Double celebration \o/

Insyaallah... :)

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actually,
the same day we went out to celebrate Sarah's birthday... was the same day of my appointment with the doctor :)

alhamdulillah... all is well. After detailed scanning, he commented "Grossly structurally normal fetus at this gestation". sungguh pun aku tak bape nak paham, i know it meant 'OK' ^___^ which is very good indeed!

and while we were in the middle of the ultrasound, he asked

"want to the gender?"

agak berdebar juge, sungguh pun pernah mengalaminye sebelum ini. still, i replied 'yes.'

berbeza dengan Sarah, si adik sungguh yakin dengan posisi nye lantas doktor dengan yakin membuat konklusi:

"i can 99% say that it's a GIRL cos got no burung coming out"

haaa... 'medical terms' yang gini memang aku paham! hahahahahahahahaha

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right after we left his clinic, i immediately called husband:

me: nak tau tak jantina baby?
husband: haa? dah boleh nampak ke? ape dia?
me: dokte kate kan... he 99% sure that its a...
husband: *diam pasal saspen*
me: ... its a girl :)
husband: *terdiam lagi, terkejut kot* hehehehe

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at home.

husband: tak boleh jadi ni. kena teruskan usaha. sampai dapat yang lelaki baru rehat lame.
me: #&_)(*&^#$%^&*()(*&^%$#$%^&*(*&^%$ *dush dush*

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Kakak Sarah, tahniah! Semoga kakak Sarah dapat tolong ibu jaga adik dengan baik nanti :)

Adik kakak, we'll see you in June! ^___^

Ummu Sarah sudah 1 tahun!! \o/

Sayang ibu Ummu Sarah!!

tahniah! anak ibu sudah genap 1 tahun!! gigi dah nak masuk 4, and sudah mula mahu berjalan sendiri... aduh! cepat jugak ye masa berlalu ;)

setahun yang lalu, ibu tak percaya yang kamu telah keluar dari perut ibu. dan hari ini, ibu masih tak percaya yang ibu diberi nikmat anak yang baik lagi comel macam kamu!

terima kaseh atas pinjaman ini tuhan! you surely are the best!!

ape yang ibu buat untuk menyambut besday Ummu Sarah??

pertamanya, ibu mintak maaf pasal takde buat majlis parti bagai untuk kamu, macam kezen2 kamu yang lain. pasal ibu percaye, bukan kamu akan ingat pon ape yang jadi. alih2 ibu jugakk yang kena cita tunjuk gambar semua hehehehe...

pulak, Sarah bukan boleh makan kek sehabis banyak lagi. nanti ibu jugakk yang habeskan kek Sarah tu, sape susah? hehehehe...

sungguhpun demikian, itu bukan bermakna ibu tak sayang Sarah... sebab ibu saaaaaaayang Sarah sangat-sangat :)

so, how do we celebrate ur birthday you asked?
simple. we go SHOPPING!!!! \o/

stress je abah tak dapat ikut kite. abah kena work. to pay for our shopping expenses tu jugak kan? ^___~ *hehehehe*

i am not much of a shopper myself, but it is kinda fun spending time goofing around together, with you having fun sitting/standing in the trolley as we marched into the shopping complex.

Abah belanja baby bike untuk Sarah. bukan main syiok lagi kamu! u've been sitting on it all the time, since i've put in the trolley. and you sit on it with pride, siap tekan hon suma wooo. jeles je budak2 len. and passerby suma senyum je tengok kamu sukee je hari tu. it's your birthday honey! you deserve it! :)

ibu pulak bagi ape? errk... ciuman? ^___^" eheh

... agak-agak bile Sarah dh besaw nanti, Sarah nak lagi ke shopping2 dengan ibu ye?

sampai rumah, u did not take your hands (and ur cute butt) off the bike! sampai kamu ended up kena lap je instant of the usual, punya laa takmo turun dari bike. aduh! jenuh!

naseb tido mau lagi atas toto... buatnye kamu nak tido atas bike tu jugak, tak ke naya ibu! ;p

all in all, it was a fun date! so much fun, that you slept soundly throughout the night. :)

thank you again Allah for this lovely gift!

terima kaseh Sarah for being such a lovely kid!

and thank you husband, for being with me all the way through. ily :)

They say the darnest thing!

while searching online articles for my classes, i came upon these:

Real Man says...

I don't understand why we are even discussing this. Women have no place in the workplace. Where they've been, they've caused strife and suffering. The worst bosses are women because they're too emotional and insecure. And for good reason! They don't have the physical or the mental capacity to function in a professional environment. The worst staff members are women too; they talk the most and always give you lip when you tell them to do something. Anything! What's all this rubbish about helping them achieve "work-life balance"? Women are meant to balance home and hearth and home budgets. Their duties, first and foremost, have always been about carrying babies on their backs, and standing next to a hot stove with a spatula or some other cooking implement in one hand, and a broom on the other. Those are things women should be balancing, as they stand barefooted, always in the house. Not the real challenges of the real hard working world of professionals. Men are made for that. For toiling through long periods for 'the Man'. (There's a reason that expression refers to a male character, think about it.) The least a good woman should do come evening time is make sure the children are taken care of, the dinner is made and served on time, the clothes are neatly pressed and folded, and that a man should be waited on, hand and foot, from the moment he enters the door after work (where she takes his shoes and socks off) through the moment he steps out of the shower into his pyjamas before going to bed. Is that too much to ask? So I say, we as men, must make our stand today. Sound the trumpets to rally round a common purpose: the re-subjugation of women. We must put women in their place. They have caused too many problems. We must discontinue education for women, because it empowers them to talk back. They must learn to speak only when spoken to and such. I urge you to desist. Stop all this nonsense about "women in IT" and other workplaces. Stop the insanity and bring some order into our world. Thank you for your time and consideration. (21 Aug 2008 6:02pm)

Real woman says...

In the first place if men can provide well for the family then the women don't need to join the workforce. If men wishes women to wait on them hand and foot like what 'real man' describes please migrate to Japan. There, women do wait hand and foot on their men. In return their men give their ENTIRE salary to their wives. In fact their companies will automatically deposit the money into the wives account. This also brings to the second point that, because Japanese men have no savings apart from the allowances their wives gives them for their meals (btw men are not allowed to return home until way past dinner or the family loses face as it could mean their bosses don't like them and that these men are not valued at work) the women are not afraid of being abandoned by their husbands. So since most of us are not Japanese, women will have to enter the workforce to ensure they can support themselves should the marriage falls apart plus in trying times like these, most men can't afford not to have their women work as their pay alone is not enough to support the whole family. In many developing countries, many so-called real men are those who drink, womaniser and stay unemployed while women are expected to take care of the entire family, clean the house and be the sole bread winner. Go tell the women not to work and expect the men to bring back the bread! I could go on but I would leave it to others to comment. (22 Aug 2008 7:19pm)

Real equality says...

I don’t understand why we are even discussing this. Men have no place in the workplace. Where they’ve been, they’ve caused strife and suffering. The worst bosses are men because they’re too aggressive and competitive. And for good reason! They don’t have the physical or the mental capacity to function in a professional environment. The worst staff members are men too; they have no emotional intelligence and resort to physical intimidation when asked to do something inconsistent with their proud self-perception. Anything! What’s all this rubbish about allowing them to dominate the most powerful organizations in our society? Men are meant to defend home and hearth, and log fallen trees. Their duties, first and foremost, have always been about carrying home a fat boar for the roast, and standing guard around the settlement with spears or some other deadly implement in one hand, perhaps a knife in the other. Those are things men should be balancing, as they stand barefooted, always on the alert. Not the real challenges of the real hard working world of professionals. Women are made for that; for building relationships, genuine teamwork, respect, collaboration, and negotiation. The least a good man should do come evening time is make sure there is a fresh meat for the family, that the furniture is sturdy, the roof doesn’t leak and that a woman should feel safe and understood, from the moment she enters the door after work (where he listens diligently to the trials of her day) through the moment she steps out of the shower into her pyjamas before going to bed. Is that too much to ask? So I say, we as women, must make our stand today. Sound the trumpets to rally round a common purpose: the subjugation of men. We must put men in their place. They have caused too many problems. We must discontinue education for men, because it empowers them to find more and more sophisticated ways of waging war and killing us all. They must learn to speak only when spoken to and such. I urge you to desist. Stop all this nonsense about “men in IT” and other workplaces. Stop the insanity and bring some order into our world. Thank you for your time and consideration. (24 Sep 2008 8:24pm)

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What say you? :)

engkorang penah beli nombor?

enchek suami sedang tekun menilik nombor-nombor yang 'ong'

antara rakyat-rakyat 1Malaysia yang turut sama membeli 'nombor'

ko ingat aku dengan laki dok beli nombo ape haaa??? ^___~

seronok jugak ghupanye main beli-beli nombor ni. untung cepat, dapat. kalau tidak, melepas.

and after several attempts, my husband is now is the official owner of the registration number MCA 2110.

kenapa MCA 2110?
MCA - Muaz Cinta Adawiyah
2110 - birth date Ummu Sarah

* pandai laki aku bodek aku kn? :P

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oh.

Selamat Hari Lahir yang ke-19 Saidatun Najah!
Be someone with beauty and brain, ya? ;) *insyaallah*

To all the single ladies, soon-to-be-wifey and future mummies...

.... these are links to entries that will give you a peek of whats to come in the future.

Do read them with an open mind, for they were written based on Kak Hidd and Kak Sue Anna's personal experiences.

The Joys of Having a Kid

Segala Harta Dunia ini Hanya Untuk Dia

enjoy :)

cakap orang, dia pun same ;p

i got a friend. who keeps telling people that how lonely she is... and how she is somehow desperate for a husband to keep her company *yadayadayada*

mule-mule,
kesian gak laa... sebagai kawan, aku cuba mendengar dan memberi sepatah dua nasihat...
lama-lama,
telinga gua pun jadik tak senang!

aku suh sabo, dia kate dia tak pueh hati. dok pertikai kenapa tuhan lambat bagi jodoh kat dia...
aku bagi suggestion suh mak ayah pilihkan terus, takmo. katenya belom desperate lagi ke tahap itu.
tapi, everytime kol aku dok suh aku kenenkan, kenalkan, carikan.... apekejadahnye??
and each time i did, she actually asked the guys directly to their face,
"awak rase... kite ni ada masa depan bersama tak?"

o m g

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hanim di sweden. poeh di scotland.amrah di australia. syima & kerun hv been to half of europe. nadia & plane trips tidak dapat dipisahkan. pakude helmi's childrens are all over the world.

me?

currently in port dickson. and the farthest i've been to was Thailand. itu pun waktu kekecik dulu.

sumpah aku tipu kalau aku kate aku tak jeles bila tahu ade kawan, sedara, even strangers dapat gi beronok-ronok ke negara orang.

iye, hujan emas dinegeri orang, best lagi hujan batu kat negeri sendiri. i admit that. tapi yelaa.... manusia mane penah reti bersyukur... tahu komplen je... (specifically me!)

i keep bringing this up, sampai aku pasti kak long aku tu pon dah mual. she keep repeating the phrase "your time will come" almost everytime i bring this to her. dan aku pasti, laki aku pon pasti stress pasal aku dok citer2 pasal orang tu pi sini laa, suami dia bawak pegi bercuti ke sane laa...

just so you know, aku bukan teringin nak travel sebab orang len travel. NO. i blame it all to myself, for been watching too much soapy movies about romantic cities like Verona, been reading all these comics & mangas that contributes to me wanting to go to Japan, Korea and all. not to forget, all the literature novels i've read throughout my study years and after...

being able to learn about other cultures thru books & movies are awesome. but to be able to experience them, is another. macam ko tengok food channel la. to be able to watch the chef prepares the food itself was mouth-watering, ini pulak kalo ko dapat peluang merasa sendiri makanan tersebut. pehh!!!!!

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comes to think of it, aku ni pon same-dengan-je dengan kawan aku yang ceritakan kat atas tadi...

hanim kat sweden pasal rezqi pak dia koje sane. poeh pasal si jonny dia pon koje sane, warganegara Jerman plak tu. amrah sambung PhD. nad pasal laki dia koje sane. kerun & syima berhempas-pulas menabung baru merasa. anak2 pakude helmi pon masing2 bekerja keras untuk hidup di negeri orang...

kau?
sanggup dapat laki omputeh & terpakse dok jauh gile-gile dari family?
sanggup ikut laki keje ke obersee & again, nak balik raye pon berkira2?
sanggup lagi berhutang untuk belajar tinggi2 sampai PhD?
sanggup ke??

gaji sebulan pon sangkut, ade ati :P

tapi tak salah kalau DREAM BIG kan? *kembali berangan*

~~~~~

di rumah mertua.

menantu:
ummi & abah dan 2 kali pegi haji. tak teringin pulak ke lepas ni ke Morocco ke, Jordon ke... saje, tengok negara tamadun islam??

mertua:
buat ape? bazir duit je. baik pegi haji, menghadap Tuhan yang Maha Esa.

menantu:
(amek kau! padan muke!)

~~~~~

engkorang dah daftar haji belum? aku dengan suami punye turn tahun 2036 nanti. itupun kalau belom mati ;p

Childhood memories :)

kat FB skrg tgh sibuk org dok taruk gamba katon yang menjadi kegilaan dorg zaman bebudak dulu, as an effort to fight againts Violence to Children. tapi satu gamba je mane cukup beb! antara katon-katon yang aku layan dulu:

tak geram ke kau tengok kuda yang ade rambut kalah Aurora ni kat tivi??

dulu siap beli subang telinga yang boleh lekat2 kat telinga tuuuuu! pehtu berangan berdiri atas katil, pegang subang telinga sambil feeling 'JEM'!! *hahahahahahahaha*

cik Ariel sorg ni memang dari dulu aku suke tekap-dan-lukis. selalu perasan berenang ala ala mermaid
(tak jadik ;p)

masuk skolah menengah, aku mula mengenali pasangan Usagi & Mamoru ni... siap ade full collection tuh, dr buku 1 - 18!! tapi segalanya terkorban, bila aku nazar, dapat masuk universiti, aku buang buku ni kat recycle bin (T_T")

dan tidak di lupakan...Cardcaptor Sakura!!!!!!
ai ade semua collection cards dia tau? jgn jeles ^___~

** sape kate, bile ko dah kawen beranak sume dah tak boleh tengok katon??
see the spek mate laaa! ^___~v

her 1st tooth *yeay*

Ibu purposely finger-feeding her but accidentally found her 1st tooth!
congratulations Ummu Sarah!! no wonder you are being grumpy and clingy all at the same time :)

so proud of u!!! \o/

all about him :)

Convinced that a CNN cameraman is her true love, an eccentric crossword puzzler (Bullock) trails him as he travels all over the country, hoping to convince him that they belong together.

as a 'former' stalker, i feel for Mary (Bullock).

no, i did not follow him all over the country.
... but, maybe just around the campus *guilty* ^___^"

however,
we do share the same wisdom in life:

"If you love someone,
set him free....
If you have to stalk him,
he probably wasn't yours in the first place" ^___~

and i ended up marrying a prince charming, who loves me. for me :)

i'm 26 today!!!

sarah turns 10months and we take her for her 1st mandi laut session \o/

quality time with abah & our sarah *ibu loves it*

and her lil sis/bro is officially 3months on the same day!

life's great! alhamdulillah :)

thank you Allah :)

there are lots to be thankful for this month!

like:
dinner with Yina @ Avillion!
new washing machine! alhamdulillah...
geting new haircut! lovely ^__~
Sarah is a healthy 9-months old baby \o/
her sis/bro is 7weeks old now *allahuakhbar!*
suami naik pangkat (dan naik gaji) alhamdulillah!
movie-maratoning with husband like it was nobody's business! (sarah is with her granny of course)

.... and many more!

thank you Allah. may they last forever :)

Ulangtahun ke-7 :)

it's been 7 years...
since i first started this blog.

dan sudah 7 tahun jugalah, i've been using the same template design.

adakah itu bukti aku seorang yang membosankan? atau setia? atau pemalas? atau kunun-nye simple?

ntah.

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the first reason why i started the blog was because of emma.
because i wanted to be as cool as her. :P

but as time flies, i continued writing. just because i love it. it is the place where i vent my anger, shared my feelings, talking about things that i consider important in life.

and when i read back all the previous entries, i smiled.
seronok bila kita baca semula entry-entry lama kita. cerita pasal boyfriend lama. cerita pasal kawan-kawan belajar semua. semua karut marut. tapi semuanya kisah benar, yang telah membuktikan diri ini telah jauh lebih matang dari sebelumnya :)

ye ke??

kawan-kawan,
terima kasih kerana menjadi sebahagian dari cerita hidup saya. tanpa kalian, pasti cerita-nya membosankan.

exboyfriends,
terima kasih kerana turut menyibuk, menambah asam & garam dalam hidup aku. tanpa kamu kamu, aku mungkin tidak sebahagia kini.

and to my babies,
whatever you read in here, it is all me. the good and the bad. and i want you to know, that i love u all so much, even more. *hugs*

Happy 7th anniversary. to my entries :)

current love-of-the-month!

bought it for only rm30 and still in a very, very good condition!
u never failed me oo NovelHut!

Kalau ado show ini di Malaysia, komfom aku pi!

ingatkah kamu?

" ... bagaimana buruk sekali perangai kedua orang tua kita, itu bukanlah urusan kita, urusan kita ialah menjaga mereka dengan penuh kasih sayang sebagaimana mereka menjaga dan menyayangi kita pada waktu kita masih kecil..."

"... walau sebanyakmana sekalipun dosa yang dilakukan mereka itu juga bukanlah urusan kita, urusan kita ialah memohon ampun kepada Allah SWT supaya keduanya mendapat ampunan dariNya... "

tak puas...

kite kawan sampai bila-bila ek? :)

maybe its the hormone talking....

are there times in your life, when you suddenly think that the whole world is against you, and it makes you suddenly becomes vulnerable till you broke down in tears?

of course! duh! ko ingat ko sorang je ke yang ade masalah kat donia ini??

true enough. nobody's perfect.

aku tak tahu ape punca aku jadi begini. semakin moody. semakin pentingkan diri sendiri. semakin tak heran dengan perkara sekitar.

i am soon-to-be 26. am a wife. and a mother to a beautiful girl. tapi maseh bermasalah mengendalikan emosi.

do i need a shrink to help me get my mojo back? or a psychiatrist to tell me what to do?

maybe i need a break.
but then again, aku dah terlampau banyak cuti sebenarnya. cuti bersalin, cuti operate, cuti+training kt Bukit Tinggi, cuti yang selamba aku amek dr kerja kununnye m.c.....

maybe i need time for myself?
hello?? yang waktu Sarah kat kampung tu, bukan dah banyak mase ke given for you to utilise?

takde sebab untuk aku bermasalah sebenarnya. you see....

TUHAN banyak tolong aku dalam urusan mengendalikan Sarah:
ada orang yg menjaga Sarah in the comfort of our own home.
bekalan makan minum pakai Sarah alhamdulillah tak pernah putus.
ada sumber yang boleh digunakan bila Sarah memerlukan perhatian medical.

Ibu, ayah, umi, abah juga tidak terkecuali:
tolong jagakan Sarah bile ade aku memerlukan bantuan.
bekalan ubat tambahan & bekalan air bersih.
sumber pinjaman kewangan bila aku mengalami kekurangan.

aku maseh bekerja. maseh punya waktu untuk bersosial dengan rakan-rakan. maseh punya masa berdating sakan dengan suami.

so, you see...
i am blessed. even much more fortunate than others.

tapi tu la... mudah lupa. tidak tahu bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

husband sms-ed:" Maybe u need to refresh.. "

ya. maybe.

happy 2nd anniversary sayang!

sudikan? ^____~

dei

"make your passion a profession.
then life will be your play..."

--3 idiots, Ameer Khan.

what is my passion? do i have any?
i am 26 (to be), and still lost in my own world??

“We are the choices we make.”

—	The Knife of Never Letting Go, Patrick Ness

doppelgangers??

I love watching HIMYM. to me, it's sort of the new version of FRIENDS but funner!

doppelganger?

“We’ve all been searching for the five doppelgangers, right?
Well eventually, over time, we all become our own doppelgangers.
These completely different people who just happen to look like us...."

i wanted to be Robin; good looks, successful. but i have always like Lily. she is goofy and clumsy yet still cute :)


** doppelganger -- a ghostly counterpart of a living person