emotionally un-fit! any pills?

hati semakin pulih. kurang sedih. untung ade suami yg gheti nak mem-backing diri ini ketika perlu. untuk ade ibu yang tau diri ini dah cukup keciwa dan tak perlu lagi di-leter akan perkara yg sudah berlaku. untung ade kawan2 yang memahami & membantu diri buat keputusan.

.... alhamdulillah ....

TERIMA KASEH TUHAN!

aku tak pergi MARA. ade yang marah. katanya rugi. katanya BODO tak pegi. ade gak yang kate, aku berlagak sombong.

pedulik ape aku ngan kata kamu.

i have my own reasons. and i'm glad i make that decision.

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my dad asked,

" angah, apsal ayong senyap je?"

angah jawab,

"dia tengah berkabung lagi tu..."

ayah blur.

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+ tak sabar nak tunggu cuti sekolah \o/

To Read or Not to Read!

i invigilated an exam last sunday. from 9 am to 12 pm. damn boring!
but managed to finish reading Little Black Dress's " The Men's Guide to Women's Bathroom ".

i invigilated an exam yesterday. from 9 am to 12 pm. damn boring!
but i did not managed to finish reading Anne Frank; The Diary of a Jewish Girl.

both books are equally thick. but i am obviously specialized in reading fiction than non-fiction books; which is bad for a literature graduate like me ^_^"

NEXT: Salman Rushdie's "Midnight Children" *ameen*

what a week

phew!
supposed to be a very easy week but turns out to be tense...

minggu ni dah start revision week so no more classes. no more teacher itu, teacher ini *yeay* but then i still have to finish marking their assignments & key-them-in (the carrymarks) into excel file.

my head of unit told me before not the be strict with the students since they are also our 'clients' so aku pon sesedap rase laa nak jadi santa clause by giving them quite-easy mark. bile everything is done, my 'head' told me to re-do ALL the marks for he thinks that the students did not deserve what they get. i'm like.. what the heaven??

yes. i know... i shouldnt be that generous but i just thought that they do deserve their 10-out-of-10 for its a very good groupwork. still, he's the 'head' and the head is always right!

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i am blessed with A LOT of interviews & callbacks...
c!mb - worked for 3 weeks.
un!+! - got the job. and currently rollin'...
kpl! - suitable for the post but unfortunately they wanted those who graduated in 2007
u!a - underwent all 3 stages but then, no rejeki... yet.
uum - went for the sake of ayah & his 'cabels'

and yesterday, aku baru je poei interview SPP kat pol! pd and tak sempat nak perform aku dah direjek. y? bcos of my own mistake, my own stupidity. i failed to produce my original spm cert.

bodo kan?

cert tuh dah lama ilang. but since all other interviews tak timbulkan issue itu, aku pon keep delaying myself from getting the new one.

padan muke.

ayah frust gile. listening to his voice, aku betul2 rase macam a LOSER to him. gile down. knowing that he's angry at me for making the STUPIDEST action in life.... aku nk kol umah pon rase tak mampu. bile teringat je, nanges. odw balek umah drive keta, nanges. smp umah tgk sutera maya, nangeh. bukak 702 tgk the nanny, nanges.

ye. its my time of the month. but the fact that i failed him sudah mampu untuk membuat aku down sedown-down nyer...

my husband was out of town, training at shah alam. my frens are all over the country, far from me. my sister is 7, still a kid.

but there is always mum.... who will not be angry at her children no matter what...

i miss ibu.....

sudah lama aku tidak mengulaw...

pi oh. aku mengantuk.
hari ini aku sungguh mengantok (--")

*******

went back to Perak last weekend to attend my cousin's wedding. we started the journey back late since my driver had to 'o.t' until late evening. better late than not going back kan? ;)

i lurrve weddings! the colours, the foods, the people... especially the people! makcho & pak lop, paklang & wa'am, pak ude & mak ude, pakndak & makndak, yachu & mak usu, opah... u named it! and i especially love to see my crazy cousins and cute nephews plus ADORABLE nieces...

arissa yang comel.... maisarah yang bulat.... azmeer yang sengal... eii. gerem!

lama tak sembang ngan ibu.... i mean, sembang yang best... tengok ibu senyum, ibu gelak... and ibu selalu gelak when muaz is around.... and sometime i am jeles when he manages to make her smile...

ayah plak... suke bebenor menayang anak jantan sulong dia tuh ke sana ke mari... bengang pulak aku when he asked muaz to escort him to all these rumah terbuka, instead of him (my husband) stay at home with me & us ladies... tapi yelaa, ayah dah lama mau-kan anak lelaki. so, for somebody who never wins, i am glad that he has muaz to back-him-up for anything (eventho they will still lose competing with us girls ^_~)

and aisyah, she is no longer shy-shy with muaz. udah berani mintak didukung, mau disuap makan.... dah boley terima hakikat that she now has a brother to lean on... which is sweet ;)

i called her last night. and she said

"ayong, jangan tido dekat-dekat dengan abang muaz tau? nanti badan gatal2..."

hahahahahhahahahahhahahha (gelak guling2)

*******

kematian.
one of the students died in a car accident. she was taken away on-the-spot, leaving the others comma, leg-broken, stiches everywhere... kata kak tyi, "jalan itu dahagakan darah". kecut gak. pasal i am using the road to go to work. pergi & balek.

Ema was the driver. died. got no driving license. the car was her boyfriend's. the car was without roadtax. that night, he was being bashed by the brother who blamed him for the accident. he tried to defend himself by saying that he never meant for things to happen for his dear Ema promised him that she will only be driving to a kedai makan nearby. they ended up having dinner at town. ended up meeting with a drunken driver.

visited them the next day. Emy forgot what happened, so she was not traumatized from the accident. Liza got both her arms dislocated. tears running down her cheeks. she can still hear them crying for help. Wana just woke up from her comma. her spectacle broke, injuring her eyes. she broke her leg. and her face was still bengkak from the crash. sian family dia. came all the way from Kuantan, ber-ulang Kajang-Seremban pasal they got no sedara nearby.

even so, all of them wanted to go back to college and do their finals. afraid of not finishing the semester as planned. afraid of not having loans to pay for the extra semester.

aku hanya mampu berdoa untuk kalian. dan berasa kasihan untuk kamu & keluarga kamu. terukkan kan aku?

buat sahabat ku syima & firah....
aku hanya mampu ucapkan takziah. terkejut dapat tahu tentang berita hitam itu. maaf, tak berada disitu. maaf, tak tahu nak ucapkan apa-apa untuk senangkan hati kamu. maaf, kerana hanya mampu berdoa agar kamu dikuatkan semangat untuk meneruskan kehidupan.

semua orang akan mati. tak kira berapa teror ko work-out kat gym pon, kalo dah tertules kate ko akan mati jatuh longkang, mati gak.

aku takut mati. aku tau ibu & ayah pon akan mati. aku takut bile tiba saat itu. takut tak dapat sembang ngan dorang laei, takut tak dapat balek and seeing them cosy-ing around in front of the tv, takot tak dapat pelok gomol2 ngan aisyah, takot tak dapat tengok mata redup suami....

ALLAH MAHA KUASA. aku doa kite suma mati dalam iman.

*ameeen*

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aku rase aku lonely, ade orang yang lagi sepi dari aku...
aku rase aku malang, ade orang yang lagi malang dari aku...
aku rase aku kecewa ngan dunia, ade orang yang lagi bengang dari aku...

kite selalu tak bersyukur kan?

you & me...

aku moody tetibe. just because of the brief chat.

tak. kitorang tak gadoh. no, nobody was hurt. tapi aku je yang rase macam down... pasal dah lame tak jumpe, dah lame tak berbicara...

yes... i know... she didnt intend to be so...
aku je yang poyo...

aku rase macam di-jauhkan. macam aku ade did something that cause her to discard me away....
aku rase sedey....

but, i am happy. for her. her BIG DAY is coming. her 'happy ending' is on the way...
alhamdulillah... congratulation dear ^_^

aku & IS

Aku merupakan seorang anak yang baik. Oleh kerana itu, aku diberikan sebuah kereta untuk dipandu semasa belajar di uni lagi. Supaya mudah untuk aku mudah ke sana ke mari. Dan mudah untuk aku pulang ke kampung. Setelah bekerja, aku tidak lupa diri. Aku meringankan beban ayah ibu dengan menyambung-bayar kereta itu. Aku memang anak yang baik. Aku meringankan beban ibu ayah ayah, supaya mereka dapat beli kereta baru yang full-spec, ade GPS, leather seats, blablablablablablabla....

ye, aku ENVYkan mereka ^_^"

Sungguhpun demikian, aku tidak lupa diri. Aku ingat jasa kereta kepunyaan ku itu. Aku sayang kereta ku. Aku juga telah memberikan nama untuk kereta ku.

Nama penuh: Iswara.

Nama dalam IC: ally iskandar ;)

Nama manja: is.

Ya. Is namanya. Aku sayang Is. Sebelom kawen lagi, Is lah buah ati ku, pengarang jantung. Aku sering bersembang dengan Is jika odw balek ke Perak. Is memang pendengar yang setia. Dan walopun sekarang aku suda berkawen, Is maseh lagi mendapat tempat yang istimewa dihatiku...

tapi, tak ku sangke... orang len turut menyimpan hati terhadap Is ku ini. Tanpa segan silu, secara terang-terangan beliau memuja Is ku... BUKTINYA?

lagi?

+ dan aku ingat aku sorg je yang 'weng' ^_^"

demm.

jambu.... but still hawt!

+ for those without husband of course (-_-")

post-wed entry

"amacam kehidupan selepas kawen?" orang tanye.

aku jawab, "ok je. macam besa."

kenape? tak percaye?

yalah. i still go to work. i still do my own laundry, still lipat them when kering, still iron my own clothes... who tells you that being married means you got to be the boss??

well... at times, you do feel like you ARE the boss ^_~ *hehehehehehehhe*

he's ok. and i am adjusting to the fact that i am married and had to share a home, the bed, the bathroom, and even the tv remote with him! ^_^"

nevertheless, i still feel that i'm blessed ;)
ya lah. can watch tv & dvds pelok2, got to kiss him whenever i want, hold his hand wherever i want.. [iklan JOM KAWEN CEPAT2] ^_^"

...... he even wash the plates & tidy the bedroom \o/

gado? musti laa ade. tipu laa kalo takde. tp, kna pandai2 laa kan? still learning his majuk signs, wanting to be pujuk signals and etc etc...

but to be married sure is better than just being in a relationship ^_~

+ ya allah... terima kasih atas rahmat ini. panjangkan lah rezeki & nikmat yang diperolehi, semuga kami tidak lupa akan MU dan berjaya di dunia & akhirat (wishes from a dear fren)

THANK YOU

kenduri ituhari (19.07.08) was quite a blast! estimated more than 3000++ people came. gile kan?
due to the fact that i am anak sulong does make a point and my father got ALOT of contacts even those from siam pon did came to celebrate my day. tu tak masuk kawan2 sekolah, kawan2 uni, cikgu-cikgi, suma suma lah! haa... villagers laei. nak jadik citer plak my wedding was not on the cuti sekolah. so, semua jemputan (juge yg tidak dijemput ^_~) tidak ade alasan untuk tidak datang ke wedding sy ;) terima kaseh semua!!!

thanks to makcho kerana men-sponsor my pelamin! and thanks too for providing me with the mak andam who did a really great job transforming the-comot ME into QUEEN of the day! she managed to make-up me well without having to make me... not me! best pulak mekap ^_^"

to makwe, wanchu, kak yanti, kak yani, wa'am, mak usu, mak andak, and ALL others yang contributed alot backstage.... without your help, the wedding will not happened smoothly as it was.

to kawan2 memasak ayah (we dont do catering, kwn2 ayah turun masak kawah), ALL my frens and other guests LOVES the food! some even makan for the second round, just because they cant get enough of it!

to all bawang, kelapa, gula, and other groceries' sponsors (yes, they sponsored my wedding) thank you! you helped my father with his spending ;)

who else?

hemm..... oh. pakcik khemah, datin umi, pakcik mat DBI, abg ali, pakcik tamin, anak2 yatim Gopeng, ustad-depan-umah, ustaz rahim, (sape laei ek?).....

S.E.M.U.A

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR MY PARENTS.

FOR MY FAMILY. THANK YOU.

+ and kezens, having you around was a blast! teringat zaman budak2 dlu, suma berkumpul ramai2 waktu raye men2, gelak sume. its sure fun ^_~

thank you all for coming ^_^

rase macam selebriti pon ade ^_~

^_^ Mr & Mrs Mu'az ^_^

its official *alhamdulillah*

tick tock tick tock tick tock

~ coming soon ~

+ for more info, pls click here

compliment? a curse?

another student asked,

miss, you really are into english ek?

another stunned.

heh? y do u asked?
and she said,
its just that you are very fluent with your english. do you have classes with foreigners?
and i answered,
as a matter of fact, i did. i'm an i!um's graduate maa..
but i should just answered,
that's just me being poyo dear ^_^"

students and their questions

a student asked,

"why do u want to get married? are u not afraid to pikul all the tanggungjawab?"

stunned. tak sangke ade student akan tanye smp gitu. and aku pon bagi jawapan artis,

"u'll know when u have met the one"

aku takde skema jawapan untuk soalan itu sebenarnya. i wanted to get married just because i want to. just because he asked my parents for my hand in marriage. just because he loves me. and just because i do love him too.

gile ah wat kenyataan maut gini kat tenet (--")

WEDDING TAG!

1.How old are you?
soon-to-be 24 ^_~

2.Are you single?
= Engaged

3.In what age do you think you’ll get married?
23; since my wedding is on this coming week *duDapDupdap*

4.Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
yap, he is THE ONE. and the cards have been delivered pon ;)


5. If not, who do you want to marry?
if not? as cliche as it may sound, i cannot bear the thought (--")

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding,or the traditional house wedding?
boleh ke beach wedding? \o/ *yeay*

7.Your ideal motif?
= White & creme theme; table & chairs, curtains & skirtings, the tents, even the guests has to wear white & creme dresses

= flowers? a mix of pastel orange & creme roses/ daisies

8. Where is your honeymoon could be?

could be.... PD? at Avillion ^_~

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?

1000++ (the more the merrier ^_^)

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?

simple is more *wink wink*

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?

a little bit of both; so that the vows doesnt sound that fake & so me (which is known for being crazee ^_^")

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?

do not care much; as long as the cake is pretty! like the one in choffles.com

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
simple... i'm a simple person..

14. When do you want to get married,evening or morning?
i imagine it to be during sunset, but of course... waktu maghrib tak elok dok luar umah ^_^"

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?

outdoor!

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your bride/groom?

define grand? would love an entrance; a simple & sweet one ;)

18. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding.
1. Micheal Buble - My Everything

2. Micheal Buble - Save the Last Dance for Me

3. Jason Mraz & Colbie Callait- Lucky

...... and of course, the Pengantin Baru song ^_^

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
a little bit of both ^_^

20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?

same gak; a little bit of both...

21. Describe your ideal husband/wife.

sweet, funny, generous, kind, loves me ALOT, sincere, humble, simple, a Good Muslim :)

22. Do you prefer fine dining or just a buffet?

Fine dining of course! Its not that you have fine dining everyday ^_~

23. Champagne or red wine?

limau ais? dapat minom panas2 sedap tuhhhh *pehhh*

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?

depends on the financial situation at the moment ;)

25. Money or household items?

money for my parents; household's for me ; )

26. Who will pay for the bills?

the Lucky man who gets to marry me of course ^_~ *hehehehhe*

27. Are you ready for married life?

honestly? not really... but, i'm sure i'll do well.. i got him to be at my side ^_~

28. Will u always be true to your wife/husband?

insyaallah!

29. How many kids do u like to have?

dont really think about it... Allah Maha Pemurah ^_^

30. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
starting anew in a rented house at the moment... takpe laa, one step at a time kan? ;)

31. Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding??

surely silver & diamond; not much of a gold-wedding fan ^_^"

32. What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?

ikan bakar, ayer assam, belacan, kerabu sayur, nasi puteh.... *pehhh* and others

oh. and ABC + cendol for dessert! yumyum!

+ i tagged laling, phyd, nore, syima, ateh, amani and YOU!

dupDapdupDap ^_^"

teasers for the upcoming event
*mcm le hers was the event of the year ^_^"*

Percubaan pertama ^_~

how i wish this was the ring *drool*
........ the name of the ring is enchanted ^_^

..... and this is for the flower girls (mesti laa aku yg testing dulu :P)

+ i even got myself a 'miss universe' tiara so, be sure to come to the wedding and gelak at me!

...soon.

soon,
i'm getting myself a 'housemate' ^_~

i hope my new housemate is a responsible person..
yalaa, you know....
the one who will wash the dishes after meals, angkat kain yang dah kering, kemas katil lepas tido, scrubs the toilet, sweeps the floor, do laundry and wash the car..... basically EVERYTHING laa senang cakap ^_^" *hehehhehe*

yes. its a he. my soon-to-be housemate *wink*

+ i wonder if he cooks ^_~

......am lucky ;)

this is for you dear *wink*

Do you hear me, I'm talking to you

Across the water across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea

To an island where we'll meet

You'll hear the music fill the air

I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees

Move so pretty you're all I see

As the world keeps spinning round

You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

Jason Mraz feat Colbie Caillat

click here to listen to the song ^_~

low in.come

As mentioned by asni,

"...If you earn less than RM2,000 a month,

you are considered a low-income earner..." - The Sun, June 24, 2008.

.... and i'm one of them.

tired.ngantuk.

Today is Wednesday. Tapi badan maseh penat...
Last week pulun shopping, kuar pagi balek malam. Naseb bek bukan aku yang drive ;)

Minggu ni, the whole week takde kelas. Minggu ni dorg wat Minggu Jalinan Mesra (MJM), kira macam taaruf kite laa... and kali ni, aku bukan fasi dah. i'm their mentor. which means, i will only be supervising the facilitators from afar, without having to be involved with the program 100%!

.wow. perasaan itu sgt best.

tapi, minggu lepas aku dah masuk kelas dah. my 1st class. buat masa ni, dah 43 students. and bakal bertambah bilangan di masa depan. cant imagine the stress marking their papers.dem~
being with them, does not make me feel old *yeay* you know why? because aku pon same2 cute & cun macam dorg gak ^_~ *hehehehehehe*

tapi, dorang lagi advance dari teacher dorg....
yang lelaki; rambut spiky, kasut DC, etc
yang pompuan; tudung suma cunnnn je, pakai heels, siap ber-eye shadow lagi pi kelas.
teacher dorg? - kasut flats, mekap bedak Johnson, tudung freestyle ^_^"

oh. selamat hari guru untuk aku. & cikgu2 aku. tq ;)

Guess what?

I have no students to teach. *yeah* for the time being, that is ^_^”

UN!+! have this system that allows new students to register all year round, without following the usual system where new intakes are done basically on December and June. Oleh itu, aku hanya akan memulakan peng-lecture-an ku selepas 2minggu, when all the students have gathered and grouped accordingly. This also means that I have MORE time to do notes & to study MORE on grammar before coming in class ^_~

Last night was quite ok. Aku dah bley tido dengan tenang, compared to the night before *alhamdulillah*

+ hari ade citer sinderella. Sobsob.

Today… should be THE day. But its not, which is ok. But the butterflies still won’t go away…

Last night was my first night without my family. Without frens. Without any housemate. Alone in the house, it takes me quite some time to tutop mate and actually get a sleep. Walaupon dah kunci suma grill, tingkap, pintu bilek suma… still, to get the feeling of selesa-ness will have to take some time. Besa laa… tempat baru, environment baru… kiranya, aku ni macam berjihad gak tak? Yelaa.. dah laa pi jauh dari ibu ayah family suma, pastu ngajar plak tu… aduh… takut seh!

Oh. Aku belom mula mengajar lagi hari ni, pasal bebudak DPS tu tak dapat grouping lagi. I’m suppose take the EAP1103K GroupB, which should be around 30++ students..

Ape itu EAP? It stands for English for Academic Purposes.

Ape itu DPS? Singkatan untuk Diploma Pra-Sekolah. Which I don’t know what do the students learn from it. Yet.

~iklan~ Oh. Semalam tgk IRONMAN. Gile best!!! ~iklan~

I don’t consider myself as a town girl. Eventho I hails from Ipoh (and forever will be) and study in KL for 5 solid years, I still don’t see myself as a town girl. Pasal, kat Perak pon bukan aku dudok betui2 kat pekan Ipoh. And blajo kat KL pon bukan kat tengah2 KL pon, pasal Gombak tu boley dikategorikan sebagai pekan kecik gak laa…

Even so, ntah kenape aku rase macam aku susah nak adjust dengan PD ni. Yes, I loooove the beach. And I also like the house I live in now… But, there still something missing… perhaps it’s the pekan PD itself. It’s just a small town that offers you a limited shopping spree (e.g the Store, Billion) and entertainment, and the pekan will be dead exactly on 9pm. No shops will be open around that time; the road will be empty, and taman aku dok ni pon jadik gelap semacam~

It’s a new place, new environment. And since it’s my blog, you will just have to bear with me and read thru all my whining till the end ^_~ *hehehehe*

Ape laa yang kawan2 ATCEN aku tengah buat sekarang? Aku tabik spring kat dorang pasal mampu bertahan di cne! GAMBATTE guys!!!!

And…. Ape laa yang adik sayang aku wat sekarang? Rindu tak dia kat aku? Ingat tak dia kat aku???? (--“)

+ dan mungkin bila nanti, kita kan bertemu lagi….. lalalalala~

from PD with love... ~

Just to brag, i’m typing this entry using my pc, on my table, within my office that has an internet connection! Well, eventho the connection sucks, I still think its quite cool to have my own internet line at my convenient during work. Hehehe…

Well, it really is nothing actually… I am now a working lady, no more with C!MB but with the UN!+! C0LL3G3 in Port Dickson, which is soooo very far from my hometown.

I don’t know whether to acknowledge the opportunity as a curse or a bless… since the job has taken me closer to him but needing me to sacrifice being away from ayah, ibu, aisyah, angah, ajah, kak yanti, and all my dearest frens….

The environment here is very ‘cool’, and when I say cool I mean breezy… since the beach is just beside, right-next-to the college! Best… pasal macam saujana je mata memandang *ceeewaah*
Weh. This would be my 3^rd job, considering been working as a cashier at wanchu’s café and as a 3-weeks trainee with CIMB. And even I’ve accepted the offer, I still can believe that I still chose to teach after all the tantrums I’ve shown to not venturing into teaching.
Well, wish me luck. For my first class would be on 5^th May 2008, and they will be my first class in the history of WYNN the educator!

migration ppl!

aku nak updet.
tapi kesuntukan masa....

yang pasti,
aku skrg takde kat kl dah...
aku kini kini di PD,
menabur bakti, menyemai .... hemm... ntah ^_^"

nope. aku belom kawen. but will updet later.
tunguuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my 'current' doing ^_~

!nsep +ra!n!ng @ a+cen

them

us

+ training or playing around? take a wild guess ^_~

to be bought after gaji!

*i wish*

CHICKEN POX

Ape beza antara demam campak, pelentung & chicken pox ar?
Psl I’m being attack by one. BIG ones…
Ibu kate pelentung. Kak yanti kate campak.
Dokte kate, dua2 same je. Heh??
Sesi peng-cashier-an aku terpaksa ditangguhkan buat sementara waktu. Habes ah bekalan duit aku terputus, sehingga aku benar2 sehat.
Until then, I have to bear with being quarantine at home. Ok je part dok umah tu. But the fact that I have to pantang from eating EVERYTHING NICE & GOOD tulaaa yang jenuh tuh… aduh..

+ dah beso2 baru kena. Muke gile mcm alien kena sengat tebuan!

BACK TO THE REAL WORLD!

Memang betui ah kate orang.. kate kawan2… yang dunia kerjaya ni sememangnye tak best mcm waktu blja2 dulu…

Betui nye kerna;
Dulu waktu blaja boley curik2 tdo dalam klas, men sms bile bosan, buat2 pg toilet sedangkan pg kuar café beli air minom… *gile jahat kwn aku sorg tu ;p*
Bile dah kje;
Kena dok ats kusi ngadap kje je. Makan bile masanye, pg toilet takley lame2, nnt bos pasan ko curik tulang. Kena perform kje, baru bley nek gaji suma…

Satu best psl dah kje ni; kite pegang duit sendri. Bley beli ape saje, ikut kemampuan.
Tapi, setiap hari adelah rutin yang same. Kje, balik kje, makn tido solat mandi, kje balik…

Walopun aku hanye kje cashier kantin JE, tapi aku rase aku jua mengalami sindrom malles kje. Bukan le memilih… tapi, hari2 wat kje yang same. Pg kje, dok kat meja, kira makan minum suma, layan perangai gov servants suma, balik umah. Routine yang sama. Isnin sampai jumaat. Sabtu ahad dok umah. Masak. Tgk tv. Juge routine yang sama.

Tak mencabar betul.
Patut laa ramai yang suke kje ngan swasta.

Aku pelik betul. Pakcik2 & makcik2 yang kje kat tempat aku suma mcm takde kje tu. Especially yang pakcik2. baru lepas minum pagi, dah turun makan tenghari. Baru je pukul 8.3o tadi makan bihun, pukul 10 dah turun minum the tarik kawwww punyaaaa…

apekahh??

Tiadakah mereka kerja kat opis tu? Kalu malas kje, berenti kje. Bior aku je yang takeover gajibuto dorang tu… Minum non-stop. Makan banyak2. rega mau murah. Apekahhh??
Pakcik, zaman saye sekolah rendah dulu dapat laaa laksa 50sen… dah zaman 2008 ni mane maunye pakcik mintak sy diskaun sampai 50sen…

Isk isk isk…. Kalu nini ade ni, habeh dah kena sembur pakcik sorng nehh
*nini adelah sorang cashier garang kat café amee dulu ;p

Ni lagi satu msalah, tau makan tatau bayar. Tak takut ke dorng dok makan makanan tak berbayar tiap2 hari?? Tak takut ke kat tuhan?? Isk isk iskk….
Aku? Isk, aku bayo tau makanan aku. Cuma wanchu je yang kate tak payah ;p
Hehehehe
Fin.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AJAH!

Ekau sudah 16tahun. The only wish I give is for you to not be me… enough already with all the previous nonsense…. Be what you really wanna be… dont just talk-talk only k?
Everyone loves you… we do.. but of course, in our own weird ways… hehehe..
Niat sumanya kerana ALLAH and insyaALLAH terjamin ;)

stresssss!

fid & tya- tutor uitm merbok
amrah- tutor ukm
emma- happy with the 'current' job
sal & timmy- HongLeong Bank
ateh- lecturer RIMA College
atul- lecturer PTPL College

me??

- cashier kantin mahkamah ipoh. alhamdulillah.

+ tolong doakan sy!

as said by fid,

"rezqi & jodoh ditangan tuhan".

but in my case,

"jodoh & rezqi ditangan tuhan"

TAHUN BARU (alhamdulillah… hidup lagi aku ;p)

Hari ini sudah masuk tahun baru. Tahun duaribulapan.
Aku bukan lagi wynn yang dulu.
Aku wynn yang baru… yang dah bertunang ^_~
Hehehehe…

+ azam baru: intensive cooking class with ibu, wanchu, kak yanti & whoever available ;)

best wishes :)

jessica alba was confirmed engaged on December 29,

so did this girl ^_^

BERJAYA! ^_^

setelah 2minggu mengabrakan diri, aku secara rasminye telah diterima menjadi ahli sebuah komuniti masyarakat yang berjaya di Malaysia, yakni komuniti graduan menganggur *hehehe*
result sem1, 07/08 yang kuar semalam telah melayakkan aku untuk bergelar graduan menganggur ^_^" hehehe... bukan le aku bangge dengan status penganggur tu, tapi syukur ku pada Tuhan kerna ianya bermakna aku telah lulus my final semester without having to repeat or resit any papers. alhamdullah!!! even more syukur when i got GREAT GRADES for the papers!!!

alhamdulilah... alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah...

i say the darnest thing (-_-")

it is best to say that...
the relationship i had with my mother is somewhat the-very-the-slamber ^_^"
we talk about almost everything. i mean, I talk to HER about almost everything; from clothes to meronggeng, even about boyfrens. yes, note the 's' part. she practically knows with whom i go outing with, used to date, and currently dating... and obviously, being a tak-malu girl myself, i tend to tell her all the mengedik thinging that my toot and i discussed.. and today's topic was about 'the ring'. the ring??

me: dia tanye, boley ke gune cincin tunang wat cincin nikah sekaligus? bley beli cincin tunang yang mahai terus..
ibu: besanye tunang orang beli yang murah belah rotan tu je, nak yang mahai simpan duit untuk nikah nanti..
me: dia kate nak mengadap ibu 17hb nov nanti..
ibu: buat ape?
me: eleh eleh, wat2 tak paham plak...
*ibu ketawa*
ibu: awak tu, jangan mengatal. ingat nak final neh dulu..
me: yes mem!

hehehe...basically, bende2 yang aku sembang ngan ibu memang merepek. and she will dismiss the topic by taking me back to reality *demm*

nak jadik citer, pagi tadi ibu kol waktu breakfast. aku sedang mentekedarah nasi ayem kat hscafe. bile ibu kol, aku bantai je laa sembang. and those who knew me, tak akan heran dengan pitch sora aku bile bercakap dalam phone. lebih2 lagi kat tempat crowded mcm hscafe ni.

nak dijadikan citer lagi, ade sorang kak ni dok makan satu meja ngan aku. tanpa menghiraukan dia, aku terus bersembang ngan ibu ngan rancaknye. abes je sembang, aku pon sambung makan. kak tadi plak dah abeh makan. dia senyum kat aku. aku senyum balik. dia senyum lagi sampai kate,

kak: congratulations on your new venture! (tersenyum)
me: (new venture?) thank you.
kak: what year are you now?
me: my final semester.. (gulp!)
kak: oh. good.. good. akak suke (senyum lagi)
*apekah?*
kak: orang mane?
me: heh? saye orang perak..
kak: si dia?

hoh... amek ko! tulaa... orang tua2 dah pesan, cakap siang pandang2... padan muka!!

+ harap2 dia bukan lecturer, postgrad student je... *demm*

heh?

blog aku tukaq kaler puteh... *apekah???*

+ comei la gak... tapi... puteh benor...

me. homosexual. so not rite.

my presentation for MSL covers the issue of homosexuality.
afraid of being question by others towards that subject, i met Dr. Q for his wisdom and advice.

Dr. Q: why are there so many sensitive issues in Malaysia? why homosexuality was not being pressed by the media like incest?

me: well.. in my opinion, Malaysians are so attached with religion so anything that go againts the religion are considered taboo by the society.. no religion supports homosexuality rite?

Dr.Q: but why not homosexual? homosexuality was also a sin for the religion. and when some grandfather or uncle, father, even a brother did it to his own blood the media went wild talking about it. but not of homosexuals?

me: ermm... maybe because those gay couples... when they did it, they dont do harm to the innocent and no harm to the society? i mean, when you are gay, and you want to do it... you'll find somebody with the same orientation rite? only a gay will want to do it with gay person... and both of them do it because they wanted to do it, not because they are being forced or being threaten by it... rite?

Dr. Q: ....

+ so much of an answer from a uni student? so not academic! (--")

Salam Ramadhan

Wahai tetamu Ramadhan,

untukmu rahmat & maghfirah...

Airmata taubat, dendangan tadarus, berselimutkan tarawih & berbantalkan tahajud!

moga mewarisi jannah!

+quote dr sms ayah

my first time ^_^

memula pi bengkel, abg mekanik belakang-restoren-jimat tu kate, "takde pape kot. tayar awk tak cukup angin je ni". pastu, dia isi angin, giving me this look that says stop-bothering-me. eh, hello? i'm just a girl who 1st time experienced her tayar pancit tau? kot ye pon nak tolak rejeki, wat laa elok2 sikit ;p

anyway, Is was orait for the next two weeks. and dia kembali pancit. this time, i turned to emma,

"ko pi isi angin dulu. pastu pi kedai tayar belakang OTK tu. dulu aku besa wat kat situ."

naseb bek Is tak pancit abes. aku ajak fid teman, yelaa... mane tau kedai tu tipu aku pape ke (pasal aku nampak macam budak sgt) at least i got backup. financially ^_^"

sampai je kedai, aku cakap kat tokey nak suh dia tgk tayar pancit. dia suh aku parking kat belakang. scary gak lorong gelap dia tuh. pastu, sorang brader datang, tanye "tayar mane?"

tak sampai 5min, brader tuh dah siap tanggalkan tayar, cek punca pancit & sambung balik tayar ke kaki Is. gile best! (pasal ak ingat nak cek tayar susah sangat) and, brader tu tunjuk dalang disebalik tayar pancit keta ku ---
alhamdulillah, skrg dah takde pape. baru rase selamat nak balik cuti merdeka nehh ^_^

convest 07

jijo ngadu kat bulletin FS,

"waaaaargghhhhh.... convest dah start..menyampahnyer aku... tiap2 tahun benda ni la yang paling aku menyampah... sebab convest la cafe kolej tutup, sebab convest la jalan jem n sebab convest laa ku akan lambat ke kelas n lambat balik bilik pas kelas coz JALAN JEM!!!!!!!

P/S: sapa yang pi tutup lane kanan kat roundbout stadium dari ptg td tu mmg bodo!"

hehehe... tp memang betui pon...

cafe bukak sampai pukul 3 je. petang, suma kena ber-maraton ke convest hill untuk mendapatkan sumber makanan [nasi terutamanye]. kalu dak, hang bantai laa megi utk dinner tiap2 malam (-_-")

udah le ameenah baru ni jauh nun disana. nak berjalan ke convest hill masyallah... tuhan je laa yang tahu.. nak pegi sepasai. dah kenyang makan, pikir nak berjalan balik pulak. aduh...

walopun aku berkereta, akuh tak sanggup nak meredah jem macam kl-lepas-opis-hour semata2 untuk 5kali-suap nasi. pulak, parking keta macam s*al. masing2 nak parking tepi jalan. kalu parking tak kaco orang takpe, tapi ni dah la keta kecik... parking macam laa keta dia honda stream. geget kangz!

menyahut seruan mak aku suh pi jog petang2, aku pon ber-jog le ke convest hill nan jauh nun untuk mendapatkan bekalan makanan yag secukupnye...

takpe... sampai selasa ni je.... (-_-")

convest kali ni kureng best. taktau kenape. aku tak bernafsu nak borong baju+tudung kat bazar. aku tak bernafsu nak pi tgk2 barang tiap2 malam. nafsu makan je yang maseh berfungsi, mungkin kerna aku tak mampu hidup tanpa makan nasi ^_^"

+oh. convest kali ni takde drift.

so on and so fort.

semester ni aku buat 3 subjek [je];
w*orld l*iterature, m*alaysian & s*ingaporean l*iterature, and m*ethod of d*akwah.

kelas wlit dengan dr. f*aridah. msl ngan pof. q*uayum. m.o.d ngan dr. f*arid cumel.

[**ak tak mau mngulang kesilapan lalu (-_-")]

wlit & msl dua2 memerlukan aku untuk banyak membaca, mengulangkaji, membuat research, & ape saje me-me lain yang berkaitan. betape syiok nye aku dapat lecturer macam dorang; buat ko rase macam ko tak blaja pape je selama 4tahun yang lepas neh... tapi betui..

selama ni, aku ingat aku ni memang rajin membaca. ianya terbukti dengan bilangan koleksi bahan bacaan komik, novel, fiction, aesop fables, sejarah nabi, blablabla.... tapi, sem ni nak perabes kan bace citer2 dalm wlit & msl pon jenuh. baru sedar betapa tak membacanye aku.... betapa ruginye masa2 blaja aku ngan beli komik je, bace buku fiction je... betapa ruginye aku pasal lepas grad ni aku takkan dapat access ke library dah untuk bace buku2 hasil tulesan penulis2 power macam kafka, hanif kureishi, ghassan kanafani, lloyd fernando, and sapo2 lagi la yang power kat donia neh...

pasal bile dah grad, ak pasti lagik takkan dapat bace buku2 ni suma ngan free lagi [pasal library kat ipoh tak best]. pulak duit pon takde banyak [alasan- habes beli bende lain].

kawan aku midge, majoring in aerospace. tapi her real interest is in reading writings from the middle east countries. dia lebih tau pasal international politics than the one happened in msia. she might even applied for palestinean's citizenship [if possible] pasal she knows about it more than about her own tanah-tumpah-ny-darah-ku....

aku yang majoring in e*nglish l*anguage & l*iterature ni plak maseh tersengguk2 nak bukak buku bace 'abraham's promise' by philip j.

jenuh.

ateh bongek ^_^"

aku. dengan bob. kat lab A HS.
ateh datang. borak-borak. sembang-sembang.
ateh kutuk bob, "bongek ah ko.."
bob balas, "weh, ko tau tak yang bongek tu nama kampung?". bengang.
ateh jawab balik, "aku tau le, dah bongek tu nama kampung akuh".
hahahahahahahaha..... *gelak guling2*

+ ateh budak kampung bongek yang cun *hahahahahahahahaha*

one down, who's next?

1 week before, poeh called..

"wynn, aku tak jadik tunang 27.7.07. nikah terus on the 28"

it was a very nice reception. poeh [queen of the day] looked soo gorgeous even with simple make-up. opah nanges. terharu mengenangkan cucu pompuan tersayang nikah ngan mat salih. hehehe.. ape name islam ko jon?

jenuh akuh suruh si poeh cium tangan jon. takkan nak tunduk kejap je kot, ramai camera tunggu saat2 gedik kalian? ^_~

lepas ni giliran mar [pompuan gedik berdiri kanan sekali ^_^]

dulu, poeh penah berkata yang lepas kawen dia nak wat umah kat atas bukit muc. pastu bile nak balik umah je kena naik heli. ko ingat tak poeh? walopun impian wat umah kat bukit muc tu takkan tercapai, i'm sure jon's gonna bought u a lovely house in UK. and if u misses us, the kapal tebang will always fly u back to us [with jon's paying for it la of course] hehehe...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to.Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small.You never need to carry more than you can hold. And while you're out there getting where you're getting to.I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too.Yeah, this, is my wish
Rascal Flatts

i wish that too...

congratulations faizatul sakinah naharudin & jonathan you-know-who

(kind of forget ur full name ah, sorry)^_^"

per.ubah.an

dah lame akuh tak nek lrt, macam-macam dah terjadi:

vandalism oleh pro-streamyx

dan gejala samseng dari si bulat-merah

+ hahahahaha ^_^"

oi kome, doghoyan dah berbunge!

i know that my father got himself a piece of kebun at kg. sg. ular but it never occur in my mind that the kebun is filled with pokok durian, rambutan, pisang, cempedak *fuiyoooo*

and among the jobscope during the holiday is to kutip the durians and tebas-ing the kebun so that it will be easier for us to explore the kebun without harm.

bukti akuh bekerja keras (poyo) ^_^"

Is [the name of the car] dah macam lori pukal dah
me and my sister Aisyah

loving every moment of it!

+ but, for the record. i dun eat durian.

cuti ituhari singkat sangat (-_-")

memang le uia bagi cuti 3 minggu, tapi setiap hujung minggu dalam mase cuti tu akuh kena balik uia gak. kenape?

stat cuti 18hb Jun. tapi;
22-24hb= balik uia, sebab nak pindah mahallah. akuh kena transfer barang masuk bilek baru. asrama baru. asrama lame pon tingkat4, masuk asrama baru pon tingkat4 gak. mangk*k betul. gile penat bawak barang nek turun, naseb bek akuh dapat bantuan dari si kipas-susah-mati ku sayang. u rock bebeh!

28hb Jun-1hb July= balik uia [balik] pasal ade nuqaba training kat sepang. BEST! pasal i got the room all for myself! my supposed rumet tak dapat datang and i dun want to susahkan the comitee to reshuffle me to other room [hahahaha-alasan]^_^

8hb= back to school once more. tak puas dok umah lagi (-_-")

she make my eye water laa..

Amazing SIX-Year-Old Singer - The funniest videos clips are here

k.a.n.t.o.i II

Never occur in my mind that he would spot my blog… not only him, but anyone mentioned in my entries for that matter…

We should never [I mean, we never be able to] underestimate the power of knowledge. Even though you’re an English major, you still have the ability market some products successfully with the skill to manipulate languages and influence others to listen to you..

My fren, K*.E is an example to my entry today. He knows a hell lots of things about computer, networking and stuff, and at the same time studying to graduate as ‘the’ I*RK student.

Yes, your major is your academic qualification but it’s the other skills that put you through life…

still, the idea of google-ing his own name really startled me… *hohoho*

To m*rs m*ourinho, I’m sorry… its bcos of me you’ve been kantoi-ed by him..
But, it’s really nice to finally ‘faced’ you… ^_^

Yours truly,
Adek manes ^_^v

aiyo.

A fren asked...

So, lepas ni ko jadik cikgu ah ek?
No.
Kenape?
It will be among the options I have...
So, bile grad nanti ko kuar keje pe?
Mine will not be limited to education-wise only..
Good.
But to tell you the truth… I really am blurred with my wat-to-do-after-my-graduation plan (--")
Ok, tell me. What’s ur passion?
Eating?
Akuh pon suke makan. Len?
No. I really do loves to eat. Try something new. Pi kedai mahal, mintak menu merepek, just to know does the taste really suits the price… if only I can be the jalan-jalan cari makan girl..

omg. I dont have a future plan yet. And I’m graduating. Next sem. no future.

new stuff!

lame akuh tak turun itd. since the semester started, this is my 1st time in. hemm, maybe the fact that we cant login to frenster, ym there and since i got free access to the net from 'my' cc; tak rugi ah kalu tak pi itd pon... [cakap dengan nada berlagak]

but, as for now... here i am kat pc ITD-FE-43. and behind me are lots of guys!
terkejut akuh! ape jadik nehh? what the happening? limaza kasirun lelaki-yun fil itd? [wadda??]

oh. akuh. culture-shock. sekejap.

not that i'm againts it, since there's this exam ape ntah kat lab laki2 tu. tapi macam susah oo for the girls to rebut pc with the guys... budak pompuan beria berato nak pakai pc, those un-gentlemen guys tend to push themselves to the door although the girls has been there since forever...

tapikan, its quite refreshing to know that there are lots of cute otakus here in the lab ^_^"

+ print colour kat itd best!

Senior a.k.a dah tua (-_-“)

Balik dari bilek iza.

Rumet C: wynn, akak pinjam tangge tadi tau.
Akuh: (akak?) eh, cakap pe tadi ye?
Rumet C: akak pinjam wynn punye tangge tadi..
Akuh: oh… takpe (sambil tersenyum)

Sejak bile lak dia akak?

From what I knew, I am the only 03***** in the room. Yes, very sure of it. Pasal waktu regis bilek ituhari, waktu nak sign form akuh nampak matric num each rumets.

How bold of her, calling herself ‘akak’… *tak puas ati*

And one day, we met at the cc I’m working. She gave me her ic for a pc. Out of curiosity, I look at her birth date: 84**-**-****.

Ceh. Same umo. Cuma dia student 04*****.

+ aku rase akuh maseh muda remaja… maseh kah akuh??