hemm...

my template looks depressing!

..... maybe its time to change! its been 4years pon....

+ any suggestions?

nope...

Its not really over. Yet.

Followed husband to his company’s 2nd bowling tournament last night. I was super-excited since its been awhile since my first and foremost bowling experience with the Atcenians. Been looking forward for an opportunity to go play but working life harden the process.

But guess what? One of his team members cannot make it foe the 1st round (or lane they call it) so, I’m in!

Hehehe… with a cheeky smile, I took a size 4 bowling-shoes and trying hard to impress. Guess again? I striked! TWICE! (those was my trying-not-to-jump moment ^_^”)

After the 1st game, the actual player arrived. So the berat the hati to give it back to her but nak wat cne… she’s the one paying rm10 for the game ;)

Watching husband play and having fun with his team members, really reminds me of the GOOD OLD DAYS!

I miss my girlfriends…. WORK makes me too busy to enjoy life. And PD even drives me away from all my craze friends. Yup, they are crazy yet still mine ^_^

I miss hanging out till late night talking and chatting about nothing, dvd sessions till morning, jalan2 danau, charkueytiaw at mali….

I cried. I literally cried when everyone was cheering my husband who didn’t score strike pins (yup, he’s quite bad at bowling ^_^”)

Friends are those who do crazee things for you and with you, who will directly tells you that you’re ugly wearing even pretty dress, who buys you ice-cream even though you didn’t need one… (apekah??)

Gile aku tak dapat tahan my emotions last night! Just because of that stupid, hard-to-resist bowling game….

To you…
I miss you …. So so much… so very much!

emotionally un-fit! any pills?

hati semakin pulih. kurang sedih. untung ade suami yg gheti nak mem-backing diri ini ketika perlu. untuk ade ibu yang tau diri ini dah cukup keciwa dan tak perlu lagi di-leter akan perkara yg sudah berlaku. untung ade kawan2 yang memahami & membantu diri buat keputusan.

.... alhamdulillah ....

TERIMA KASEH TUHAN!

aku tak pergi MARA. ade yang marah. katanya rugi. katanya BODO tak pegi. ade gak yang kate, aku berlagak sombong.

pedulik ape aku ngan kata kamu.

i have my own reasons. and i'm glad i make that decision.

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my dad asked,

" angah, apsal ayong senyap je?"

angah jawab,

"dia tengah berkabung lagi tu..."

ayah blur.

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+ tak sabar nak tunggu cuti sekolah \o/

To Read or Not to Read!

i invigilated an exam last sunday. from 9 am to 12 pm. damn boring!
but managed to finish reading Little Black Dress's " The Men's Guide to Women's Bathroom ".

i invigilated an exam yesterday. from 9 am to 12 pm. damn boring!
but i did not managed to finish reading Anne Frank; The Diary of a Jewish Girl.

both books are equally thick. but i am obviously specialized in reading fiction than non-fiction books; which is bad for a literature graduate like me ^_^"

NEXT: Salman Rushdie's "Midnight Children" *ameen*

what a week

phew!
supposed to be a very easy week but turns out to be tense...

minggu ni dah start revision week so no more classes. no more teacher itu, teacher ini *yeay* but then i still have to finish marking their assignments & key-them-in (the carrymarks) into excel file.

my head of unit told me before not the be strict with the students since they are also our 'clients' so aku pon sesedap rase laa nak jadi santa clause by giving them quite-easy mark. bile everything is done, my 'head' told me to re-do ALL the marks for he thinks that the students did not deserve what they get. i'm like.. what the heaven??

yes. i know... i shouldnt be that generous but i just thought that they do deserve their 10-out-of-10 for its a very good groupwork. still, he's the 'head' and the head is always right!

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i am blessed with A LOT of interviews & callbacks...
c!mb - worked for 3 weeks.
un!+! - got the job. and currently rollin'...
kpl! - suitable for the post but unfortunately they wanted those who graduated in 2007
u!a - underwent all 3 stages but then, no rejeki... yet.
uum - went for the sake of ayah & his 'cabels'

and yesterday, aku baru je poei interview SPP kat pol! pd and tak sempat nak perform aku dah direjek. y? bcos of my own mistake, my own stupidity. i failed to produce my original spm cert.

bodo kan?

cert tuh dah lama ilang. but since all other interviews tak timbulkan issue itu, aku pon keep delaying myself from getting the new one.

padan muke.

ayah frust gile. listening to his voice, aku betul2 rase macam a LOSER to him. gile down. knowing that he's angry at me for making the STUPIDEST action in life.... aku nk kol umah pon rase tak mampu. bile teringat je, nanges. odw balek umah drive keta, nanges. smp umah tgk sutera maya, nangeh. bukak 702 tgk the nanny, nanges.

ye. its my time of the month. but the fact that i failed him sudah mampu untuk membuat aku down sedown-down nyer...

my husband was out of town, training at shah alam. my frens are all over the country, far from me. my sister is 7, still a kid.

but there is always mum.... who will not be angry at her children no matter what...

i miss ibu.....