

Tu diaaa....
petang tadi kat selatan, lewat malam kat KL tak balik ghomah laei.

Semuanya demi sesuap rezeki.

Suami isteri jauh.
Demi sesuap rezeki.

Suami bekerja sehingga lewat malam.
Demi sesuap rezeki.

Semoga Allah berkati semua usaha kita.
Semoga Allah limpahi berkat dalam kehidupan seharian kita.
Insyaallah :)

Busy weekend before Ramadhan...

My husband is so sweet!

After my ntahpape tantrum of not having the chance to join in the crowd at Mood Republik last week, he actually proposed for us to spend our Saturday at BBB wohooo!

Memang la dia takat bawak saja and takdak guna duit dia pon pi shopping sana but still... the idea of having him during the weekends is so rewarding! Alhamdulilah :)

The thing is, aku pun tak tahu sejak bila ntah aku jadik shopaholic ni. Syukur trip kali ni worth it! Sebab ini yang kali ke-dua, and dah tahu nak aim masuk kedai yang mana huhu...

And on Sunday, jalan-jalan dalam kawasan saja amboi-banyak-duit-kau-nak-pergi-ikea-pulak haaa.

Guess what? Akhirnya berjaya mendaftar sebagai penderma darah untuk pertama kalinya!!

So very proud of myself!

Walaupun pening2 macam dah mengantuk sangat pon ade huhu

And since hari masih muda, pergi laa spend the evening at S2 Park. Dapat laa budak2 tu main bubbles, bagi ikan makan...

...dan dah alang-alang nak masuk Maghrib, gi laa solat kat masjid puteh S2 yang sangat cantik itu!

... dan dah alang-alang esok dah 1 Ramadhan, kita teraweh terus jelaa haaa...

I love this masjid so much!

The ambience, lighting, facilities... memang terbaik! 

Seronok dapat solat kat masjid yag cantik dan sejuk tapi tak ramai orang... budak-budak pon selesa nak lari main tanpa aku perlu risau...

 See? The kids love it too! Seronok jumpa kawan baru!

But I said it too soon.

Slightly before Isya', crowds started to fill in. And the kids were forced to play outside the praying area. Which of course, is not fine by me!

Macamana mak nak solat tanpa hati rasa gelisah bila budak jauh ke belakang nun haaa...

So, I ended up babysitting the children that night.

 Biasalah ni. Kakak Sarah the Nerd, Hannan the Class Clown *hehe*

I salute the parents yang memang hati besi berani biarkan saja anak depa main sendiri without supervision. Kalau aku, memang tak laa.

...lagi-lagi bila dah baca kes budak ke culik kat masjid kat Tumpat tu. And this not the first time I read such stories... (>_<")

Semoga selamatlah semuanya!

Semoga semua ibadah kita di bulan Ramadhan ini diterima Allah. *ameeen*

My 1st colloquium :)

Just got back from my 1st colloquium!!! *insert fireworks*

Hye Dr. Bob! *waving frantically*

What an awesome day! Got ushered to the venue, fefeeling very the VIP uols!

Not only its F.R.E.E, they even gave out stationary for note-taking, nice tea breaks and delicious lunch too!

And while queuing for the buffet, cannot help but overhearing chatters from behind...

"Yang ramai-ramai ni siapa? Bukan students, bukan presenters, kan?"

"Nolah. They olls semua lecturers from other uni. Free laa katekan..." 

They even giggled, okey?

And they continued a bit more...

"I kalau ikutkan malas nak join tau? Dah la workshop pon kena join..."

Pehhhhh eksyen nye kau!

Kami sedar, kami terhegeh-hegeh join sebab its free. Tapi kami juga sedar, yang kami tak boleh memilih. Dapat pi yang ni pon dah habeh bangga dapat pasal buat kat luar kampus pehhhhh

Everything we heard today was so alien, we don't even dare to ask a single question! Words like mooc, gamification, pikunui are very basic vocabs to them!

 The very IT savvy Prof. Supyan Hussin

 The very cool Prof. Rozhan

The Managing Director of Pikunui Malaysia, Mr. Vincent Stocker

Aku betul-betul cemburu!

But at the same time, I am also glad that we had been given the chance to experience and learn new things today. 

Tazabar nak try it out once back in office!

Alamak. Esok all day Sports Day pulak.

Alhamdulillah. Semoga tidak kufur nikmat :)

Till then.

Love, me. 

*ending nak comel mcm Love, Vivy tapi tak jadi*