she has arrived!

presenting the arrival of

Ummu Hannan Binti Mu'az @ Ahmad Muaz Bin A'denar

D.O.B: May 28, 2011
T.O.B: 5.33 pm
P.O.B: Pusat Rawatan Islam Ar-Ridzuan
Weight: 3.1 kg
Length: 5.2 cm

welcome to the family dear!! :)

having a coke with you...

is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I'm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o'clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles

and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them

I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it's in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven't gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn't pick the rider as carefully
as the horse

it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

—Frank O'Hara

she's back for the week!

Sarah & my sisters are here for the whole week! *yeay!*

Angah drives and Ajah cam besa laa kena babysit Sarah. alhamdulillah, Sarah tdoq all the way sampai dr Tapah sampai ke PD. dah sampai ghomah pon dia dok sibuk nak tdoq lagi. hahahahaha... sayang ibu penat ye jalan jauh dengan keta? :)

rindu betul ibu dengan Sarah. rasa puas dapat tengok muke Sarah setiap hari, Sarah senyum kat ibu pagi-pagi, Sarah tunggu ibu dekat sliding door setiap kali ibu balek keje... sejukkk hati :)

abah lagi lagi laaa suke. berdokong je kome berdua ;)

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Ibu repot, kata Sarah asek dok garu dia punya tanda lahir sampai luka berdarah. doktor plak mane buleh simply kasik ubat gitu je tanpa checkup.

so, that Friday, i purposely took a day off from work to bawak Sarah to see her Paed. and bawak adik2 aku berjalan. sian pulak kat dema dok terperuk dalam ghomah je. Sarah takpe, she's in her own playland *hehehe*

but the special reason we went out was because...
... i'm off to Celcom centre to claim my

hehehehe ^___^"

ye, ye. aku tahu, aku laa dulu dok bising kata telepon yang kena touchscreen ni leceh laa, hape laa...

... tapi, kalo dah ado org nk belanje, ape salahnye kan? hehehehe...

sungguhpon henpon ni berat, nak pegang pon takut-takut pasal casing blakang dia kaca, kamera dia pon tak canggih mcm Elm aku....

... tapi memang pueh ati laa bila nk check/reply email, online FB, blogwalking... rase macam dok surf guna netbook but smaller.

suami-ku ahmad muaz, terima kaseh ye? tapi maap, ai x mampu nak balas hadiah mahai2 kat yuu (--")

nanti yuu claim dari anak-anak kite ye? *eheh*

3 tahun yang lalu...

Hari Buruh. orang cuti. tapi aku koje.
aloh... takat nk koje jage exam je, bukannye penat mane pon. buhsan je la sikit. tapi dapat claim cuti triple woo! *yeah*

aku ni, dh memang terdesak dh mencari peluang menambah jumlah cuti tahunan. yelaa... setahun dapat cuti 14hari je. kalu bawak anak checkup suma, mane laa dapat m.c. jadi kena laa tolak cuti tahunan *uhuk uhuk*

ni dh nak bersalin ni, kena laa standby cuti gak. mane laa tahu nak lajak cuti bila2 ke... aku bukan koje gomen. kalo dak, buleh cuti bersalin sampai 3bulan hohoho...

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May 2. Monday.
Since Labour Day falls on Sunday, so Monday kira cuti am laa. hohoho... makcik suke!

bila diingat-ingatkan lagi, hari ni sebenarnya genap 3 tahun aku bekerja sebagai pendidik. terdidik-kah murid-murid ku? ntah. insyaallah, aku dah cuba sehabes baik. berkongsi ilmu semampunya, dengan harapan, ade yang keluar menjadi manusia.

kesian sebenonye kat budak2 ni. kesian kat depa, kesian kat mak pak depa. yang memang datang NAK belajar, NAK cuba berubah... memang ado. tapi tak seramai yang datang untuk bersuka-suki. kununnye, masuk kolej ni lah masa untuk depa berjoli, merasai hidup bebas tanpa kongkongan mak ayah...

banyak terpengaruh dengan tivi sangat budak2 sekarang ni *mcm laa aku baek sgt* (-_-")

ye, aku akui. dulu waktu first sem kat u*ia, bukan men lagi aku jelajah KL tu. pi situ, pi sini. jalan sana, jalan sini. tapi dak laa sampai klabbing bagai suma. aku maseh sedar asal usulku.

study pon slalu last minute, buat esemen main dann je, takde laa nak khusyuk macam orang len.

hasilnya, pointer tak naik tiga. takdak la bawah dua. tapi keciwa laa pasai aku tau, aku buleh dapat tiga. dulu waktu matric buleh ja dapat tiga kan??

menyesal takdak guna.

itu yang aku dok bebel setiap kali masuk kelas pertama setiap semester.

"Awak kena fokus dari hari pertama kelas..."
"Buat semua latihan, assignment yang saya bagi..."
"Tak faham, datang jumpa saya..."

tapi macam besa laa...
manusia mudah lupa :)

depa ni, yang kaya tu. kaya laa. tapi yang kaya pon bukan depa, mak pak depa jaa...

tapi kalau yang kurang berkemampuan tu, memang kita kesian sangat...
bapak keja buruh, mak surirumah, adik-beradik ghamai... tapi kalau hangpa tak usaha sendiri, mana mau kami tolong lebih-lebih...

kelas selalu ponteng. dalam kelas tak fokus. bila bagi assignment, nampak beno copypaste nye. pastu bila exam, semedang dok tanya aku maksud perkataan. takkan laa dah sem6 pon tak tau maksud 'describe' lagi sayang oiii?????

kesian tau kat depa ni... kesian sangat. tapi kalau depa sendiri tak kesian kat diri sendiri, camna? markah dari 40% dapat 8% ja??

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dalam2 aku xmau jadik cikgu dulu, ni laa sumber rejeki aku sejak 3 tahun yang lalu. alhamdulillah, onak duri dalam realiti bekerja berjaya ditempuh. cuma aku harap, tahun-tahun yang akan datang, aku akan lebih kuat, lebih cemerlang, bekerja dengan lebih tekun supaya gaji aku dok dapat setiap bulan ni halal, bukan hasil kerja curik tulang! *ameeenn*

ada niat nak sambung M.A, supaya nikmat ilmu lebih meluas. cuma belom diketemu laei ruang masa yang sesuai. mungkin lepas enchek suami graduate dr B.A nya. harap tidak terlambat :)

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anak-anak ibu,
besar nanti, blajar rajin2 ya? biar pandai macam abah :)