Mixed Feelings Episode 3

Previously, I was so excited with the idea of going to the kayaking exhibition.

It will be just like the good  'ol days.

Sibuk dok carik dry bag laa, dry pouch laa... and I'm sure the husband mesti muak asek dok beria cakap pasal kayak saja sampai dia tanya...

"Tak boleh bawak saya ke?"

Jeles ye? Saya suka!

Aaaaand when Bamer officially told me that I was not in the list, memang frust. Nanges waktu mandi jugak laa...

Kali ni, aku takde kepoh-kepoh. Takde canang kat orang kata nk pi expedisi bagai.

Except with the husband. And the kids.

Not even my mom.

Tapi kalau Tuhan kata 'Tidak', maka tidaklah jawabnya...

So, I have been thinking...

Pasaipa I was so emotional about kayaking?

Is it because I really like it? I am passionate about it?

Or its just because I wanna re-live some part of my life when I was younger??

Cause if kayaking really is a BIG part of my life... why the hiatus?

Why didn't  I kayak a lot? I live very near to a lot of paid kayaking facilities.
I even have access to kayak at my workplace.

But, I didn't utilize it.

Compared to Bamer, despite having to work and juggle family time, he makes the effort to do maraton, heck he is even a part-time kayaking trainer at my alma mater.
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I miss those times.

I believed I was my best when I join kayaking.

I didn't know I had it in me.

I was even the university's MASUM '06 kayaking athlete, man!

The fact that I was listed and competed was really among the best moments in my life.
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But I guess that was me 11kg ago.

Yesterday, I sent of 6 of my students from our Kayak Club to the Kayak Star 1 workshop.

I am happy, because I am glad many of them had the interest.

I am sad, cause as Club Advisor, I am only a big talker without any legit qualification.


Till next time.
I'm off cleaning poop.
That's my life now.

After 6 months...

... I gained extra 3kg.

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Mixed Feelings Episode 2

Contacted Bamer as promised.

"Alamak! Lupa la Yada! Sekarang dah penuh pulak..."

"Takpalaa... xdak rezeki kot. Nanti Ada btau Yina..."

"Eh, tapi nama Yina ada..."

Pulak.

Was moody the whole day.

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