Woke up late this morning. Was in a rush for everything - prepping breakfast, packing Umar's bag, showering etc
Then I heard laughing from the kitchen. Opened the door to see the husband chatting with girls about 'international culture' while having breakfast together.
It warmed my heart. The view. Their laughs.
Terima kasih, ya Allah. For this lovely gift.
I just created an account in L*inkedln.
And suddenly had the urge to search this one uni friend of mine. The amazing Emma.
And after all these time, she is still amazing. Even more! So proud of her.
I still didn't know what happened between me and her. Tetibe kena unfriend. I typed a long message to her, still. No reply.
Obviously, I did not moved on. Hence the stalking LOL
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I actually envy her. Still. And a lot others.
How they became a better version of themselves. Professionally. Could that have been me?
Can I still get this family that I have now, if I were to pursue the so-called career of mine?
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No one can predict the future. One can only plan.
At the KD, after almost 6 months missing Umar's appointments.
"Wahhh... ke sana ke sini puan ye mengisahkan appointment anak ye?"
Come to think about it, yes.
My calendar is filled with Umar's follow-up with the paeds, OT treatments and speech classes...
Alhamdulillah, his focus retention is better. More eye contact with us. A lot of role-playing developed. But even though he has not yet speaking properly, he's very good with his body language. Or it is us who are alhamdulillah able to understand his body and facial expressions which allow us to engage with him better.
But I still think there's a lot more than I can do. That can be done.
I know I cannot compare myself with other supermom out there. But it always hurt when I know that I can be and do better.
"But I need rest. I am tired. I need time to myself."
Said the lazy, incompetent, selfish, stupid mother to herself.
Done with October classes and markings and all. YAY!
"Salam puan, dah boleh standby untuk kelas Mac ye?"
Party pooper. Pfft!
New day, new week.
I plan to only spend my weekdays on work. And weekends for the family.
We will see...
Stayed home. Because staying home when abah is around is wholesome.
And it's tengah bulan pon :p
Last day of the semester for my October students. *yay*
Not looking forward to marking their assessments soonest 😑
They asked to go to myKori for a quick dessert time.
Sarah ordered her usual watermelon kakigori. Hannan tried the yummy strawberry yogurt. Ibu, abah & Umar shared the ever chocolaty choco brownies kakigori 💓
Happy birthday, Yang Dipertuan Negeri Sembilan. Thanks for the annual birthday holiday ;)
PKPB 2.0 for us.
Nothing new.
Husband's still need to go to work. Kids still at home. And me? Still on my laptop like literally on screen time 24 hours blurghhhhhh
Just another Monday. And another 'birth' day of 'my' Siti Norhaliza *wink*
Thank you for looking out for me back then. Syukur Allah bagi rezeki berkawan dengan orang baik-baik.
Alhamdulillah :)
An on-the-spot decision.
The actual plan was to find a space where Umar can happily run around and gets his physical time while the rest of us enjoying each other's company out in the sun.
But we went tp Phantasy Farm instead.
Petting the furry animals
The place is actually bigger than it looks in these pictures. Very neat, very organised. And clean too!
My personal fave were when we were ath the Grandma's Farm. The tree house with swings and slides, complete with a water well; all of us had fun! Sarah Hannan learned how to use the bucket to retrieve water from the well. And as for Umar, puas hati dapat tengok dia naik turun tangga playing with the slides and all smiles!
Bought ourselves McDonald's for lunch, just like pre-covid times when we went out for jalan-jalan.
It's been a while since we got out of the house together. Looking forward to more this 2021, insyaallah ameeeen!
January 6, 2021
Got too overwhelmed with work. And headache. And all other occurring stuff.
And what did I do?
I cancelled/postponed all my classes. Gave them noted for self-reading instead.
Am I wrong to do that? Maybe.
Am I at fault for needing time to reschedule all of the abundance of stuff/work? No, I don't think so.
I hope.
Came for a filling. Got treated for root canal instead. Felt like being scammed by the doctor hahaha
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My first root canal at 37. WHAT?! I'M 37 THIS YEAR?!!!!
Drove back at 8:30 pm. Arrived home at 2:30 am. Arghhh penatnya!
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I'm lucky that husband is such a good driver. And a singing one too ;p
Happiest birthday, A*jah :)
Semoga Allah selalu pelihara dan murahkan rezeki dimana-mana juga awok berada.
And enjoy dating around with the husband while you still can ;)
Majlis bersanding.
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Phew, penatnya! Aku perform sungguh hari ni. At least, that was I thought I was doing. Running around here and there. Adjusting this, locating that - man! I even cracks my heels doing these!
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I am kinda liking this PKP wedding template - limited guest means its small and intimate. Also means that guests are free to stay and enjoy the wedding, ample time to sit around and catching up with each other's stories. Even though I don't really have the luxury to enjoy my time with my cousins, but seeing everyone faces has already made my day :)
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Semoga Allah pelihara dari penyakit-penyakit berjangkit dan merbahaya *ameen*
Alhamdulillah, my sister is now a married woman! :)
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Marriage is hard work. That's for sure. Have fun together. Solve problems together. Do not take each other for granted. For marriage is a partnership, where both efforts are needed to make it work.
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I pray that Allah showers you with sakinah, mawaddah and rahmah.
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I love you sister. Because of Allah :*
