hemm...

my template looks depressing!

..... maybe its time to change! its been 4years pon....

+ any suggestions?

nope...

Its not really over. Yet.

Followed husband to his company’s 2nd bowling tournament last night. I was super-excited since its been awhile since my first and foremost bowling experience with the Atcenians. Been looking forward for an opportunity to go play but working life harden the process.

But guess what? One of his team members cannot make it foe the 1st round (or lane they call it) so, I’m in!

Hehehe… with a cheeky smile, I took a size 4 bowling-shoes and trying hard to impress. Guess again? I striked! TWICE! (those was my trying-not-to-jump moment ^_^”)

After the 1st game, the actual player arrived. So the berat the hati to give it back to her but nak wat cne… she’s the one paying rm10 for the game ;)

Watching husband play and having fun with his team members, really reminds me of the GOOD OLD DAYS!

I miss my girlfriends…. WORK makes me too busy to enjoy life. And PD even drives me away from all my craze friends. Yup, they are crazy yet still mine ^_^

I miss hanging out till late night talking and chatting about nothing, dvd sessions till morning, jalan2 danau, charkueytiaw at mali….

I cried. I literally cried when everyone was cheering my husband who didn’t score strike pins (yup, he’s quite bad at bowling ^_^”)

Friends are those who do crazee things for you and with you, who will directly tells you that you’re ugly wearing even pretty dress, who buys you ice-cream even though you didn’t need one… (apekah??)

Gile aku tak dapat tahan my emotions last night! Just because of that stupid, hard-to-resist bowling game….

To you…
I miss you …. So so much… so very much!

emotionally un-fit! any pills?

hati semakin pulih. kurang sedih. untung ade suami yg gheti nak mem-backing diri ini ketika perlu. untuk ade ibu yang tau diri ini dah cukup keciwa dan tak perlu lagi di-leter akan perkara yg sudah berlaku. untung ade kawan2 yang memahami & membantu diri buat keputusan.

.... alhamdulillah ....

TERIMA KASEH TUHAN!

aku tak pergi MARA. ade yang marah. katanya rugi. katanya BODO tak pegi. ade gak yang kate, aku berlagak sombong.

pedulik ape aku ngan kata kamu.

i have my own reasons. and i'm glad i make that decision.

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my dad asked,

" angah, apsal ayong senyap je?"

angah jawab,

"dia tengah berkabung lagi tu..."

ayah blur.

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+ tak sabar nak tunggu cuti sekolah \o/

To Read or Not to Read!

i invigilated an exam last sunday. from 9 am to 12 pm. damn boring!
but managed to finish reading Little Black Dress's " The Men's Guide to Women's Bathroom ".

i invigilated an exam yesterday. from 9 am to 12 pm. damn boring!
but i did not managed to finish reading Anne Frank; The Diary of a Jewish Girl.

both books are equally thick. but i am obviously specialized in reading fiction than non-fiction books; which is bad for a literature graduate like me ^_^"

NEXT: Salman Rushdie's "Midnight Children" *ameen*

what a week

phew!
supposed to be a very easy week but turns out to be tense...

minggu ni dah start revision week so no more classes. no more teacher itu, teacher ini *yeay* but then i still have to finish marking their assignments & key-them-in (the carrymarks) into excel file.

my head of unit told me before not the be strict with the students since they are also our 'clients' so aku pon sesedap rase laa nak jadi santa clause by giving them quite-easy mark. bile everything is done, my 'head' told me to re-do ALL the marks for he thinks that the students did not deserve what they get. i'm like.. what the heaven??

yes. i know... i shouldnt be that generous but i just thought that they do deserve their 10-out-of-10 for its a very good groupwork. still, he's the 'head' and the head is always right!

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i am blessed with A LOT of interviews & callbacks...
c!mb - worked for 3 weeks.
un!+! - got the job. and currently rollin'...
kpl! - suitable for the post but unfortunately they wanted those who graduated in 2007
u!a - underwent all 3 stages but then, no rejeki... yet.
uum - went for the sake of ayah & his 'cabels'

and yesterday, aku baru je poei interview SPP kat pol! pd and tak sempat nak perform aku dah direjek. y? bcos of my own mistake, my own stupidity. i failed to produce my original spm cert.

bodo kan?

cert tuh dah lama ilang. but since all other interviews tak timbulkan issue itu, aku pon keep delaying myself from getting the new one.

padan muke.

ayah frust gile. listening to his voice, aku betul2 rase macam a LOSER to him. gile down. knowing that he's angry at me for making the STUPIDEST action in life.... aku nk kol umah pon rase tak mampu. bile teringat je, nanges. odw balek umah drive keta, nanges. smp umah tgk sutera maya, nangeh. bukak 702 tgk the nanny, nanges.

ye. its my time of the month. but the fact that i failed him sudah mampu untuk membuat aku down sedown-down nyer...

my husband was out of town, training at shah alam. my frens are all over the country, far from me. my sister is 7, still a kid.

but there is always mum.... who will not be angry at her children no matter what...

i miss ibu.....

sudah lama aku tidak mengulaw...

pi oh. aku mengantuk.
hari ini aku sungguh mengantok (--")

*******

went back to Perak last weekend to attend my cousin's wedding. we started the journey back late since my driver had to 'o.t' until late evening. better late than not going back kan? ;)

i lurrve weddings! the colours, the foods, the people... especially the people! makcho & pak lop, paklang & wa'am, pak ude & mak ude, pakndak & makndak, yachu & mak usu, opah... u named it! and i especially love to see my crazy cousins and cute nephews plus ADORABLE nieces...

arissa yang comel.... maisarah yang bulat.... azmeer yang sengal... eii. gerem!

lama tak sembang ngan ibu.... i mean, sembang yang best... tengok ibu senyum, ibu gelak... and ibu selalu gelak when muaz is around.... and sometime i am jeles when he manages to make her smile...

ayah plak... suke bebenor menayang anak jantan sulong dia tuh ke sana ke mari... bengang pulak aku when he asked muaz to escort him to all these rumah terbuka, instead of him (my husband) stay at home with me & us ladies... tapi yelaa, ayah dah lama mau-kan anak lelaki. so, for somebody who never wins, i am glad that he has muaz to back-him-up for anything (eventho they will still lose competing with us girls ^_~)

and aisyah, she is no longer shy-shy with muaz. udah berani mintak didukung, mau disuap makan.... dah boley terima hakikat that she now has a brother to lean on... which is sweet ;)

i called her last night. and she said

"ayong, jangan tido dekat-dekat dengan abang muaz tau? nanti badan gatal2..."

hahahahahhahahahahhahahha (gelak guling2)

*******

kematian.
one of the students died in a car accident. she was taken away on-the-spot, leaving the others comma, leg-broken, stiches everywhere... kata kak tyi, "jalan itu dahagakan darah". kecut gak. pasal i am using the road to go to work. pergi & balek.

Ema was the driver. died. got no driving license. the car was her boyfriend's. the car was without roadtax. that night, he was being bashed by the brother who blamed him for the accident. he tried to defend himself by saying that he never meant for things to happen for his dear Ema promised him that she will only be driving to a kedai makan nearby. they ended up having dinner at town. ended up meeting with a drunken driver.

visited them the next day. Emy forgot what happened, so she was not traumatized from the accident. Liza got both her arms dislocated. tears running down her cheeks. she can still hear them crying for help. Wana just woke up from her comma. her spectacle broke, injuring her eyes. she broke her leg. and her face was still bengkak from the crash. sian family dia. came all the way from Kuantan, ber-ulang Kajang-Seremban pasal they got no sedara nearby.

even so, all of them wanted to go back to college and do their finals. afraid of not finishing the semester as planned. afraid of not having loans to pay for the extra semester.

aku hanya mampu berdoa untuk kalian. dan berasa kasihan untuk kamu & keluarga kamu. terukkan kan aku?

buat sahabat ku syima & firah....
aku hanya mampu ucapkan takziah. terkejut dapat tahu tentang berita hitam itu. maaf, tak berada disitu. maaf, tak tahu nak ucapkan apa-apa untuk senangkan hati kamu. maaf, kerana hanya mampu berdoa agar kamu dikuatkan semangat untuk meneruskan kehidupan.

semua orang akan mati. tak kira berapa teror ko work-out kat gym pon, kalo dah tertules kate ko akan mati jatuh longkang, mati gak.

aku takut mati. aku tau ibu & ayah pon akan mati. aku takut bile tiba saat itu. takut tak dapat sembang ngan dorang laei, takut tak dapat balek and seeing them cosy-ing around in front of the tv, takot tak dapat pelok gomol2 ngan aisyah, takot tak dapat tengok mata redup suami....

ALLAH MAHA KUASA. aku doa kite suma mati dalam iman.

*ameeen*

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aku rase aku lonely, ade orang yang lagi sepi dari aku...
aku rase aku malang, ade orang yang lagi malang dari aku...
aku rase aku kecewa ngan dunia, ade orang yang lagi bengang dari aku...

kite selalu tak bersyukur kan?

you & me...

aku moody tetibe. just because of the brief chat.

tak. kitorang tak gadoh. no, nobody was hurt. tapi aku je yang rase macam down... pasal dah lame tak jumpe, dah lame tak berbicara...

yes... i know... she didnt intend to be so...
aku je yang poyo...

aku rase macam di-jauhkan. macam aku ade did something that cause her to discard me away....
aku rase sedey....

but, i am happy. for her. her BIG DAY is coming. her 'happy ending' is on the way...
alhamdulillah... congratulation dear ^_^

aku & IS

Aku merupakan seorang anak yang baik. Oleh kerana itu, aku diberikan sebuah kereta untuk dipandu semasa belajar di uni lagi. Supaya mudah untuk aku mudah ke sana ke mari. Dan mudah untuk aku pulang ke kampung. Setelah bekerja, aku tidak lupa diri. Aku meringankan beban ayah ibu dengan menyambung-bayar kereta itu. Aku memang anak yang baik. Aku meringankan beban ibu ayah ayah, supaya mereka dapat beli kereta baru yang full-spec, ade GPS, leather seats, blablablablablablabla....

ye, aku ENVYkan mereka ^_^"

Sungguhpun demikian, aku tidak lupa diri. Aku ingat jasa kereta kepunyaan ku itu. Aku sayang kereta ku. Aku juga telah memberikan nama untuk kereta ku.

Nama penuh: Iswara.

Nama dalam IC: ally iskandar ;)

Nama manja: is.

Ya. Is namanya. Aku sayang Is. Sebelom kawen lagi, Is lah buah ati ku, pengarang jantung. Aku sering bersembang dengan Is jika odw balek ke Perak. Is memang pendengar yang setia. Dan walopun sekarang aku suda berkawen, Is maseh lagi mendapat tempat yang istimewa dihatiku...

tapi, tak ku sangke... orang len turut menyimpan hati terhadap Is ku ini. Tanpa segan silu, secara terang-terangan beliau memuja Is ku... BUKTINYA?

lagi?

+ dan aku ingat aku sorg je yang 'weng' ^_^"

demm.

jambu.... but still hawt!

+ for those without husband of course (-_-")

post-wed entry

"amacam kehidupan selepas kawen?" orang tanye.

aku jawab, "ok je. macam besa."

kenape? tak percaye?

yalah. i still go to work. i still do my own laundry, still lipat them when kering, still iron my own clothes... who tells you that being married means you got to be the boss??

well... at times, you do feel like you ARE the boss ^_~ *hehehehehehehhe*

he's ok. and i am adjusting to the fact that i am married and had to share a home, the bed, the bathroom, and even the tv remote with him! ^_^"

nevertheless, i still feel that i'm blessed ;)
ya lah. can watch tv & dvds pelok2, got to kiss him whenever i want, hold his hand wherever i want.. [iklan JOM KAWEN CEPAT2] ^_^"

...... he even wash the plates & tidy the bedroom \o/

gado? musti laa ade. tipu laa kalo takde. tp, kna pandai2 laa kan? still learning his majuk signs, wanting to be pujuk signals and etc etc...

but to be married sure is better than just being in a relationship ^_~

+ ya allah... terima kasih atas rahmat ini. panjangkan lah rezeki & nikmat yang diperolehi, semuga kami tidak lupa akan MU dan berjaya di dunia & akhirat (wishes from a dear fren)

THANK YOU

kenduri ituhari (19.07.08) was quite a blast! estimated more than 3000++ people came. gile kan?
due to the fact that i am anak sulong does make a point and my father got ALOT of contacts even those from siam pon did came to celebrate my day. tu tak masuk kawan2 sekolah, kawan2 uni, cikgu-cikgi, suma suma lah! haa... villagers laei. nak jadik citer plak my wedding was not on the cuti sekolah. so, semua jemputan (juge yg tidak dijemput ^_~) tidak ade alasan untuk tidak datang ke wedding sy ;) terima kaseh semua!!!

thanks to makcho kerana men-sponsor my pelamin! and thanks too for providing me with the mak andam who did a really great job transforming the-comot ME into QUEEN of the day! she managed to make-up me well without having to make me... not me! best pulak mekap ^_^"

to makwe, wanchu, kak yanti, kak yani, wa'am, mak usu, mak andak, and ALL others yang contributed alot backstage.... without your help, the wedding will not happened smoothly as it was.

to kawan2 memasak ayah (we dont do catering, kwn2 ayah turun masak kawah), ALL my frens and other guests LOVES the food! some even makan for the second round, just because they cant get enough of it!

to all bawang, kelapa, gula, and other groceries' sponsors (yes, they sponsored my wedding) thank you! you helped my father with his spending ;)

who else?

hemm..... oh. pakcik khemah, datin umi, pakcik mat DBI, abg ali, pakcik tamin, anak2 yatim Gopeng, ustad-depan-umah, ustaz rahim, (sape laei ek?).....

S.E.M.U.A

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR MY PARENTS.

FOR MY FAMILY. THANK YOU.

+ and kezens, having you around was a blast! teringat zaman budak2 dlu, suma berkumpul ramai2 waktu raye men2, gelak sume. its sure fun ^_~

thank you all for coming ^_^

rase macam selebriti pon ade ^_~

^_^ Mr & Mrs Mu'az ^_^

its official *alhamdulillah*

tick tock tick tock tick tock

~ coming soon ~

+ for more info, pls click here

compliment? a curse?

another student asked,

miss, you really are into english ek?

another stunned.

heh? y do u asked?
and she said,
its just that you are very fluent with your english. do you have classes with foreigners?
and i answered,
as a matter of fact, i did. i'm an i!um's graduate maa..
but i should just answered,
that's just me being poyo dear ^_^"

students and their questions

a student asked,

"why do u want to get married? are u not afraid to pikul all the tanggungjawab?"

stunned. tak sangke ade student akan tanye smp gitu. and aku pon bagi jawapan artis,

"u'll know when u have met the one"

aku takde skema jawapan untuk soalan itu sebenarnya. i wanted to get married just because i want to. just because he asked my parents for my hand in marriage. just because he loves me. and just because i do love him too.

gile ah wat kenyataan maut gini kat tenet (--")

WEDDING TAG!

1.How old are you?
soon-to-be 24 ^_~

2.Are you single?
= Engaged

3.In what age do you think you’ll get married?
23; since my wedding is on this coming week *duDapDupdap*

4.Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
yap, he is THE ONE. and the cards have been delivered pon ;)


5. If not, who do you want to marry?
if not? as cliche as it may sound, i cannot bear the thought (--")

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding,or the traditional house wedding?
boleh ke beach wedding? \o/ *yeay*

7.Your ideal motif?
= White & creme theme; table & chairs, curtains & skirtings, the tents, even the guests has to wear white & creme dresses

= flowers? a mix of pastel orange & creme roses/ daisies

8. Where is your honeymoon could be?

could be.... PD? at Avillion ^_~

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?

1000++ (the more the merrier ^_^)

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?

simple is more *wink wink*

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?

a little bit of both; so that the vows doesnt sound that fake & so me (which is known for being crazee ^_^")

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?

do not care much; as long as the cake is pretty! like the one in choffles.com

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
simple... i'm a simple person..

14. When do you want to get married,evening or morning?
i imagine it to be during sunset, but of course... waktu maghrib tak elok dok luar umah ^_^"

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?

outdoor!

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your bride/groom?

define grand? would love an entrance; a simple & sweet one ;)

18. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding.
1. Micheal Buble - My Everything

2. Micheal Buble - Save the Last Dance for Me

3. Jason Mraz & Colbie Callait- Lucky

...... and of course, the Pengantin Baru song ^_^

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
a little bit of both ^_^

20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?

same gak; a little bit of both...

21. Describe your ideal husband/wife.

sweet, funny, generous, kind, loves me ALOT, sincere, humble, simple, a Good Muslim :)

22. Do you prefer fine dining or just a buffet?

Fine dining of course! Its not that you have fine dining everyday ^_~

23. Champagne or red wine?

limau ais? dapat minom panas2 sedap tuhhhh *pehhh*

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?

depends on the financial situation at the moment ;)

25. Money or household items?

money for my parents; household's for me ; )

26. Who will pay for the bills?

the Lucky man who gets to marry me of course ^_~ *hehehehhe*

27. Are you ready for married life?

honestly? not really... but, i'm sure i'll do well.. i got him to be at my side ^_~

28. Will u always be true to your wife/husband?

insyaallah!

29. How many kids do u like to have?

dont really think about it... Allah Maha Pemurah ^_^

30. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
starting anew in a rented house at the moment... takpe laa, one step at a time kan? ;)

31. Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding??

surely silver & diamond; not much of a gold-wedding fan ^_^"

32. What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?

ikan bakar, ayer assam, belacan, kerabu sayur, nasi puteh.... *pehhh* and others

oh. and ABC + cendol for dessert! yumyum!

+ i tagged laling, phyd, nore, syima, ateh, amani and YOU!

dupDapdupDap ^_^"

teasers for the upcoming event
*mcm le hers was the event of the year ^_^"*

Percubaan pertama ^_~

how i wish this was the ring *drool*
........ the name of the ring is enchanted ^_^

..... and this is for the flower girls (mesti laa aku yg testing dulu :P)

+ i even got myself a 'miss universe' tiara so, be sure to come to the wedding and gelak at me!

...soon.

soon,
i'm getting myself a 'housemate' ^_~

i hope my new housemate is a responsible person..
yalaa, you know....
the one who will wash the dishes after meals, angkat kain yang dah kering, kemas katil lepas tido, scrubs the toilet, sweeps the floor, do laundry and wash the car..... basically EVERYTHING laa senang cakap ^_^" *hehehhehe*

yes. its a he. my soon-to-be housemate *wink*

+ i wonder if he cooks ^_~

......am lucky ;)

this is for you dear *wink*

Do you hear me, I'm talking to you

Across the water across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea

To an island where we'll meet

You'll hear the music fill the air

I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees

Move so pretty you're all I see

As the world keeps spinning round

You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

Jason Mraz feat Colbie Caillat

click here to listen to the song ^_~

low in.come

As mentioned by asni,

"...If you earn less than RM2,000 a month,

you are considered a low-income earner..." - The Sun, June 24, 2008.

.... and i'm one of them.